18. Beg
I went to bed that night dreaming of all the ways Jace would try to apologize. He would probably come there with roses or something like that. I went to school and caught up with everyone. "So Carmi why didn't you come back at lunch?" Preston asked as I got my books out of my locker. We had fifteen minutes. "Jace did something." I responded in a dead tone. I didn't even look up to see his reaction. "Umm Carmi?" I heard him say and I looked up. "Yes?" "I have to go Cara has to tell me something." And he left. Like all jerks do.
The day passed slowly and I walked through the door to my house. Mom was at work today. So my brothers were all home. None of my friends were really talking to me today at lunch. Or maybe it was just me. "Cammi did Jace say sorry today?" when Chase said that I thought. Actually Jace didn't even see me today. He didn't even say so much as hello. "No I'll be upstairs." I ran and dropped my backpack on the floor. Was he thinking of an apology? Or did he not like me anymore?
"Carr you have been in here for five hours now. It is time to come out." Devon said to me in a gentle voice as he walked in. I was on my bed. "What if he doesn't care anymore?" I said as he sat next to me on my bed. "He cares Cambrey. He just doesn't know what to do. He is just a ninth grade boy after all." He kissed me on my head. "I love you Devon." "Do you want me to talk to him?" he asked. No you will just cause trouble. "No you don't have to talk to him tomorrow at school." "No Carr I meant now." He discretely nodded his head toward my balcony door. What was he talking about? I turned around to see Jace standing on my balcony. Nothing in his hands that I could see. I looked at Devon. "I'll go. If you need me you call, swear?" he said. We locked pinkies and I nodded.
I went to my balcony. "Hello Cambrey." He said and sounded just like the so many dates we have had when he picked me up. "Hi." "Where do you want me to start? Do you want me to give you an explanation or beg?" I thought he was kidding but when I looked at his face it was all serious. No jokes he was going to mean everything that came out of his mouth in the next ten minutes. He was going to beg for forgiveness and expect it. I didn't know whether to give in or not. He kissed someone else. Someone that was not me. I wanted to forgive him but I didn't know if he kissed her. I wanted it the other way. I hoped it was. "Beg."