19. Say it again
The dominant emotion on his face was shock for a split second then it went serious. "Cambrey I am sorry for what happened. I didn't know she was going to kiss me." He began. I smiled internally, that was all I wanted was an apology. An apology and to mess with him while he was doing it. "Well I don't know why you didn't pull away." I said wrapping my arms around myself and looking at the stars in the sky. "It happened so fast I didn't know what was going on. I tried to pull away Cambrey but I couldn't get her off and then you came." I heard him say. I could tell he didn't know what else to say to me; but I did.
"I just don't know how she could kiss you I mean I thought she was nice." I started crying. I actually didn't know if they were fake this time because this had been in my mind all day. This is the question that made everyone come in my room to see what was wrong with me. He looked relieved that I understood that he didn't kiss her. That is until he saw the tears. He pulled me in his arms and I got the shoulder of his t-shirt wet. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Was all he said as he ran a hand through my hair.
About five minutes later we heard "What did you do!" a male voice yelled. Devon. Before I could chomprend what in the heck he was doing in my bedroom I was yanked into his arms. "He was just apologizing Devon." I told him. "Then why are you crying Carr?" he asked. I hadn't realized I was still crying. "I don't know." I told him. "Devon I need to talk to Jace please." I told him. He just nodded then sent a glare towards Jace. "Jace I think it is best if we break up for a little while." I told him. I can't even tell you the dominant emotion on his face there were so many. "Say it again?" he asked in a confused tone. "I want to break up for a little while." I told him again. I already hurt him once why did he want me to repeat it? "Ok take your time I will be waiting." He climbed down the tree and drove off. I didn't get myself.
"I just don't get it why didn't he fight for me?" I asked Mallory as she unpacked her things from her suitcase. She was coming home for the week. Lauren and Lydia were coming in tomorrow. "Cambrey what do you want from the guy? You wanted to break up and you did mission accomplished right?" "Yeah I just wanted him to fight for me." I told her again. "Cambrey the boy is in ninth grade he doesn't know that yet. He is confused and doesn't know what you want. He doesn't know what you him to do Hun." She told me as she got the last thing out of her suitcase and put it in the closet. I nodded at her answer. I didn't even know what I wanted. I don't even know why I wanted to break up.
I went to bed that night trying to figure out what I wanted from Jace. I was confused as well. I wanted to break up but then when we did I wanted him to fight for me. I hate relationships they are confusing. That is why you stay single and get a good job and adopt kids. Then though you would end up alone. Someone needs to make a rule book for life to follow. It would be so much easier. Or a relationship book but I think they already have one of those. It is weird being a girl.