A/N: Sorry about the weird spacing, but I got a MacBook and it either jumbles everything when I copy and paste or or it does this when I copy and paste from word to here.
so yeah, soorry!
Review, seriously.
I was grumpy, not only had Severus made a few minor adjustments to my regular look but I'm pretty sure I can't endure more then an hour with Draco Malfoy. Don't get me wrong the boy wasn't too, too bad now because as the years have gone on he's become a bit more pleasant and less snooty towards 'Victoria' but I still didn't like being paraded around like the model daughter. Cause truth be told I'm not and I don't like pretending I am.
"Why does my face look so funny?" I mutter poking at it while standing beside Severus in the bathroom. I mean what did he expect I was putting on some make-up and then realized that 'Victoria' looked different then normal. Also he didn't close the door while brushing that hair of his so I had every right to invite myself in and question the man.
"I quick charm is fine for people who don't see you often are arriving but Mr. Malfoy see's you almost daily at school. He would be quicker to recognize you then you would think" Severus explains in a slow tone as if he was trying to explain this to a three year old. I make a face once more rolling my now dark blue eyes. My face was more slim now, the bone structure more defined and looked nothing like my normal face which was more round and more like my brothers. The features were soft and my nose tiny and pointed giving me a rather snooty look. I didn't like it, I looked like a snob, I was the kind of girl I would make fun of. Luckily Malfoy hadn't seen 'Victoria' in more then a year. You see 'Victoria' is a little bitch, she doesn't care much for her adoptive father and doesn't leave school for holidays other then summer.
"I realize that but did you have to make me look so.."
"Different?"
"No.. like Fleur Delcoure with black hair?" I pause "and bangs". Severus chuckles a bit guiding me out of the bathroom and downstairs to the lighted fireplace which was magically giving off no heat.
"Okay, I'll go first, and make sure you follow this year. I will not stand for your antics today" he orders grabbing a handful of Floo Powder. I grunt signifying I heard him. He never let's anything go does he that was only one time.
"Malfoy Manor!"
Kill me now. I don't hate the Malfoy's, because hate is a very strong word and there is not many people I do hate. Except Malfoy's Aunt. I hate her, and Greyback, I hate him. Then there's Umbridge I hate her, and.. Well I guess I did hate quite a few people, including Draco's father. But Draco, or erm. Malfoy had never really done anything to me personally. I mean sure he called me names, sure he was a little smart ass and treated Hermione with no respect frequently reffering to her as Mudblood but he'd never done anything to me to make me hate him. Believe it or not like Harry I'm not as quick to judge.
Grabbing a handful of Floo Powder I throw it into the flames stepping in.
"Malfoy Manor"
I pull my elbows in closing my eyes tightly, if there was anything I hated more then Apperation it's deffinetly Floo'ing. Feeling the spinning stop I open my eyes stepping out into a large brightly lit room. I had to admit i did love the Malfoy's house. It was huge, open and very bright, from what I saw anyways.
", Welcome to Malfoy Manor, may I take your cloke?" a voice squeeks making me jump slightly at the sudden voice. Taking off the sooted cloke I had it to the small house elf who skampers away quickly. I thought they were suppose to be helpful, where the hell was I suppose to g-
"I see you finally decided to join us?" a familiar voice drawls from my left. I look over seeing the familiar frame of Draco Malfoy, my brothers only other sworn enemy. I swear if anything happened Harry wanted to blame it on Malfoy, maybe he had a man crush on him?
"I was held up briefly at the house, nice to see you again Draco" I say stiffly walking over to give him the required cheek kiss like always. Purebloods and their manners, a simple 'Hello' was fine with me.
"Victoria, always a pleasure. You've grown since we've last seen each other" he states taking my arm lightly and guiding me into the Tea Room, besides the Bathroom and Ballroom it was the only room I had really spent time in.
"As have you, I see you've stopped slicking your hair back" I observe, he haddn't done so the year before either but that's not something I would have known. Malfoy wasn't an ugly boy at all, to say so would be a downright lie.
Malfoy was a tall built boy, at least 6' which towered over my 5"5 easily. He had sharp facial features and a pointed face that gave off the air of superiority in many ways. His blonde hair hung now after not being slicked back any longer, through his ruffled hair you could see his cold grey eyes, they were the same colour as the clouds before a storm, but held some warmth behind them that was waiting to breech the surface.
"I see you've grown out of your baby fat"
"Twat" I grumble ignoring his light laughter, when I was younger Severus insisted on making me look chubby. I think he just didn't like the attention I was getting from Blaise Zabini.
"Ah Draco, I see you and Victoria are getting reacquainted" I nod realizing the women speaking was the one who had been at our home just a few days ago. I had hardly recgonized Narcissa Malfoy who looked tired and worn even through the beauty charms. That and she didn't have a cloke covering half her face.
"We are mother, I had forgotten how lovely her company is" I hold back a snort after getting a warning look from Severus who looked greatly out of place sitting at the lacy table drinking out of a flowered tea cup. I pick up my cup of tea sipping it quietly in order to keep from laughing. If I thought about the image before me I was sure to dissolve into giggles.
"Victoria, how is school going?"
"Very well mame, I'm excited about this upcoming year" I lie holding in a gag, I did like school I just wouldnt want to go to Drumstrang.
"I see your father has been unsucessful in trying to get you to join him and Draco at Hogwarts?" she asks laughing slightly. This always came up, none of Severus' "friends" could decide why I chose not to go to Hogwarts.
"Very much so, I don't wish to leave behind my friends and I do like my school"
"Such a pity" she mummers, I hear Malfoy laugh quietly and I kick his shin sharply making him jump."Something the matter Draco?"
"No Mother, nothing at all" Malfoy lies glaring at me, I smile in return ignoreing the sharp look Severus was giving me. He knew I had to get at least one good kick in.
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"Yeah but I didn't do it by myself, you were an evil little child you did talk me into it you know, don't think I've forgotten" I sneer listening to laugh.
"So Victoria, do you have a boyfriend?" Draco asks while giving me my 50th tour of the Manor grounds. After tea the two of us had been booted out and he was told to show me around once more. I held my tounge and instead tryed to take in every detail I could just incase Harry ever needed to know the Manor layout.
"No, how about you?" I tease watching his face twist in horror, I laugh shaking my head. "I'll rephrase that, do you have a girlfriend?"
Draco's face drop's as he stops walking turning his attention to the fountain in the North Garden.
"Have you ever had feeling's for someone you weren't suppose to?" he asks quietly. I nod thinking back to fourth year when I had a slight crush on Ron Weasley, that had only fuled to Hermione's rage. That and Harry's frustration when he figured out why Hermione kept scoffing whenever I talked to Ronald.
"I..there's a girl at school. She.. well" he pauses laughing bitterly, "she hates me I'm positive of that. There's just something about her though" he shakes his head running his fingers through his long hair taking a deep breath.
"How do you know she hates you?" I ask him quietly, I mean I'm sure no one could resist Malfoy for too long, I mean Slythriens are stubbron but not that stubbron. "She has too, I just know she does".
"Have you ever asked her?" I ask placing my hand lightly on his shoulder, I had never seen Malfoy like this. He was always so strong, guarded and sure. I didn't think he ever let anyone in. I certinatly never would of thought that he would let 'Victoria' in either.
"No"
"Then you can't know she does. It doesn't hurt to ask" I tell him patting his shoulder and walking away over to a nearby bench letting him stare into the fountain. When I woke up this morning I never expected to be here, I expected to jump on Harry and wake him up in a childish fashion because I never got to as a kid. I expected to slide down the stairs in the sleeping bag I found when I was cleaning my closet last night looking for an extra blanket for Harry and I expected to get grounded for something or other. But never in a million years did I think I would be watching Draco Malfoy as he stared into a fountain fretting over his love life or lack there of.
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"You were where?" Harry asks the next night laying in his bed facing me his head rested on his elbow.
"The Malfoy's, well "Victoria" was" I snort watching Harry's face twist in anger at the mention of the name. He always lectured me on how it was dangerous, what if Severus died and the charm stopped working, what if you blew your cover. I always shrug and tell him the same thing, I've been doing this since I was like eight, if I was going to mess up I would have then.
"He didn't try anything did he?"
"Who on Victoria? Nah, they're just friends, he was a little preoccupied anyways" I say truthfully not wanting the discussion to get any further, I don't like lying to Harry but for some reason what Malfoy and I talked about seemed personal almost.
"How was the Weasley's?" I ask hearing a commotion downstairs, no doubt Fred and George making some sort of commotion. We were currently at Grimmauld Place, after tea, and then dinner at the Malfoy's I was brought here because Severus was being summoned. I was slightly worried because I haddn't seen him since I had been ordered to Floo here once we got back home.
"Fine" Harry sighs laying back onto the bed. I stand from Ron's usual bed going over to lay beside my brother. "You really like her don't you?" I ask quietly reffering to the short tempered red head who was currently helping her mother make dinner downstairs. "Yeah, I think so... I mean I feel like I do"
I snort at this, "Rather then not feel it? Tell me Harry does this feeling start below the waist?" I ask laughing as I'm pushed to the floor with a rough shove landing with a loud thump.
Of course loud thumps in Grimmauld Place place always lead to silence and then the creeking of steps as people tryed to 'rescue' us Potter twins from the trouble that has obviously popped out of know where. I mean Harry was number one Voldemorts hit list but I was number one on his 'capture and use as bait' list.
"Harry don't touch me there!" I yell seeing a shadow standing outside the door, Harry's face which was poked over the side of the bed disappears as I hear him scoff. "Ohh Harry" I giggle from my place on the floor looking up at the dark wood ceiling a pillow lands in my face with a little too much force cracking my nose. "Watch it not so hard now" I snap standing to beat him with the pillow. Harry grins jumping from the bed and grabbing the pillow from Ron's bed raising his eyebrows quickly in challenge.
That was all it took, it was war. As children we didn't spend time together until fist year, because of this we never got to work on that sibiling rivalry thing and often engaged in activities such as this that ended in someone getting hurt. As I ducked the pillow attacking me I could hear footsteps retreating from the door, obviously they had figured nothing too dangerours or immorally incestuios was going on. "Is that all you got Harry?" I mock after being hit rather hard in the side of the head. I could see the bedroom door opening but choose to ignore whoever it was. We didn't get too much time to do things like this, we liked to call it bonding but people often mistook it as us wanting to kill each other.
"Lizzie, Harry if you two would kindly put those pillows down dinner is ready" a soft voice sighs making the both of us stop midswing. Dropping my pillow I turn to see the warn tired face of Remus Lupin, my godfather and werewolf. The same man I haven't seen in weeks.
"Remus!" I shout jumping on him and hugging him tightly. I missed him a lot though the summer and school year because I didn't get to see him too often. When I did it was usually for a short amount of time. Harry who spent a larger amount of time with the Weasleys got to see him more frequently then I did.
"Lizzie, little Lizzie-lily" he mummers into my hair hugging me tightly. He told me that was what Dad used to call me when I was just a baby. I wasn't incredubly fond of the pet name but Sirius also called me that, which is something I missed greatly.
"Lizzie-lily, could you go ask Molly for th-"
"What did you just call me?" I ask confused pausing on my way to the door. I may trust that this guy isn't a mass murderer but I was still kind of freaked out by him. It's not like I've really seen him much since Third Year and even then I was just chasing after him so he didn't rip Ron's foot off.
"Lizzie-lily, it's..well your Dad and I used to call you that when you were just a baby. I'm sorry I don't hav-"
"No" I smile shaking my head, "I like it" I smile blinking away some tears that were threatening to spill over.
Moments between Sirius and myself were often limited, Harry liked to spend a lot of time with him to which I didn't mind because I got to see him the summer of last year a lot more then Harry did. Something he didn't, and Severus didn't like too much. Harry because he didn't know what was going on because none of us told him anything, and Severus because Sirius would spend his time telling me school stories that involved him or fighting with Severus about custody. It was usually fought about last summer about how me living with Severus wasn't supppose to happen because the letter had been a joke.
"I've missed you" I sniff pulling away taking in his appearence, Harry had thankfully left. Remus looked old for his actual age, the transformations and the loss of his best friend (again) did not help with his building stress and sense of loss. "I've miss you too Lizzie, I've missed you too" he mumbles kissing my forehead and wrapping me under his arm protectively leading me down to dinner.
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"Well well who is this?"
"This is Lizzie, who are you?" I ask some-what confused looking up at the read-head infront of me. It was a Weasley that much could be guessed but it wasn't one that I knew.
"Bill Weasley"
"Ah the Goblin boy" I nod, I had heard stories of Bill, he was the most rugged looking of the Weasley boy's that I had met so far, his hair long and in a pony tail to which I have heard stories about the arguments him and Mrs. Weasley would get into.
"WILLIAM!"
"Sorry got to run" Bill says looking panicked at the sound of his mothers voice scampering away quickly. I laugh watching the grown man head through the door waving as he dashes towards the stairs down to the kitchen.
I wasn't quite sure where anyone was. I knew that most of the Weasley's had gone back to the Burrow. Harry had followed after putting up a fus about not wanting to go back and deal with Severus yet. I was sure Molly and Bill would be leaving as soon as Molly had finished cleaning the kitchen, and Hermione had left with Harry for the Burrow.
This left, Lupin and I for the night since Severus still wasn't back which I was kind of pissed about. When he was called he was usually only gone a few hours which I was used to, however this was the second night and I was becoming increasingly worried.
"He'll be back soon" Remus' voice says as he walks into the library sitting down beside me on the dusty couch.
"I worry" I frown staring into the burning fire my arms crossed in stubbroness. It bothered me how no one else seemed worried about this just because he was Snape. "He's never gone this long without telling me ahead of time" I mutter crossly. When he went on some mission for them I was always told a head of time so I wasn't stuck being grumpy and sleepless.
"Well something must of come up"
"Well some heads up would have been nice, you'd think Volde-shit would realize he has a daughter at home. Hes a single parent you know!" I rant, sure I wasn't really his daughter but Voldemort didn't know that. "A fifteen year old girl should not be left to her own devices especially me!"
Remus laughs pulling me into a hug, "Your not on your own though, you have me. Even if it is for just a brief time you do have me you will always have me Lizzie" he says with determination like he had been trying to say that for awhile. Remus and I had a close relationship now but it always haddn't been that way. Especially when I first found out he was my godfather.
"Did you know I'm your godfather Harry?" Sirius asked look down at Harry who was kneeling beside me. I had just chased what I thought was a grim into a hole so he didn't eat Ron, then he turned out to be the crazy-mass murderer who got my parents killed, then I find out that wasn't true it was Ron's rat. I think I need to lay down.
"Wait, I want a godfather!" I whine looking up at the man who looked like he haddn't had a shower for quite awhile.
"You have one too, hasn't R-"
"It's me" a voice interrupts, looking over I see Professor Lupin walking towards us with his hands in his pockets. The man who seemed to favor Harry, took him aside to teach him private lessons was my godfather? The same man who seemed not to want to get to know me, at all!
"But, you" I swallow the lump in my throut, "you don't like me, at all" I finish confused. Professor Lupin would often in class pick anyone but me to answer a question, even if mine and Hermiones hands were the only up, every single time he'd pick her his eyes always glancing over me as if I wasn't even there. I loud laughing, no correction laughing's jar me from my thoughts and I struggle to stand, Harry and I both frowing at the the men infront of us.
"I'm sure he likes you just fine, when you were a baby he'd drop everything and run to your side if he heard you so as much breath too loudly"
"I..I didn't want to scare you, and I didn't want Harry to feel left out. I thought if I told you, well I couldn't do that because Severus asked, well demeanded I not do that...I just, Elizabeth I would love nothiing more then to be the best godfather ever, but it's hard for me with my..condition"
"So instead you pretend I don't exist and spend time making buddy with my brother who is the one to tell me that you knew our parents. How do you think that made me feel? Harry comes in all happy cause he had a nice chat with Professor Lupin about how great friends he was with our parents, how he looks like them and everything. What do I get nothing! I get ignored like I don't exist! I've known about you condition for months I'm not a friggen idoit like Harry here who wouldn't know a werewolf if it bit him in the as-!"
"Hey!"
"Oh shutup" I yell hitting him over the head with my wand and stomping away from the three men and over to Hermione who was helping Ron. Stupid Lupin, I don't want anything to do with him anyways.
"Remus" I start casually feeling him grunt in response, "where do you live?"
"I'm not telling you that"
"Even if it means I get to see you more?"
"Even then, you know you can't live with me Lizzie"
I growl making him laugh, he always told me I sounded like a dog when I did that. I was rather ticked off when Sirius would fight with Dumbledore asking if Harry could live with him and no one fought for me. I didn't mind living with Severus, I cared a great deal for him but I did love Remus as well.
"It's no fair" I pout, Remus pulls me in closer sighing with slight frustration, I didn't mean to make him like this but it always happened.
"I know it's not, I always wondered why your Mum named me your godfather, if you didn't have Snape I don't know what we would have done."
"I would have been stuck with smelly old Aunt Peatunia and the whale twins" I grumble making myself more comfortable I couldn't tell ow late it was but I knew it was past 9:00, our dinner had been late and Mrs. Weasley had stuck around hovering for awhile encase I needed something.
"Perhaps, but I wouldn't have wanted to leave you there. I wouldn't have been able too leave you there. I couldn't have taken you and left Harry either, and he has to stay there. I couldn't have taken care of you properly if you did live with me anyways. We should be glad you have Snape, he saved you from a horrid childhood and me from having to try and raise you"
"I am glad I have Severus, but I'm greedy I want both of you. Like a divorced Mum and Dad you know?"
At this Remus laughs lightly, "Well when this war is over I have no problems with you coming to visit"
I snort tiredly, "Visit, I'm going to make up for lost time, I hope you don't mind me visiting for a constant sixteen years or so"
"You are not living with me in your thirties"
"We'll see" I snicker watching the flames dance. Its times like these I'm glad Harry and I don't go everywhere eachother goes, because a moment like this would have for certain made him miss Sirius.
"I miss him" I admite quietly tears stinging my eyes.
"I do too Lizzie, but you do know he'll always be proud of you. Now he just get's to watch you with your Mum and Dad now. "I don't want them to have to watch me I want them to be here with me"
"We all do Lizzie-lily, we all do" he softly assures me, cradeling me in his arms like a father would a daughter. Reassuring me until I fell asleep.
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