Goodnight...
Sometime later, they arrived at her apartment. Mulder walked her to the door and waited till she opened it and let herself in…
Mulder: Well, uh, I should get going…Good night.
Scully: Night…
She couldn't let him leave. She might have not wanted to admit it at the time but, she didn't want him to leave. Before he turned the corner from her apartment complex, she began…
Scully: Wait! Mulder…
He turned around to face her.
Mulder: Yeah?
She found it hard to find the words. "Since when did it become difficult to talk to Fox Mulder?" She took a breath, and even though it contradicted every moral reason she had about not letting him in, she asked him…
Scully: Would you like to come in?
Mulder: You sure? I mean it's a bit late and I don't want to bother you…
Scully: It's fine…
She smiled and so did he back. As he walked in he couldn't help it but notice the fish tank in the corner of the apartment: fish happily swimming with in, which he liked to think was because they still recognized him, his UFO and diver still inside the confines of the tank. She had been taking care of them. She always did, like she took care of everything that meant something, or anything , to her.
He gazed at her as she began placing her things around the apartment. She looked so beautiful…so confident, and yet, he could see the fear and insecurity in her eyes…they same thing he had seen many nights before, the night they had fought, but now he knew what it was.
She faced him.
Scully: Uh, would you like something to drink?
Mulder: I'm fine
He said as he gave her a smile.
Dana had noticed his black attire. She remembered telling him she loved that color on him. "Was that why he wore it tonight?…to impress that woman? Had she said the same thing to him?" She didn't give it much though, since she herself was wearing black that evening, but she wore it more on personal reasons. She was still mourning. "Could he have worn black for the same reason ?…" She sighed, he probably wasn't …but it was.
Mulder broke the silence…
Mulder: So how's it been going for you at Quantico?
Scully: Good…great actually…lot's of work.
Mulder: That's great.
He smiled. He couldn't help it but remember the numerous times they spent in a morgue room identifying anything that would lead them in a case. She always had a rational explanation for everything and he always ruled it out with something unexplainable of his. The bickering could last for hours and could get pretty loud at times…but that never seemed to stop any of them from lying in each other's arms, breathless, at the end of the day in their apartment bedroom.
He hadn't noticed how much he needed her now. He had the incredible urge to go her, wrap his arms and never let go, wishing everything would just be back to how things were… " If you would just trust me again…" But he knew it was best to not try and revive the theme of the divorce or anything related to it…they were doing great to this point…
Mulder: Any new partners?
Scully: No…not really…
There was a moment of silence between the two…
Mulder: I've missed you …at the office…
"I've missed you too…" is all she wanted to say back.Dana redirected her eyes at him. Her heart ached at hearing him utter those words. She had missed him too. Everyday and every hour. She wanted to be with him so bad, it hurt. And yet, she couldn't give in to her desire…he had lied to her once, whose to say he wasn't lying now.
Mulder: I've missed you so much…
Scully: Stop it…
Mulder: Dana I-
Scully: Please Mulder, don't…
Mulder: Scul-
He saw that her wound had not yet healed…it was not the right time to say these things to her. And as much as that hurt him, he stopped for her sake.
Mulder: I'm sorry…
Scully: No your not…
He looked up from where he was standing at the door way to where she was sitting at her sofa in a bit if shock.
Mulder: What?
Scully: You heard me Mulder…why did you have to go and do that, huh? Wasn't I good enough for you? Did she give you what I couldn't?
Her eyes were now a glossy shade. "Oh, Scully…not again with this…" Mulder walked a bit closer to her, he wanted to reassure her from every doubt she had in her mind.
Mulder: I've told you so many times…
Scully: Was that her at the restaurant?
Mulder: Scully-
Scully: What was it Mulder?! Was it me?! Did I not make you happy? Was I not a good wife? Did I not please you in bed the way you wanted me to?! Tell me!
She couldn't help it anymore. Dana broke down in her couch, every insecurity she had about herself now out in the open. Tears streamed down like never before, leaving a hot trail against her cheeks. Mulder's heart broke once again. She was broken. It tore him apart. He wanted to mend her, he wanted to help her. "Scully, please, listen to me…I need you to believe in me one last time…"
Mulder: Dana…there was no other woman…there wasn't anyone else, I swear…there was only you…it was always you.
She couldn't believe him just yet. There were so many rumors…so many things said, how could they all have been a lie?
Mulder: Please Dana…I need you to believe me…I would never want to hurt you…
He walked over to the sofa to sit by her side and it pained him when she shifted away from him.
Scully: Do you know…what I have gone thru? I have doubted myself so many times…and all because of what you did to me…you infidelity…
Mulder: There was nobody else Dana…how many times do I have to say it?! They filled you head with useless lies and got what they wanted…for what joyful purpose? I don't know, but they separated us…
Scully: Of course, blame it on your conspiracies and what not…always with the work…
Mulder felt hopeless. He didn't know what else to say, he had seen himself loose her so many times now, that he thought it was about time it stopped, and as horrible as it sounded to him, it was best he left out of her life for good. It was probably best for her…he only wanted to see her happy…and if it meant not being with her, so be it.
He swallowed the urge to burst out in tears from the pain that now dwelled in his chest and slowly thought and said the last words he would direct to her…
Mulder: Dana…if I have something to be sorry about…it was that. The fact that sometimes, I did not give you the attention you wanted. The attention you needed. You were perfect…I owe you everything, and you owe me nothing. Because of you, I was sane. I had someone to go to when I was lost and had nowhere to go. I had everything, no I have nothing. I'm sorry I didn't pay enough attention to you. That I didn't recognize how amazing you were…and I understand you never wanting to see me again. You have all the right too. I'll walk out of your life and let you be…but not before I tell you this…I would never cheat on you…I never did…There was never another woman…there never was and there never will be…
Dana remained silent. He watched her as she silently wept in her corner of the sofa. He had seen enough…he didn't want to hurt her anymore.
Mulder: I'll be on my way Dana…Goodnight…
He fought the incredible urge to say the words "I love you". He knew if he did, it would make it harder for her. He decided it was all for the best.
Mulder made his way out of the couch and to her door when he heard her utter something from her place at the living room.
Scully: Damn it Mulder!….
She hesitated before finishing her statement.
Scully: I still love you…
Those last words came hushed from her lips. His eyes widened as he turned around to see her, Dana still sitting, her face buried in her hands .
He walked up to her, a bit afraid he was acting upon something he would regret later on. He softly lifter her chin up to see her face. There was something different this time, something that had not been there for a long time. They're gazes meet like they hadn't for a long time. He couldn't take it any longer…
He slowly lowered his mouth onto hers, as thought asking for her permission. She hesitated a bit, but soon gave in to her own urge. Finally their lips met in a slow passion. Mulder's hands began to wrap around her small figure…
Dana began wrapping her arms round his neck, pulling him towards her, deepening their kiss. She had wanted him so much. She had wanted this for along time. She felt as his mouth slowly descended to her chest…
Mulder watched all of his moves with caution, he didn't want to be making a mistake. He surely didn't want her regretting this anytime soon.
Her skin tasted like vanilla, the same as it had been always. He slowly began pressing his body against hers, their living room sofa. She sighed feeling his hands roam her body slowly stopping at the end of her skirt, and little by little, making their way up her thighs…
Scully: Oh, Mulder…
She whispered softly, her hands running through his hair. She gradually made her way to his shirt, one by one, opening the buttons. She sighed loudly feeling his hands lowering the zipper at the back of her dress, the same way he had done so many times before…
Mulder made his way up: their faces meeting. They both stood breathing heavily in each other's arms. Mulder, without warning, stood up from the sofa, pulling Scully along with him, their mouths once again meeting in a heated kiss. He began trying to make his way, with her, else where, not before pinning her against a wall on the way to her bedroom, where she removed his shirt and let it fall on to the ground. He finally found the way to their bedroom, where they descended onto the bed, their slow but fervent exchanging of kisses never ceasing.
Moments later, only increasing moans and sighs could be heard through out the apartment…the dim glow of the aquarium being the only source of light in the bedroom…
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A/N: Here's chapter 5. Thought he'd leave didn't you? I'm a bit bashfull about writting love scenes, so please give me some info about how I did. I don't like revealing a lot, just enough to make you understand the passion that they feel towards each other. Well you guys tell me :) Hope you guys liked it. I mean I was going to aim for something else, but the characters wouldn't let me...they had other plans in mind ;) I let them play, their usually good at what they do!
I'm still not done here! There's a bit more up my sleeve BUAHAHAHA! LOL Plz review. I'll try to update soon, as always I blame college! To all those who are reading, YOU GUYS ARE AWSOME! You guys are what keeps me writting.
Oh, and special thanks to my 'Mulder' and Egiptian Princess, for helping me write this chapter!