CHAPTER 5

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"I have to tell him something. He deserves at least that. I promise I will be back." I took a deep breathe and started walking towards the woods. I still only had on Sam's shirt. I suddenly became so self conscious.

I felt the wind stop. I found a log to sit on and I waited for him to come. I knew it was him. Alice would have seen me disappear because of my choice. It was only a matter of time that he came looking for me. I was not ready but I was as ready as I will ever be. I still had on the ring he gave me. I played with it absent-mindly. I felt a cool breeze across the nape of my neck. And there he was sitting next to me. I could tell that he already knew. The look in his eyes gave him away. I looked down. I couldn't face him. I slowly slide off the ring and held it hard in my hand.

"I know you choose him Bella." He broke the silence with his velvet voice. Here was this magnificent creature sitting before wearing his "heart" on his sleeve. I was astonished! My heart leap knowing that he still loved me but it broke at the thought.

"Edward. I –I don't know what to say. I do choose to live. If I stay with you I can not do that. You will always have a place in my heart but --- I" I couldn't find the words. His eyes were icier than ever before. The beautiful topaz color seemed to be draining. I looked at his hands and they were clinched in fist. He took a deep breath and nodded. He made two steps to make it to my side. He grabbed my hands, one of which still clutched his ring.

"Look into my eyes Bella and tell me you choose the dog- I mean Jacob- over me." He ended with a crack in his voice. I knew I couldn't look into his eyes. They mesmerize me every time I look into them. I sighed and shook my head. His hands started to trace my jaw and down my neck. I shuddered. "What are you doing? Just give him the damn ring and run back to Jacob." The voices screamed at me. I started crying and this time I listened to the voices. I pushed Edward away and grabbed one of his hands. Gently I put the ring in the middle of his palm and closed his fingers around them. I kissed his hand and let it go.

"I am so sorry Edward. I will always love you but Jacob and I- well we need each other. Goodbye my love." With that I turned and ran toward where Jacob was waiting for me. I knew Edward could catch me if he wanted to. And of course me like an idiot had a small piece of me wishing that he would.

Then I saw Jacob standing at the edge of the clearing. Sam and Quil were behind him a little further off. I could tell that he breathed a sigh of relief when he saw me running to him. Then his eyes became dangerous and he started for me. I was stunned! At first my heart jumped into my throat then I felt a cold hand grab my hand. I turned to see Edward's eyes barring down into mine.

"Bella. I- I really need to talk to you more. I need to completely understand why! Why the dog?" Edward said pleading me with his eyes to hold him. I could hear Jacob, Quil and Sam behind me. Sam was trying to calm Jacob down because he was shaking and growling uncontrollable. I looked down at my hands that were now shaking. I knew the tears were still streaking my face but I did not care. I did need to get everything off my chest. I looked into Edwards eyes and I grabbed his hands in my own.

"Edward. I am sorry. I never expected that my love for Jacob would have grown so much. It is only natural that he and I are together. If you never came back or almost killed yourself with thee Volturi I know that Jake and I would be together. We need each other. Just like I needed you for so long. Please forgive me my love. My heart will always have beats for you. I – I love Jacob so much though and needs me. He helped me close up the hole that you left me when you left." He grimaced at that. I was not trying to make him feel bad just to understand. I needed him to understand that I love him but the love I have for Jacob was different.

"I don't want to be addicted to you. I want to live. I want to – to live Edward!" and with that I fell to my knees which some how ripped Sam's shirt up the side. My pale thigh showed. The blue veins pulsated and I could feel Edwards intense stare. I was sobbing heavily when I heard grass crumple around me. Edward had taken a few steps back then knelt down to be at me side. He kissed me gently in my hair. My heart was still beating nearly out my chest.

"Bella. My Isabella! I will wait for you! I know that I will never again find another like you. But as I have said before I want you to have a normal human existence. An existence I never was able to have or give you." He turned to look Jacob in the eyes even though he was still further off. "You better take care of her-Dog! I will be watching always and waiting so know that." His voice was near a snarl. He was gone before I lifted my head. I opened my hand and the ring. His mothers ring was there. I cried more. Am I doing the right thing? What about when the time comes for Aro to send someone. It will be soon. What will I do then? I will not risk Jacob and the pack for myself. I had to think about how I would handle everything.

I felt like I was flying. Jacob had me in his arms. His warm hand running through my hair. His kisses on my neck and head warmed me too. I do love him. I looked up into his eyes. They were full of love for me. My heart melted. I did not deserve two great guys who were willing to do anything for me. I am so selfish. I sighed again. Jacob kissed me on the cheek.

"I love you Bells." He whispered so low it was almost just a vibration in his chest. I nuzzled into his chest. He smiled. I reached my hand up to run my fingers through his hair. We kissed (again). Everything seemed to vanish except for us. He gently tore Sam's shirt off of me the rest of the way. Then he lined my body with warm kisses. He stopped at each breast to taste them fully. A moan escaped my body as I let him explore my body further. I let nature take hold of me while my hands started to examine his body. Somehow my hands always ended in his hair. He laid me gently on the soft earth and slowly got on top of me. He just rubbed his self causing friction between my body and his. Tears were still creeping down my cheek but Jacob kissed them away. His kisses were thrilling and sensual. When he finally slid inside me I almost howled! This was more fervent than the first time. He groped every inch of my body. My body convulsed in ecstasy. He groaned in delight at my reaction. I could feel him pulsating inside me. We were made into one. Our spirit forms seemed to exit from our bodies intertwining as we both burst into each other.

We were interrupted when Sam said; "Um. Can we go home now?" he laughed out the last part. Then there I was naked again in front of Sam and Quil. But thankfully they had their backs turned. I turned redder than I already was from Jacob's heat. This time Jacob yanked Quil's shirt off and gave it to me smiling tenderly. I smiled back with so much love. I still had Edward's ring in my hand. I pulled on Quil's shirt and stood up. Jacob picked me up and threw me over his back grinning.

"So Bella, are you ready to go home and spread the news?" Quil yelled out from behind them. They were already running through the woods. I continued to smile wide.

"What is everyone going to say about us?" I whispered into Jacobs's ear. He stopped so fast that I almost got whip-lash! He placed me on the ground gently and bent over to look directly into my eyes.

"Bella, I love you more than life itself. But if you are having second thoughts about us, I will respect you. I know you love me but this is your decision to make." I could hear the pain. My mouth fell. Finally something snapped inside me. I didn't want to everyone to be so nice to me.

"JACOB!! I want you! I need you! I have already made my decision and I am looking at it!" I screamed. Sam and Quil just stared at me like I was the crazy one. Jacob stepped back then a huge smile spread across his face and he looked just like my old Jacob. I smiled sheepishly at him. He lunges towards me and scooped me up twirling me around. I fastened my hands around his neck and pressed our foreheads together.

"Stay with me forever" I whispered softly. When he kissed me I knew he heard me.