Chapter 7

"Height and seeking

Oh we are reaching

New heights and seeking

How to keep them high"

A fine frenzy

Richelle mead owns all!

RPOV

Christian's eyes rolled to the back of his head and he fell to the floor. Lissa rushed to his side and healed him immediately.

"Lissa," i scolded, "You need to stop using spirit so much we don't know how it will affect the baby."

"Yeah you are right I better not do that." Christian's eyes opened up and he started to sit when Lissa pushed him back down. "Hey stay right there. You just passed out, i don't want you to move and hurt yourself."

"I'm gonna be a daddy?" Christian asked Lissa.

"Yeah, you are going to be a daddy." She pressed her lips to his and i took that as my cue to leave and give them some alone time.

I walked back to the apartment a little sad that i couldn't give dimitri that kind of happiness, I mean I never really wanted kids, especially at my age, but maybe way in the future we could adopt.

"Roza, are you okay?" Dimitri pulled me out of my thoughts. "Are you going to come in, you've been standing out there for a while?"

I smiled," Yeah I'm fine, you want to take a walk with me?"

He smiled back," yeah of course I will, let me just put some clothes on." He was still in his boxers from the night before. I laughed, all of the female population would stare if he went out like this.

"Yeah you go do that." He gave me a quick kiss before going into the bedroom to change; I stared at his perfectly sculpted ass the whole way. Hey I'm a girl, sue me…

Dimitri came back out a few minutes later looking like he stepped straight out of a Ralph Lauren ad. He looked gorgeous. He caught me staring.

"What?" he looked down at himself, as if something was wrong.

"What are you wearing?" he looked so yummy.

"What do you mean? I'm wearing the stuff Lissa bought me."

"Oh nothing, you look so hot." I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. "And you smell really good."

"Thank you Roza" I kissed him quickly before grabbing his hand and pulling him out the door.

We walked to the Courts gardens hand in hand. We strolled in comfortable silence, not needing to say anything, but the silence made me think. What if Dimitri wanted kids? What if Dimitri wanted kids badly enough that he would leave me when he got bored? We were fine now but what about in a year, or five? Dimitri must have noticed something was wrong. Well of course he did he read me like an open book.

"Roza?" We had stopped walking and Dimitri pulled me to a bench.

"Huh?" I responded. He put his thumb to my forehead and smoothed the lines that had formed there when I was contemplating my thoughts.

"Are you okay? You look sad." His beautiful face filled with worry.

"I'd say i was okay, but you wouldn't believe me. If I ask you a question will you promise not to laugh at me or say my question is totally senseless because I really need to hear the truth, not what i want to hear." I could feel the tears threaten to spill over, I didn't know why, I never cried. Maybe it was Lissa's emotions.

"Yeah Roza you can ask me anything you know that," He pulled me into his arms and I buried my face in the crook of his neck. The tears I wanted to hold in so badly slipped over the edge and down my face.

"I'm sorry." I said wiping the tears away with the back of my hand.

"Why are you sorry? Cause your crying? Its fine let it all out." I could feel his hands along my back, soothing me while I cried into his shoulder.

"It's these fucking hormones, they are just draining me." He didn't say anything about me dropping the f bomb like he normally would just sat there and held me. I wiped my face and sat up. "Umm…do you want kids?"

He looked at me with confusion in his eyes, "Kids? I mean I've thought about it but not now, I mean, what brought this on?"

I looked at him through my eyelashes. "Lissa. The baby. What I'll never give you. It makes me so upset."

"Oh Roza, I don't need that , I have you. I love you, never doubt that."

He picked me up from the bench and carried me bridal style towards our apartment.

"what are we doing?"

"we are going back to our apartment so I can show you how much I love you," he whispered in my ear huskily. "Im going to make love to you til you realize that im not going anywhere, ever."

He opened the door to our apartment, and set me back on the ground. He shut the door behind him, and turned so he could kiss me long and hard. He pulled back to trail kisses down my neck. "I love you so much, never doubt that." He whispered as he pulled my t- shirt off and kissed down my chest while I lost my Toms.

He slipped his shoes off and his socks and worked on the buttons of my jeans. "You are so beautiful, you know that? You make me crazy." His Russian accented words made me lose my train of thought and all that was in my mind was him.

I pulled his shorts and shirt off, and then slipped out of my jeans; I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed him like I never kissed him before. With everything I had. I pulled the leather tie that was holding his gorgeous locks up, out of his hair and ran my fingers through it. It was like silk perfection. He walked towards the far side of the apartment, to the bedroom. When we finally made it to the bedroom he laid me down and crawled in with me. We shed the rest of our clothes and we made love all day until i couldn't even remember my own name.

The next morning I woke up in only a soft cotton shirt that Russian writing on it and underwear, cradled in Dimitri's giant strong arms when the nausea hit me just like the morning before. I mean I loved lissa, but we'd have to figure out a way to stop the pain from coming through the bond. Dimitri must have woken up to the sound of my barfing because i could feel his hands against my back and holding my hair. "Shh… ty v poryadke krasivaya devushka, ty v poryadke" I didn't know what he was saying, but it was soothing none the less. When the nausea finally went away I flushed the toilet and brushed my teeth.

I wrapped my arms around Dimitri and buried my face in the crook of his arm. "This fucking sucks Comrade." I mumbled into his chest. He kissed the top of my head.

"Yeah i know it does baby." He picked me up from the floor and wrapped my legs around his waist; I wrapped my warms around his neck and hugged him hard.

"i love you, you know that?" I whispered. He just chuckled and carried us to the kitchen.

"Yeah i know that, i love you my roza." He set me on the marble kitchen countertop and kissed my lips. "What do you want for breakfast?"

"Food." I responded. "Anything."

"How about i make you something my mom used to make me for breakfast?"

"Something Russian? " i asked. "That sounds good."

"Yeah. It is." He got to making the Russian breakfast while I sat on the counter, watching him. He looked so sexy, in only his boxers, muscles rippling when he moved. Yum.

"Rose, here drink this." Dimitri handed me a glass of water. "Maybe it will help your stomach."

"Thank you." I drank the water and continued to watch him cook. He sat a plate in front of me piled high with what he had just cooked.

"Here, eat." He pulled me off of the counter and onto his lap at a table in our little breakfast nook. I ate my breakfast in silence just leaning into Dimitri's warmth.

"Uh…i should stop…i'm eating like a cow…i think lissa's cravings are coming hrough the bond too…"

Dimitri's arms went around my waist and pulled me close," Don't worry so much. Eat, its fine"

I hopped out of his lap. I thought I give him his birthday surprise now since I couldn't keep the secret any longer. "I have something for you but you have to close your eyes."

"What is it Roza?" Dimitri asked with his eyes closed.

"Well since your birthday is in two weeks i thought I'd give you your present early." I went to the drawer that I hid his gift in and pulled it out. As soon as dimitri and I got back together lissa and I decided that for his birthday that i would get him tickets to go home to Baia for his birthday(ps dimitris bday is unknown so its going to be now)

"Are you going to dress up like a cowgirl for me?" he asked, his humor surprising me.

I laughed, "No that's not the surprise, but I can do that too. Okay hold out your hands but don't open your eyes."

He held out his strong rough hands and I placed the envelope in them. "Okay open."

He pulled the tickets out of the envelope and a beautiful white smile broke out across his face. "We are going to Russia?"

"Yeah next week, for your 25th birthday. Are you excited?"

He laughed one gorgeous chuckle and wrapped me in his big, strong arms. "I'm so excited, you just don't even know."

"We are going to Russia."

He nodded, "Yeah i guess we are. Thank you Roza."

"Its my pleasure."

Russian translation: youre okay beautiful girl, youre okay

So hi guys..please don't shoot me…i do have an explaination…ive been terribly busy and very not-inspired! I only got three reviews for the chapter….so thanks for those…im not complaining…i just didn't even feel like writing..so i hope you liked this chapter…the nnext one should be up within the next few weeks…please give me some sugeestions ! and review…cause then i will actually write some more!

Til next time

Tristan Nicole

Ps: i hope that ((sort of)) lemon wasn't the worst thing ever…it was choppy and awful so just pretend it was good