CHAPTER 4

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(A/N: ok so I just wanted to thank everyone who has read reviewed and added my story. I need so more reviews to let me know how I am doing so far. Even Flames are welcome. And without further due chapter 4. Also there is some lovin in this chap. So be aware. Nothing too nasty that may come later. HEE-HEE! Oh and this will probably be like a cliffy too sorry. (not really but enjoy it any way))

I stumbled my way through the woods and over tree roots. The sunlight was splayed about. It looked like someone spray painted the forest with sunlight. I saw an open area in front of me so I pushed my way there. The clearing was beautiful. There were arrays of wild flowers. I bend over to take in the sweet smells that were escaping the flowers. I smiled lightly. When I stood back up I saw it. It was standing in front of me. Without thinking I started running to it. Tears started sneaking down my face. I jumped on it with my hands around its neck. I heard it moan.

"Oh Jacob!" I said kissing him ion his furry forehead. I stepped back to look in his eyes. Even as his wolf self I saw the pain in them. I was still crying. He nudged my shoulder with his nose. We just stood there staring at each other. The silence was thick but not uncomfortable. I hugged him again. I had to get on my toes to whisper in his ear.

"I choose to live." I whispered. He stepped back with a confused expression on his face. I looked directly in his eyes without blinking. He made a confused grunt.

"I said that I choose to live" I said again. Jacob turned around and took off running. I was left there with my mouth open. But before I could protest I saw him running towards me. I smiled as he ran to me. His bare chest glistening with sweat beads and his hair loose and free, he was a sight to behold. He reached me with open arms and grabbed me. We held each other for a while but not nearly long enough. Inside my thoughts were screaming with delight. I had my Jacob.

"oh Bella. I- I- I thought they were lying, I mean when Sam said you came to find me. I just can't believe it – its " He started but I grabbed his face and kissed him hard. He eagerly accepted and kissed me back. The kiss was pure bliss. I could easily be addicted to him instead. I thought. My hands had a mind of their own and started tracing over his chest and arms. There was sparks between us.

"Jacob, we need to talk!" I finally broke free from the kiss. He didn't let go but stared into my eyes. He simply nodded. We sat down and he pulled me on him.

"What about Bells?" He asked slowly caressing my face. I moaned a little. I looked at him then quickly looked away. I felt embarrassed. This was going to be hard but he needs to know everything. I took a deep breathe. Ok here it goes. My heart on my sleeve and he can do what he will. I thought as I began.

"Ok, do you remember when he left me?" I looked at him. He only nodded so I continued. "Then we became very close. And I think that we still are if not closer. Anyway when I went to find him in Italy something bad happened. It was one of the reasons that I wanted to be changed." He looked intently at me but said nothing.

"There is a huge coven there. They let me live with the prospect of becoming one myself. So now I don't know what is going to happen. I mean now that I am not with him anymore. I mean that is if you still want me. I mean if we decide to be together. I mean um – well" I was trying to find the right words but it came out all wrong. He looked at me. His face was twisted up in the face he makes when he was thinking. I sighed. Then I tried to get up but he gripped tighter.

"Wait Bella! I want you too. You know that I love you and if you still think that being with that bloo- Edward, is what you want then I will let you go. Why didn't you ever tell me about the leeches in Italy?" He talked into my neck. I just wanted us to stay like this forever. He started kissing my neck. I wanted him so bad but.

"Please, Jake." I breathed. He looked at me not sure what to do. I could tell that he wanted me too. He moaned when I kissed his chest and neck. He stopped me.

"Bella. Was there anything else that you needed to tale me." He raised his eyebrow. I blinked at him unsure. He cleared his throat.

"What did you mean when you said that you choose to live?" He asked softly. I flushed a bright red. I was speechless. I opened my mouth but no words came out.

"I meant that I want to live. You know as in I want my heart to keep beating for as long as it will. Don't you get it crazy! I want you!" I finally said. My face turned a shade of red that I didn't know it could get. He sat there grinning at me. He knew what I meant! I swatted at him playfully. We ended up laying on the ground laughing. I started kissing him again. This time he didn't push me away from him. We touched each other like never before.

My shirt was off somehow. Jacob touched me softly on my breast like he thought they would break. He kissed me in between them before reaching for my pants. I took a deep breathe but did not stop him. Instead I responded by going for his pants. I think that I shocked him. Kissing all the while we slowly undressed each other. He caught his breathe when I was fully exposed. The sun was setting in the distance but it somehow caught the twinkle in his gorgeous black eyes. Time meant nothing to us. We were where we wanted to be. Together. We progressed on with the declaration of our love. He was so gentle but it was incredible. He pushed in me and I felt pain that turned into extreme ecstasy. I moaned and wrapped my legs around his back. I never knew how good this could feel. He went faster and I sank my nails into his back. He moaned and kissed my neck. "Oh Bells." He would say and I would return with "My Jake. oh I love you." That made him go slightly harder. He licked me around my breast then to my neck where he bit me passionately. I moaned and sank my nails deeper then dragged them the length of his back. When we finished I could has sworn that he howled. I grinned up at him as he stared down into my eyes. He bent closer to me and kissed my forehead. He lay down next to me still holding me. We fell asleep there on the field. The night cooled off immensely but with Jake was so close I was sweating. (Still) We were naked and sleeping on the soft earth. It felt like a dream. Everything was perfect at last. Or was it?

What about Edward? What are you going to do about him? There was a small voice in my head asking me those things. I shivered. I dreamed about Edward coming to look for me. He found me here with Jacob like this and he became enraged. And a fight pursued. I screamed at Edward. Leave him alone. You said that you would let me chose. I choose to live. I want Jake. We are meant to be!" I cried out running toward them as they were facing off. I threw myself in front of Jake's massive russet wolf self. He bent down and hugged me. I kissed him on the side. "Please don't. We can run away. I can't live without you." I sobbed.

"Bella? Are you ok? You were crying." Jacob said waking me with a kiss on my back. I nodded. Should I say anything?

"I just hope that we are safe. I don't think that he will be angry or anything. I just want you to be safe." I finally stated sitting up. It was early morning or late night. I think early morning. We heard something coming this way. Jacob sat up quickly and searched for our clothes.

"Bella! Bella! Damn where did that girl get to? Quil do you see her?" It was Sam. He was looking for me. I looked up at Jacob whose smile spread across his face. When Quil was almost on us Jacob jumped up at him. Quil jumped back and exploded into his form. Jacob fell out laughing rolling around on the ground. Sam came running and nearly fell over me. I shrieked and grabbed what I thought was my shirt. I scrambled to find a safe place away and hopefully my pants at least.

"JAKE!!! What the hell!" Sam said as he leaped in the air to pin Jacob down. Jacob, who was still laughing uncontrollably on the ground, just lay there with Sam pinning him down.

"Uh, Sam, Bella might not be too happy if she sees us like this!" he giggled. Sam looked confused for a half a second and jumped off. He wiped at his pants. Then Sam looked around to find me on the ground not to far away, my face was bright red, in a ball trying to hide my self from them. A huge grin washed over his face. He pulled Jacob up and hugged him brotherly. Quil, who was not to far away (and also very naked), started howling. Sam gave me a huge thanking smile. He pulled off his shirt and threw it at me. I blushed even more but put it on as fast as I could.

"Thanks" I mumbled as I stood up and let the shirt fall. It went right above my knees thankfully. Jacob came and grabbed my waist and nuzzled into my neck. I blushed more.

"So. What's new?" Quil said when he found his back up pair of pants. We all started laughing. Jacob never left my side. This was a good thing because it was freezing. Sam looked up at the moon. He seemed to be concentrating on something. I heard a low muffled growl. They all were smelling the air. I froze. I knew already. Edward! I thought. I shivered this time was not for the cold. I was nervous. I still loved him and he did deserve an explanation for my choice. So I took a deep breathe. I stood up. Jacob grabbed me and looked at me pleadingly. I only touch his soft face and smiled.

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