Disclaimer: If I owned SaiYuki, then I would rule world!(on second thought, probably not. Too much work:p)

Summary: Sanzo's secret has finally been revealed! Now that the boys all know Sanzo's a girl, emotions are going haywire! And with Sanzo's death closely approaching, what is she to do? And who are these strange gods that keep appearing? And who of the boys will win Sanzo's heart?

This is another chapter dedicated to our favorite cross dresser, just because he wasn't in the last few chapters. So there's gonna a little SanzoxTsuki.

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Tsuki entered the inn the Sanzo party was staying in. It was raining outside and he was disguised as a man with long spikey blue hair and chocolate brown eyes. He was here to quickly drop off Sanzo's hormone pills, then continue his search for Amaterasu. It was funny. When he was still in heaven, he could always find her easily, now he couldn't find her anywhere!

"Hey, Hakkai." he said when he saw Hakkai sitting at a table alone. Hakkai looked up.

"Oh... Hello, Tsuki. Long time no see." he greeted with his usual smile. But tonight it seemed more empty.

"Yeah, sorry. I've been busy. In fact, I'm just here to drop off San-chan's pills." Tsuki said as he pulled out a pouch. "I gotta go right away. Tell Sanzo I said, ‛Hi.'"

"Ah. Don't you want to stay at least until the rain stops? It looks terrible out there." Hakkai asked.

"Don't worry! It's just a little rain, dude!" Tsuki said as he opened the inn door to expose rushing wind and loud thunder. He took one step out side, but was immediately blown back in, into a wall. He then crawled over to the door and slammed it. "It's the end of the world!" he gasped. Hakkai laughed.

"So I take you'll be staying?" he asked.

"Hey... Where is everyone?" Tsuki asked as he drank some tea with Hakkai.

"Oh. Goku and Gojyo are in their room, sleeping. And Sanzo's... in our room, thinking I believe." Hakkai answered, a bit sadly.

"You mean moping, right?" Tsuki said as he finished his tea. "You know what I like about you, ‛Kai? You're a good man who understands Sanzo perfectly, which is why she likes you as well. You know to stay away, but what you don't know is how to help her."

"Huh?" Hakkai said as Tsuki stood.

"Well, think about it. How is Sanzo suppose to get over anything if you just let her mope in her room all the time?" Tsuki said as he walked towards the door. Before stepping outside he took a deep breath and put a army hat on. "Wish me luck! I'm going on a suicide mission!"

"Huh?" said Hakkai as he watched Tsuki go outside.

Sanzo was sitting by her window, staring out into the rain as she remembered the night her master died. Why couldn't she save him? Why?

She was brought out of her thoughts suddenly when suddenly someone knocked on her window. It was Tsuki! He had just walked over to Sanzo's window. It was on the ground floor, so it was easy to reach(for once.). Sanzo opened the window.

"Can't you use the door like a normal person?" she asked flatly. Damn. She so wasn't in the mood for him.

"Ha, ha! Actually, I just wanted to give you something." he said with a odd smile.

"Oh?" said Sanzo. Just then Tsuki threw mud in her face! She blinked, then snarled "What the hell was that for?!" Tsuki stuck his tongue out.

"Nngh! Come get me, old lady!" he taunted as he backed away from the window.

"What, are you 5?!" Sanzo growled. "It's raining out there, dickwad!"

"What's the matter?" teased Tsuki with a sly grin. "Afraid you're gonna melt like the wicked witch you are?" Hakkai, who was watching from the doorway, stared at Tsuki like he was crazy(which he was.).

‛Is he completely suicidal?' he wondered. Goku, who could never sleep on rainy nights, knowing his sun was miserable, was watching from his window.

"Nah! He's completely lost it!" Goku turned to Gojyo, who was fast asleep. "Hey, Gojyo, wake up! You gotta see this!"

"Leave me alone, you stupid monkey! Man, just when things were getting good." snarled Gojyo, who dreaming of Sanzo(need I say more?).

"But Tsuki just threw mud at Sanzo!"

"What?!" exclaimed a fully awake Gojyo. "Are you serious?! Is he completely metal or something?!" Both he and Goku ran over to the window to see Sanzo's reaction.

Sanzo twitched violently, then jumped out of her window and grabbed a bunch of mud.

"I'm gonna kill you!" she growled as she threw it at him.

"Wah!" Tsuki exclaimed as he fell back. "Oh, that's it goldilocks! You're going down!" And thus, a mud fight had begun. Poor Tsuki though, could not stand up to furious Sanzo. "Augh! Help! I need reinforcements!" he yelled as he shielded his head from all the mud slings.

"Ha! There's no way, I'm not getting in this!" Gojyo smirked as he jumped out his window, into the rain.

"Count me in!" Goku said as he followed. Gojyo started to throw mud at Sanzo, who turned her attention away from Tsuki, and immediately returned fire, while Goku threw mud at Tsuki, getting him back for what happened in ch. 3and4. Hakkai laughed as watched.

"How nice it is to see children playing!" he said. Just then some mud hit his face. Everyone was very silent as they felt a dark aura.

"Uhh... It was him!" Goku and Tsuki yelled as they pointed at Gojyo.

"Wha?! Traitors!" exclaimed a guilty Gojyo. Then he turned to Hakkai, who's face he couldn't see. "Uh, Hakkai! It was an accident, I swear!"

"Gojyo..." Hakkai said slowly as he stepped out into the rain. Then he scooped up some mud and threw it in Gojyo's face. "Let's get the real mud fight started, shall we?" he said pleasantly. Hakuryu, the only one not pulled into the mud fight, watched as the "Adults" threw mud at each other until the rain stopped and the crescent moon appeared.

"Hey. The rain's stopped." Goku said as he looked up at the sky. Sanzo blinked. She had been so busy slinging mud, she had forgotten that it was raining.

"Yeah, but we're all covered in mud." said Tsuki as he stuck out his tongue.

"Who's fault is that?!" growled Sanzo as she tried to wipe the mud off her robes. "You're washing my robes."

"Fine," sighed Tsuki as he stood. "But right now, I gotta go. There's a ancient underground library nearby and I want to see if it can help me out with something."

"Should you be going near places like that?" asked Gojyo. "Last time you went near anything underground, you made it fly."

"Hey! I learned my lesson! Don't play with levers." Tsuki said.

"And spells?" frowned Sanzo.

"Don't cast any, or you'll kill me, right?" Tsuki asked.

"Pretty much." said Sanzo as she pulled out some smoke. She turned. "I'm going to bed, I trust I'll see you in a few days or so?"

"Yeah, I'll come see ya soon. Don't worry." Tsuki assured her.

"I guess I'm gonna go to bed, too. But I'll admit one thing... This is the best time I've had in the rain." Gojyo said as he headed inside.

"Yes..." said Hakkai. "Same here. Goodnight, everyone."

"Sleep dreams." Tsuki waved. Then he noticed Goku was sitting in the mud, looking like a sad puppy.

"Hey, what's wrong, kid? You depressed that you lost? You should have known Sanzo would win. After all, if you fight a girl, you're gonna lose." Tsuki said.

"It's not that." said Goku, not looking at him. "You... You know Sanzo, so well, Tsuki. It's obvious she trust you. But me... She doesn't trust me at all."

‛It's not fair. I want her to trust me, to let me help her. But she never lets me. Even though she's always so close, it feels like she's so far. Gojyo and Hakkai seem to understand her at least a little, but me... Every time I try to understand, the more I realize, I can't.' Goku thought to himself sadly.

"She tells you everything, Tsuki. But... she never tells me anything. It's like she doesn't trust me." he said.

‛I'm so pathetic. I'm even jealous of this guy who appears out of no where. I'm so pathetic.'

"Are...You done, feeling sorry for yourself?" Tsuki asked, bringing Goku out of his thoughts.

"Huh?" said Goku as he looked up at Tsuki.

"Look, you're looking at it all wrong, dude. The reason she doesn't tell you anything... Isn't because she doesn't care about you. It's because... she cares about you so much, she'd rather die than have know the real her," Tsuki told him. "In our eyes, Sanzo is the most beautiful person in the world. She's the one who always saves us again and again."

‛Just like Konzen. She may have had a sharp tongue, but still. In the end no matter what, she listened to everyone's problems and tried to help in her own way, like with me. I was like a big child, always crying to her. But not once... did she reject me. She always listened and again, and again, she accepted me. That beloved woman. The one I've always loved...'

"We owe her. We need her. That much is obvious. And even though she's always complaining, she's always there for us, no matter what. In our eyes she's the most beautiful person in the world, but in her eyes... She's the worst. She hates herself, Goku. When she looks at herself, all she sees is a woman covered in blood and scars. She cares for you more than anything, Goku. That's why she'll never let you see the real her." Tsuki told the young boy staring up at him. "She's afraid of what you'll do if you see the real her. She's afraid that if she lets you too close, she'll be hurt again. She's afraid... That if she gets too close to you guys, you'll die and it'll be all her fault, thus adding another painful scar. She doesn't want to be hurt anymore, but... she doesn't want to be healed ether, I can understand that."

"Huh?" said Goku so innocently, it made Tsuki smile a little.

"Scars are painful, Goku, but they're all hers. It's her pain and she doesn't want anyone touching them. That's why she hates the rain, because it's like tears. It washes away the pain, and she doesn't want that. She doesn't want to wash away the pain." Tsuki turned away from Goku. "I hate it when people mention my friends, my family, and my lover. Anytime someone mentions them... something ends... It tries to make all my thoughts into memories. I don't want that to happen. I never... want to forget anything. Sanzo's the same way. She loved her master more than anything, Goku, so when he was killed, it left a deep scar on her heart. Gojyo and Hakkai can understand that feeling as well. You don't remember anything before Sanzo, so you can't understand that. But even though scars hurt, the pain is the only bond left between her and her master, so she cherishes it." Tsuki turned back to Goku. "You probably can't understand Sanzo's feelings, but that's okay. Sanzo's not some wounded hero. Okay, maybe she is. But she's not looking for someone to save her. But she does need someone to heal her, whether she wants it or not." Tsuki then grabbed Goku's arm and pulled the surprised boy up. "That's where you come in. See, some people are like sunshine, and some are like moonlight. Sunshine people can shine on their own, and can even give light to others. But moonlight people are the kind who can only shine if they have a sunshine person to reflect. Sanzo, Hakkai, and I are like moonlight, that's why we understand each other," he told him. "I can understand her feelings. But I don't have the power to change her. Not anymore. But I think you do, Goku. If you tell her it can't go on like this, you can pull her back." Goku stared up at the taller man, then looked away.

"But how? I don't know what to do like you do. You always know what to say or do to help her... But I don't." he said.

"That's because I've been watching her longer than you. So stop comparing yourself to me! I'm not you and you're not me! But if you really want my advice on how you can help her, you can just be there for like you always have. Let her know that if she ever needs a hand, you'll be there. She'll probably never take it, her bloody pride's too big, but I don't know. I guess just knowing that it's there just makes her feel better, or something." Tsuki told him. Then, while Goku was thinking, Tsuki suddenly slapped Goku hard on the back, making him fall back in the mud. "So cheer up, Go-chan! Moping never got anyone anywhere! If you want Sanzo, then you're gonna have to be a man and fight for her!" Goku pushed himself out of the mud, then gave Tsuki a playful glare.

"That hurt! What's with you and mud tonight, you crazy cross dressin' stalker!" he yelled.

"It's your fault for being a such stupid monkey."

"What was that?!"

‛Ah... Goku, don't you get it? You don't need to understand. You just need to be you and be there for you. You're the only one who can destroy her completely, then bring her back. It's because you don't understand... that you can save her.'

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Well, there it is! My little Easter gift to everyone! The next one will be another look into Tsuki's past, so review please! And Happy Easter!