Disclaimer: All the wonderful Twilight characters belong to Stephenie Meyer, however the story 'Goodbye, Former Miss. Swan' belongs to me.
Hi again, everyone! Thank you for all the reviews I've gotten for chapter seven, I've feel so happy reading them!
All my thanks go to kaosgurl100 who has submitted the idea that I will be using for Edward's heroic role in this part of the story :D Thank you so much, it's greatly appreciated!
And now, prepare yourselves: Chapter Eight! Actually, this is sort of a filler chapter, I was really tired today, so I didn't really want to move on with the real plot. Sorry!
Chapter Eight: Return to Volterra
Bella POV
Each day passed without much going on-it was always the same; training heavily every day, hunting, and having to listen to Aro congratulating me on my brilliant first mission.
In a futile effort to forget about Edward, I threw myself into training. I pushed myself to my limits, having to hunt more and more often due to my efforts that left me weak after only a few days. Kira and the others became concerned, never leaving my side for long in case I did something irrational. She knew that something was up, but she also knew that I wasn't in the mood to speak about it.
Begin Flashback:
"Bella…"
I looked up to see Kira hesitating in the doorway of my room. Using my head, I gestured her over to my bed. "What is it?"
She quickly sat down next to me, grasping one of my hands in both of hers. "Listen, Bella, I know something's up. I can see it in your eyes, and you don't seem like the regular Bella I knew. Please, tell me, what's going on?"
Kira was pleading with me, her golden eyes troubled. I shook my head. I didn't want to burden her with my troubles, it would be unfair to her and the rest of the Principessas.
"Kira, thank you for caring, but I really can't talk about it right now." I sighed, twining my fingers together.
"I have been hurt in my past…That's why I've been always afraid of trusting people. I feel like I'm not destined for love from anyone…" I looked up at the ceiling of my room.
Kira was silent for a moment before she hugged me. "Bella, don't ever say that. I know that no matter what happened before, or where we are now, everything will work out. We have all of eternity, and I truly believe that there is another piece of yourself, waiting, out there for you. If fate has destined it, then it must be true, no matter how long it takes."
I smiled softly at her. "Thank you, Kira. By the way, I've seen how you look at Nate…" Grinning, I laughed as she ducked her head, embarrassed. "I saw how you two look at each other. Tell him how you feel."
"Do you really think I should?"
I nodded. "Yes, I really do."
End Flashback
I paced in the hallways, distracted with my thoughts. I heard quiet laughter and whispering going on farther along. Tiptoeing quietly, I snuck up on whoever it was. My heart warmed slightly when I saw Kira talking with Nate, their hands entwined and heads leaned towards each other. At least someone should get their happy ending.
Turning to walk away, I slumped down in the hallway, my back and my head pressed against the cool stone wall. I took a few deep, unneeded breathes to calm myself. I couldn't deny it any further-I missed him. I missed the feeling of love. Seeing it before my eyes had turned my aching heart into a full out throbbing pain.
Closing my eyes, I saw Edward before my eyes. His eyes were dark, with pain and sorrow. He seemed to be completely numb, not feeling everything. The way he looked like when I had spoke so coldly, so cruelly to him broke my heart.
The Edward I had known had bright, colored, topaz eyes. They were filled with happiness and joy, always sparkling as he looked at me. I could see a glance of protectiveness whenever we were in danger, and pain when I was hurt. But he was so beautiful, and he had loved me so much.
But when he had looked at me when I was in Wisconsin…
Was there love?
I found it hard to comprehend. If he loved me so much, then why would he leave me? Leave me all alone, facing the world with no one by my side? When he had left me, it reminded me so much of the first time he had left. The darkest memory I would ever have.
Memory. I gasped.
Did Edward leave me because he wanted to try and clear up my memory? We had tried everything we could, but it never worked.
Thinking back to that day, I remembered how I had felt after Edward left, my mind's barrier shattering and all of my memories rushed in, clear as crystal. I remembered the sadness and remorse I had seen in his eyes as he stared at me, trying to hide it up with a blank look.
The pain in my heart slowly subsided as my head cleared and my heart slowly patched itself up.
Edward loves me. He still does. There was a huge possibility that he only left to help me regain my memory. But does he want me back? Even after how I had treated him? I winced, thinking back to how I was towards him in Wisconsin. I slammed my head repeatedly on the wall, cursing silently towards myself.
Hunched over, I put my head in my hands. There was absolutely no way he would want to take me back now. After all that I had done to him, and my eyes. He thinks that I've become a human drinker.
Invisible tears roll down my cheeks as I sit there, not even bothering to count how long I have been sitting in the same exact spot. Someone taps on my shoulder, and I look up. Sophie is looking down on me, quiet concern showing on her face.
"Bella, are you alright? You've been sitting there for a few hours." I shake my head, trying to make something of a smile appear on my face. Pulling myself up, I shake out my cloak and turn to face her. "I'm fine. Just thinking, nothing much."
She nods and leaves, walking down the cold hallway towards the direction of her room. Quietly, I retreat back to my own quarters, shutting the door quietly behind me.
It often saddened me how my room didn't have any windows. But what use were they when you lived underneath a city? I missed seeing the bright stars outside my window, it helped you believe that somewhere, out there, there was a huge world, just waiting for you to learn and visit. Quietly, I sneaked up around the guards that were lining the corridors and stepped outside of the lobby into the night.
I stayed in a dark corner, trying not to attract attention to myself. I smiled as I saw the familiar view of the sky. The stars twinkled and glittered, in their regular constellations. I named them all in my head, calming down as I went through the list.
My mind wandered as the minutes passed. I thought about how the past century had been, my friendship with the Principessas, and about Edward. Truly, I didn't have any clue what was going to happen, and if it would all work out. But I knew that we had an eternity, and I was willing to wait.
As I walked back into the lobby and down underneath Volterra, Ginger ran up to me, fear in her eyes. She was frozen in front of me, shivering. Startled, I shook her shoulder, trying to get her to loosen up.
"Ginger? Ginger! What happened?" She was silent for a few moments until she finally opened her mouth.
"It's bad, Bella. Aro says that there is an army coming, and they are determined to wipe us all out." Without another word, I sidestepped her and walked quickly towards the throne room, ready for battle.
Please review! I'm really excited to hear what you'll be thinking about this chapter. Oh, by the way, in thanks for the reviews I got for the last chapter, here is a short preview of chapter nine!
Carlisle hung up the phone and looked at us, shock and fear in his eyes. I was taken aback-I had never seen him so shaken. He was always so calm, so composed.
This cannot be good. The Volturi has no chance against them.
"Carlisle? What happened? What did they say?" I asked, my voice quivering slightly.
He turned to look at me, sadly.
"Peter's back. He's brought an army of vampires to destroy the Volturi and kidnap Bella. There's too many for the Volturi to fight and win, so Aro has been calling for help."
My breath caught in my throat. I could not lose my angel again.
Hope you enjoyed that small blurb, and sorry for this long AN. Just one more thing. I'm planning to start a new story, because I've been getting some good inspiration. I have three choices below, so please tell me in a review or PM which I should choose to work on. Thanks!
Choice 1- All Human. Bella is a lonely girl, while her friends have already met their significant others. When her friends Alice and Rosalie get her to go to camp for the summer, will it all change when she meets the mysterious stranger with the auburn hair and striking green eyes?
Choice 2-Bella human, Cullens are vampires. On a vacation trip to ancient ruins in Italy, the Cullen's personalities switch. Edward is perky, Emmett is serious, Carlisle is moody, Esme is vain, Rosalie is kind and loving, and Alice is calm. All part of a mysterious curse, Bella has to break the curse and bring back the family she had known. But can she do it before time runs out?
Choice 3-Bella human, Cullens are vampires. 9 year old Bella starts violin, taught by the gorgeous Edward Cullen. When Edward and his family moves after 3 years, he never expects to see Bella again, knowing that he has already fallen for her. When they meet 5 years later at a concert, will Bella discover his secret? Will they ever end up together?
Thanks, I will be setting up a poll soon. Until the next update,
BellaJ :D