Disclaimer: Would I be writing this if I owned Saiyuki? No. Also if I did, I wouldn't be known as GirlWithNoLife, now would I? I do own Tsuki though!
Summary: Sanzo's secret has finally been revealed! Now that the boys all know Sanzo's a girl, emotions are going haywire! And with Sanzo's death closely approaching, what is she to do? And who are these strange gods that keep appearing? And who of the boys will win Sanzo's heart?
Here's the next chapter even though most of you didn't review! Thanks to those who did. And UpperClassK9, as I tried to say in chapter 21, it was an accident.
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"Okay, monkey-chan," Tsuki said the next day. "There's one more thing we need to do before we begin our training."
"What now?" Goku asked as he rung out his cape. Ugh! He was still wet from last night.
"We need to get your magic."
"Crazy man say what?"
"Okay, look cuz I'm only going to say this once: every living being has a spark of magic inside of them, even a flea. But only with the proper training can it grow into something more, of course magic items help too. Your magic is like an inferno."
"Huh? Really?" Goku said as he touched his chest. "I don't feel anything."
"You wouldn't. Because you don't have it."
"Huh?! But you just said–!"
"You don't have it because your other half has it." Goku felt as if he had been turned to stone.
"You mean..."
"Yes. You have the power equal to heaven, however it's in the hands of the Seiten Taisen. And the only way you will get it back is to join with your other half."
"But... But how?" Tsuki closed his eyes.
"I will do a spell to send you into your subconscious. There, you must defeat the Seiten Taisen and win your magic."
"Are you nuts?!" Goku yelled. "I can't defeat him, he's way stronger than me!"
"If you don't then you will lose Sanzo forever! Is that what you want?!" Goku became silent as Tsuki walked up to him. "Win or lose... You have to try. You have to. Or everything would have been for nothing. Have you forgotten that you're on an important mission? You have to make it to India and stop Gyumaoh! And to do that, you need to find Sanzo! And to do that, you need to do this! Show me that you're a man!" Goku was silent for a moment. His other half was strong. Hakkai and Gojyo both told him that. Stronger than anything.
Could he really with?
Sanzo came to mind and he clenched his fist. What was wrong with him? He loved fighting strong opponents! Man, if Sanzo was here, she'd beat him into a coma!
"Are you that scared?" Tsuki asked calmly as he began to shake. Goku laughed.
"Not a chance! I'm just trembling with anticipation!" he said. "I can't wait!" Tsuki smirked.
"Then wait no longer." Tsuki said as he held his hand out. "Oh, one more thing: If by any chance you lose and the Seiten Taisen appears, I'll kill you. Got it?" Then he snapped his fingers and Goku felt his world go fuzzy as he stumbled back.
When things cleared up he saw he was still on the mountain, but something was different. For one thing the sun was rising in the back ground, when it had just been high in the sky a few seconds ago, and Tsuki was gone as well. But Goku was far from alone. Sitting on a rock a few feet away from him was a person who looked just like him except his hair was longer and his eyes more cat like.
"You..." he breathed. The other him simply looked at him and grinned.
"Me." Then he suddenly vanished. Goku looked around for him frantically. Suddenly the Seiten Taisen appeared right behind him and kicked him in the head. Goku went flying for a moment and then skidded into the ground until he hit a tree.
"Ow...! Crap!" Goku cursed. The Seiten Taisen appeared above him to attack again, but this time Goku managed to roll out of the way. He then summoned his Nyoi-bo just in time to block yet another attack. The Seiten Taisen grinned.
"Let see who stays.... And who goes forever."
//With Sanzo//
After having a long talk with Bai, Sanzo went walking through the garden. She finally realized that wasn't wearing her priest robe any more, but instead a lovely light lavender kinomono with a white shawl. As she watched some peach petals fall she remembered the last part of the conversation she had with Bai.
"So how do I get out of here?" she remember asking.
"First, you must learn to use your magic. And you cannot do that until you come to terms with your feelings. The way your heart is now, you cannot even use the Makkai Tenjyo." She remembered Bai saying.
Sanzo stared at the scripture in her hands. It was true. No matter how hard she tried, it didn't do anything. She took a deep breath of irritation as she sat cross legged.
'Okay, I just need to remember my priest training and meditate.' she said to herself. She took a calming breath and tried to focus, but every time she tried to clear her mind, Goku's face appeared.
"Stop thinking about him!" she yelled at herself. "He's just a stupid monkey you picked up, nothing more!"
"Sanzo!"
"God!" she hissed as she clutched the scripture tighter. "Why are you such an idiot? What about Master Koumyou?"
"Ah. Look Kouryuu. The birds are returning North. Can you see?"
"Is your heart so fickle that you can just forget the one who saved you? Raised you? Gave up everything for you?!" she yelled at herself as punched the ground with her other hand.
'Master... Master.... I'm sorry. But it's all fading. The memories, the pain... all of it feels as if it's dissolving... slowly fading away. And I can't stop it. No matter what I do, no matter what I say... Time moves on and fades cruelly. I hate to admit, but the me who thought of Master, is slowly disappearing.' she thought as her eyes began to water. 'Why is fate so cruel? I only wanted to live for him. But he's gone now. He's gone forever. There's nothing I do can to change that. And I hate it. I hate it so much! I hate being a woman! Why do we have to have such sensitive emotion that do nothing but confuse us and cause pain? Why.... do we fall in love so easily?' she couldn't keep them back anymore and the tears came flooding out. She cried and cried and when she it wasn't Koumyou she wanted to be there with her, but instead, Goku... she cried even more. Through her tears she saw the reflection of the moon and stars.
'The moon is lucky. No matter where it goes, or what happens it always has at least one star with it. And with those lights... somehow it manages even the darkest of darkness seem beautiful.'
//With Tsuki//
Tsuki calmly watched Goku toss and writhe on the ground. Then he turned his attention to the sky where the sun was shining brightly.
"Such a cruel fate." he muttered.
'To always hang in the sky alone without ever being able to touch anything or get near it... To always have to shine no matter how much pain it's in it always has to come and continue on... alone. What terrible fate. To always have to be alone and watch everyone else be able to be together. What... a sad thing.' he thought as he looked back at Goku.
"Mortals are stupid." he said.
'They get to find the one they love and even though that same love may not last forever, they still get to be together, even for a little while.'
//With Goku//
Goku let out a grunt of pain as he stumbled back. His whole body was covered cuts and black bruises. He didn't know how long he had been fighting, but his body felt as if he had been fighting for centuries.
'Damn!' he thought as the Seiten Taisen threw him into a rock. 'He's strong. Really, really strong. I can't even keep up with his movements. Is this guy really livin' inside of me?'
"Gaahhh!!" Goku cried as the Seiten Taisen made a large gash in his stomach.
"Nyoi-bo! Extend!" he cried as he stumbled back. The Nyoi-bo hit him and threw him back, giving Goku a chance to jump up. He transformed his Nyoi-bo into nun-chucks. "Nyoi-San-Sekkon!!" He swung it at the Seiten Taisen, who caught it, then yanked him forward and punched him in the gut. Goku coughed up some blood.
'This is... stupid.' he thought as fell to the ground with a thump. 'I'm so weak. I can't even beat the psycho that lives inside of me. No wonder Sanzo left.' The Seiten Taisen smiled evilly as he lifted Goku by his hair.
"It's over." he said as swiped his hand at Goku's neck. Goku's eyes then widen at a sudden memory and he caught the Seiten Taisen by his wrist.
"No," he said. Then he punched the Seiten Taisen in the face and sent him flying back. "As long as I'm alive... It's just the beginning." He spat out some blood, then turned to his other half.
"There's someone I really care about and as long as she's still alive I will not allow anyone to kill me! So bring it on!"
//With Sanzo//
After crying for what seemed to be hours, Sanzo stared at her reflection.
"Ugh. I look like misery." she muttered to herself.
'All I've done so far today is cry like a baby. I still need to get this whole magic thing whole magic thing down if I'm going to get out of here.' she thought as she stood. 'I'll use priest spells, those I know. But there's still the problem of actually calling upon my magic. Tsuki said that magic is controlled by emotions, but I keep using my anger, I'm just going to keep getting possessed and end up in strange places.' She then began to walk around the garden again hoping to clear her mind.
'Master Koumyou taught me to clear my mind... But lately I haven't been able to do that too well. Ever since he died.' her eyes sadden. 'I can't cling to the past anymore. I've got a life now. A life that I don't want to lose so, master... I'm sorry. But I'm moving on.' She then placed her hands together and began to do a chant. As she chanted the wind enveloped her and when she finished, she thrust her hand forward towards a branch of a tree and it was sliced to ribbons as she finished remembering what Bai said.
"Second... You must defeat me in battle."
"I'm ready to get out here, Madam White Snake." she said as she turned to face Bai, who stared at her.
"Are you now?" she asked as the storm clouds formed above. "Then prove it." She then made a long sword appear and then charged towards Sanzo.
//With Goku//
Goku was faring far better now. The Seiten Taisen now had a huge bruise on his cheek along with a few others. He had lost his cocky look and now wore the look of annoyance(Yeah, like Goku wasn't use to that.). He let out a growl as swiped at Goku, who side stepped it then stabbed his staff into the ground and did an jump kick, sending his other self skidding back a little.
'This isn't doing any good. No matter how many times I fight him, he just won't stay down. An' I don't know how much longer I can keep going.' The Seiten Taisen did a swipe kick, but Goku managed to jump over it. 'There's gotta be a way! There's just gotta!' He then tried to side kick Goku, but Goku blocked with his Nyoi-bo. 'Man! It's like fightin' my shadow!' Then Goku's eyes widen with realization. 'Wait a minute.' he thought as he flipped back to avoid another attack. 'This guy is my shadow. He's me. He's been here... but he hasn't been here.' Goku then hit the back of a tree, but this time he didn't mind. When the Seiten Taisen appeared above him, ready to deliver the final blow Goku opened his mouth and said,
"I'm hungry!" The Seiten Taisen seemed to freeze at Goku's stupidity, for he stopped his attack and gave Goku a weird look. Goku continued.
"Y'know I'm always hungry. I thought it was because I was trapped for so long, but it wasn't. It was because I was missin' somethin'. You. I was missin' you. That's why I always felt empty. I've been livin' in the present, but you've been livin' in the past I forgot. You were here... and yet you haven't." he said as he stood. "I don't know why, but I do know that it's time to move on. And 'we' need ta become 'me' or we'll never be able to really live in this world." he held his hand out to his other half who stared it shock. "C'mon." he urged. The Seitetn Taisen didn't move. He just looked at the ground, and Goku understood. "There's nothin' left for us in the past, but in the future there's a whole life waitin' for us." The Seiten Taisen didn't move at first, but then he slowly reached his hand out towards Goku's. Finally he took it and light, blazing like the sun enveloped them until they were gone.
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When he opened his eyes again he realized it was dawn.
"Ah!" a voice said. "You're finally up! Just in time to hear my song." Goku slowly pushed himself up and looked at Tsuki who was now playing the harmonica.
"I had me a woman,
hair as gold as the sun light
and eyes so deep they give you a fright," he sang.
"Tsuki....
"With skin as pale as a lily,
she made me feel so silly
Standin' there without a rose"
"Tsuki...."
"A temper like a bull
And personality so cold,"
"Tsuki!"
"She was my girl, until this kid came along
with his jaw along
Now she's gone and I got the 'a monkey stole my girlfriend blues'
Oh, yeah!"
"Tsuki!" Goku yelled as he swiped the harmonica away from him. "Enough already!" Tsuki gave him a flat look before pulling out another harmonica.
"And if that wasn't enough
he stole my harmonica too!"
"You're a fool!"
"Now I got the 'a monkey stole my girlfriend and harmonic blues'!"
"I wanna talk!"
"I gave the girl my heart,
he gave her a tart!"
"I did not!"
"I'm all alone now, and I'm here to tell,
Beware if you take your girl to the zoo!
Otherwise, you end up with the boo hoo blues!"
"Tsuki!!"
"Okay, I'm done." Tsuki grumbled as he put his harmonica away. "So... Good to see you're alive. And by the way you look, I'm guessing you succeeded." He was talking about the fact Goku was a bit taller now and his hair was longer too.
"Tsuki, I remember everything now." Goku said, looking both sad and serious. Tsuki didn't look at him, he just stood.
"Then I guess you finally remember this place then." he said, looking at the sunrise. "It's where you were born. And... it's also the place we were trying to reach before we were ambushed." Goku's eyes narrowed a little as he remembered that day. It was the day he lost everything.
"We were the only survivors from that day. I was lock away for 500 years."
"And the shock was so painful your mind split into two, thus creating the Seiten Taisen." Tsuki finished.
"And you..." Tsuki's eyes were empty as he smiled at Goku.
"I got what I deserved." he said as he held up his wrist. Then he let out a small chuckle as he saw Goku's eyes sadden. "What's with that look? You know my mom's been out to get me since I turned down all rights as my da's heir. I'm just lucky she couldn't kill me."
"Tsuki..." Goku started.
"You should go. Hakkai and Gojyo are with Susanowa and you know how he can be. Then again, I guess you don't." Tsuki said walking away.
"Tsuki!!" Goku yelled after him. He made to follow him, but Tsuki's voice stopped him.
"Stop right there. Don't... come any closer." he said. "Things are... different now. Now that you remember, I can't look at you the same. You remember Konzen. And you loved her. I know it's petty, but... I am a man after all. I've done enough for you. You have your power, and now that you have your memories you can use it. The rest is up to you."
"Why are you doing this?" Goku had to ask. "You loved her! More than anything! So why are you helping me hook up with her." Tsuki looked back at him and smiled.
"I'm not. Konzen's mine and only mine. I'm hooking you up with Sanzo." he said. "Konzen's gone. Nothing will bring her back. Sanzo may have her soul, but her heart, and mind is completely different. She loves you, not me. I know this... because I've been watching her for all her life. I've been doing all I can for her, but it's over. I have to move on or I'm going to be miserable forever. But I can only do that if I know she's taken care of, that's where you come in. I know you're as big of an idiot as I am when it comes to love, so I leave her to you. Don't let me down, okay kiddo?"
"Wait! I don't get it!" Goku yelled. "Why are talking like this?! Are just going to leave us forever just because Konzen's not here? What about us?" Tsuki could have cried at the desparation in Goku's voice. "Don't.... Don't we mean anything? This year we've spent together? Doesn't that mean anything?" Tsuki sighed. Why couldn't he just let go?
"It means the world." he said. "But you're forgetting who I am. I have a job to do, remember? Ever since I followed Konzen I haven't doing my job and so all of the souls are wondering around this place with no where to and no way to start over or move on. I have one more thing left to do and then I'm outta here."
"What about Sanzo!" Goku yelled. "She may not love ya, but yer still a friend! Who's gonna tell her that we're never going to see you again?" Tsuki's hair covered his eyes as he let out an empty laugh.
"No worries there. She won't even remember me." he said. "As par to the rules of the underworld, when I return to my duties, all mortals will forget me. Man, it sucks to be me." This time Goku kept quiet. What... could he say? He knew Tsuki was suffering, but what could he do? Tsuki put on a large grin.
"Oh, lighten up!" he said. "I'm not even gone yet and you're whining! C'mon! I'll be fine. I always am. Now, go west already and get your girlfriend before I stop being such a big boy and start pounding your face in." Goku stared at him for a moment, then turned away. He knew this was painful for Tsuki and him being here would just cause him more pain. He did a motion with his hand and a white cloud appeared. He jumped on it then turned to Tsuki one last time.
"...Thanks, Tsuki." then he flew off, leaving Tsuki alone.
When Tsuki was alone, he stared at the sky as he thought of Hikari and Hoshi.
"Y'know... You two made it look so easy, this whole lovin' thing. But it's not... it is?"
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Aww! Poor Tsuki! He's going to become a ghost and no one's going to remember him!
Well, at least Goku can use magic now! But will he and Sanzo be reunited?
Join me for the next exciting chapter, where Sanzo fights with Bai, Tsuki goes looking for Uzume, Goku finally tries to tell Sanzo his feelings, I hunt Tsuki down, and the biggest shocker of all will appear. A shock so big, it may turn Tsuki against the Sanzo party!
Also, I apologize to the Hakkai and Gojyo fans. I know they haven't been in here a lot, but I'm trying to wrap this story up and they're not the main characters here.
Review, Review, review!! Oh, c'mon! Two more chapters left! If you like this story even a little, bit please review!(yes, I'm begging, but I know people are reading, but not reviewing *glare* You know who you are....)