Dislaimer: I won nothing Meyer does.....so sad esp. now that she decided to stop writing. we will never know what edward thought in Twilight, now thats really depressing. Bu tlook on the bright side at least she out part of the story online. But I should stop rambling so that you can read. Enjoy!

Chapter Two

Accomplished – Edward

I sat through the conference with my History teacher, I was failing. Again. How was I going to break this one to my parents? They always expected the best out of us, their children. I was the black sheep, the one that couldn't ever successfully accomplish something. I grew up in an averaged sized family with huge expectations; after all I was a Cullen. Edward Cullen to be exact, and unwilling nicknamed Eddie. I had one sister and one brother.

My sister was my protector, Alice; her name in itself meant "Golden." How am I supposed to live up to someone whose mane means 'golden?' As if that's not enough I also have an older brother to accompany that perfect older sister.

His name is Emmett, Em for short; Emmett's name means favorite son. So what does that leave me with, a neutral name that can be a boy's or a girl's. But wait theirs more, my name means 'Supplemented.' What the heck does that mean? My sister gets golden, my brother gets favorite, and what do I get stuck with? Oh yeah that's right I'm the one who supplements oh whoopdiedoo!

"Edward, I know you can do it if you just apply yourself. I have seen you when you try. I saw your grades from your old school; I also read your paper. What happened to the guy that wrote that paper, the guy who wanted more than anything else to succeed?" I stared at him with a blank expression on my face. I had heard the conversation a thousand times before.

"I don't know," I said quietly "I just…I don't know." I heard his loud sigh, he glanced out the window. I could tell that this was coming to an end, and I wasn't talking about the conversation. He was about to tell me that I flunked out of his class.

"Listen Edward, I know this maybe hard to hear but I am going to have you drop my class. You just don't seem to like it anymore. I have tried to get through to you and it just doesn't seem to work anymore. I would have called your parents, but I think you're grown up enough to tell them yourself." Bingo, I had heard this before, and because of that I was able to stand up with no expression on my face and leave the room, giving him no answer.

Alice would have spit in his face and say that she didn't need him and that she could do just fine on her own. Emmett would have worked harder in the first place, he wouldn't have allowed himself to fall as far as I have.

I think of Emmett and Alice a lot, more than I should I think. I compare myself to them when theirs really nothing to compare to, I fall short in every category. Even in love I have been luckless, but not my brother and sister no way they had a strict timetable for their lives.

Alice found Jasper in high school and they hit it off immediately. I think it was because they both had really weird names. Also Jasper was not Alice's type at all. Well at least not socially, I love my sister to death and I am not trying to say she is vain, but her social status means a lot to her. I'll just say this about Jasper; he is the most geeky, shy, awkward hot guy you have ever meant. I don't mean that in a bad way, but even a guy can admit why girls would be attracted to him.

Alice and Jasper dated anyway, they ignored the stared that they caught and the whispers that were murmured about them, and just focused on each other.

It was late June last year when Jasper proposed, Alice screeched yes, and then slapped him across the face. Jasper was really surprised when that happened, but even more surprised when she promptly kissed him after. When asked about this all Alice said was

"Well, I was tired of waiting for you to propose so for making me wait so long I slapped you. I kissed you after out of pure happiness, because even if you made ma wait a hundred more years, I would still say yes." Jasper apologized for making her wait so long but was a bit miffed by her actions. He said that all that matters is that she said yes. They are engaged and due to be married in six months.

Emmett on the other hand meant Rosalie at a very bad time in his life. Emmett had just started his own investment company and they were suffering from losses because of the stock market, he thought that someone was going to buy him out.

After a really bad day at work he was throwing back a shot of vodka when he spotted Rosalie. Rosalie had deeply tanned skin and long course blonde hair that flowed down to the middle of her back. Rosalie has a sad look on her face and my brother doesn't like to be alone when he drinks, so he went up to join her.

At first she thought that he was trying to hit on her and she just ignored him that is until he started crying. This is the part in the story where he loses me, Emmett would never cry in front of a woman he was trying to impress. Emmett said that Rosalie pretty much freaked not knowing what to do with him when he was crying. Rosalie apologized profusely saying that she had no idea that it was so bad. They had a long talk and by the end of the night he had her number and a date for the next Friday.

They had been married for three months now. I struggled with the idea of being alone forever, but all of the girls I meant didn't really get me. They weren't girls that I could share my world with. I needed someone to accept me for my many flaws, and not care. I doubted that there was a girl like that anywhere.

I got out to my car, an Audi R8, only the best for a Cullen. I drove back to my loft on the upper part of town. I used to share this with Emmett and Alice when we were all in collage together, then they got lives. The loft was airy and looked like no one liver here, and no one did. Everything was sleek and streamline, beautiful something out of 'Better Homes and Gardens.' I hated it. Every little bit of it; it didn't reflect me in the least.

I looked out at the night sky; it was the one thing I could count on to always be there. They sky was pitch black and reflected no stars because of all the city smog. No points of light to guide my way what so ever.

I was lost, I could admit it. I didn't like being so alone though. I needed a break from my family, and I sure as hell wasn't going to tell my parents that I had flunked out again. They would find out though, I could have to use the credit card I got from them to pay for the new classes.

Family is a word I have never truly known, I mean by definition it is 'parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.' That was pretty much the way that I saw family. Just like the definition cold, and unwelcoming. I heard my new red iPhone ringing I looked at the collar ID and almost decided to let it go to voicemail. It was my mom, I decided to answer it, and if I didn't there would be hell to pay later.

"Edward, good I'm glad I caught you, we have some great news." I paused wonder what I could be, it was probably something that would seal that last nail in my coffin. "Well first your father and I would like to congratulate you on making it that far through the school year without changing your major or flunking out again." I felt something stab me on the inside; I had let them down once again. "Not only that but Rosalie is pregnant!" this was just fan-tastetic! Another thing that my brother has that I don't have.

I could hear my mother rambling on the other end saying something about, baby cribs and pastel color walls. "Mom," I spoke clearly to show her that I needed her to listen to me. "I have to go I have a movie to go see. They are going to show Rocky Horror Picture Show on campus tonight." I could tell that she understood and we promptly said our goodbye's and quickly hung up.

I sunk on the white leather couch and heard it squeak against my skin. I pushed the palms of my hands into my eyes and tried to rub out that something that had gotten past my carefully built walls. I stood up slowly savoring this moment; there was finally something that I could accomplish.

I grabbed the key to my car off the granite counter top; the jingle of the keys was the only sound in this deathly quite house. The thick metal door to the loft slid open with a kind of certainty that would scare most people, but not me.

The elevator slid open with an air of the past and no hint of future. I stepped inside and let that halogens warm my ice cold skin. I knew I was going down for what I was about to do, the elevator door slid open with a soft ding. I walked out into the empty and dark lobby. It was early morning, the perfect time to do this.

I got into my car, the R8 started with a deadly purr. I followed the twisty path up to Sundown Peak. I came up here to think and be alone when I was younger, it will end where it all started.

I wondered if I would scream, and if anyone would care enough to find out what happened? Would my family even miss me if I was gone? The area was heavily forested; I doubted anyone would find me for awhile. I parked my car in between a cluster of great oaks, that way no one would be able to find my car for a long time, maybe they would think that I ran away.

I walked to the edge of the forest, and saw another car parked along the outer edge of the forest. It was an old pickup probably thirty years old by the looks of it. My gaze drifted until it caught on something in the distance by the cliffs. The same very cliff where I was going to make my attempt at flight.

There was a girl standing at the edge her red hair blowing gracefully in the wind. Some of the pieces of straight red hair fell onto her face, I saw her take a deep breath and re-open her eyes.

I wondered what a girl like her was doing out here this late at night and standing that close to the edge of the cliff. Surly she wasn't about to do the same thing that I was going to do. I thought that until I was her push some rocks over the edge with her toe.

I couldn't let her do this, it was wrong. Someone like her had a future somewhere, why waste that potential. I stood there frozen, until I saw one of her feet begin to move forward. I ran. I ran for her, and her life, and in some ways I ran for me. May be to prove something to myself, maybe it was just because I couldn't let someone like her die in this way.

I know that something changed; I wouldn't admitted it if you asked me then. When I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back, I knew that my world was about to change. I didn't know if it was for the better or for the worst, I just knew I had to do something.

A/N: Heyy thanks to all for reading my story it really means alot to me. It also help me to write faster if you review. I actually put out this story after one of the reviwers told me to put out another chapter so this is for you guys! Happy Thanksgivng, this is my dessert to you! Remember to review it really does help!