-1Disclaimer: I don't own X-Men: Evolution or 'Gone Forever' by Three Days Grace
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Don't
know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a
hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up
all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround
me with the story of our life
Demonic eyes looked around the dive of a motel he'd been staying in. He didn't give a damn what the place looked like. He didn't give a damn what he looked like. He hadn't since her.
The man looked about in confusion. He had spent the last week trying to sort out what had happened. He thought they were happy. Hell, he'd been happy for once in his life. He still didn't know what had gone wrong and he was almost past even caring. Almost.
The last week had felt like a hundred years to him. He kept expecting her to walk in the door. He was waiting for her to give him that smile that he loved, the one that lit up her eyes like emeralds. He was waiting to hear that sweet Southern drawl once again. To see those hips that he loved so much. To run his hands through her auburn hair. To wrap his arms around her after a passionate night.
These
thoughts had been plaguing his mind. He had not slept in two days but
he felt no fatigue. The alcohol coursing through his veins dulled the
pain. It was all that kept him from loosing his mind. He silently
cursed himself for putting pictures of her in plain sight in the
room. The bottles disappeared faster whenever one caught his eye.
I
feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself
that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so
much better now
That you're gone forever
He spent the days lying in the bed and the night lying to himself. He kept telling himself that he felt better without her. That he didn't miss her. That he wasn't in denial about it. At the end of the night, only one thought remained. He had lost her forever. Not even the mass amounts of alcohol could drown out this thought that haunted him until sleep claimed him again.
Now
things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this
world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all
night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes
I'll
Forget about our life
In a large, dark room, emerald eyes shone with tears. She was finally understanding everything. She didn't need him. Logan had been right from the beginning. It made her world easier without him in it.
A hand ran through the auburn hair as she took another swig from a bottle. She had spent the last week trying to convince herself that she was glad that he was gone. He hadn't been anything but trouble since he'd arrived. He'd caused her nothing but heartache and problems.
The woman stood and opened her balcony door. She couldn't be cooped up any longer. She jumped off the balcony with a feeling of freedom. This was the pattern she had followed for the last week. She would spend the nights out getting drunk. She would get into at least one fight. Deep down she knew that these habits were destroying her, but they allowed her to forget about him until morning.
I
feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself
that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so
much better now
That you're gone forever
She had all but convinced herself that she was better without him. She didn't need the shit that he'd put on her over the last few years. She was glad that he was gone. She didn't miss him, refused to miss him. She had quit lying to herself and allowed the hate to take over her. She was rid of him forever. Forever. The word echoed hollowly in her mind.
First
time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should
have known it could be so much better
She should have been rid of him long ago. She should have listened to Logan. She should have kicked him out after their first major fight. She should've known that she'd be better off with him gone.
I
hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone
forever
The man laid on the bed, staring at the blank ceiling. He hoped that she missed him. He hoped that being alone was tearing her apart. He hoped that she saw that he was never coming back.
And
now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this
world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
As time went on, it was clear that she didn't need him. Her heart still ached for the one time love, but she could live without him. The world around her had become ten times easier after he had left. She was glad that he had disappeared.
I
feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I
tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying
that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now
you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever