" No, it's not, i'm with Beck"
"But he doesn't love you like i do, i felt something when we kissed and you know it, because you felt it too!" I stood up from the floor and now our faces are inches apar
" I'm sorry Cat, but i can't" She turns around and starts to walk away but then she stops and turns around "Listen, you're tired, let's just forget it, ok, i bought you cupcakes, they're downstairs, i change your bed sheets because of the blood, and i hope you get better" i couldn't belive it, she was leaving me, standing there all alone, i can't take it anymore i start to going after her
"How can you forget this ? How can ou forget this kiss? Because i can't, and if you don't love me , why were you in my house?" I screamed i yelled, i want an answer, and then she stop walking she turns around and i can see frustation writted on her face
"Why? I tell you why! Because i'm your fucking best friend and i love you, and i was worried about you especially because you never miss class! That's why! "
" Yo- you were worried about me, then why didn't you text me or call me?" i take a step closer to her, and she doesn't move she just looks at me, watching every single move i make towards her.
" Because i left my phone at home so i ask beck if i could use his and i text you, but you never answer" she doesn't look so frustrated anymore so i take the chance and take another step foward, leaving the space between me and her smaller
"That's why you slap me?"
" I slap you because i find you trying to kill yourself because you love me, don't you realize that if i didn't show up on time you wouldn't be alive right now?" I look down feeling new tears forming in my eyes, i think about it, but she doesn't love me so what's the point of being alive
" I don't care" t say under my breath, waitting for her toi freak out, and now she's the one who takes the step foward
" I DO! DO YOU EVER THOUGHT HOW MUCH PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU? YOUR PARENTS WOULD BE DEVASTATED, SO AS TORI, ANDRE AND ROBBIE EVEN BECK!"
" Would you?"
"Of course i would! you're my bestfriend i might not show you but i do care about you"
" But you don't love m, don't you get it Jade? Why should i be alive if the person i love doesn't loves me back?" I start to walking backwards leaving the space between us bigger
" Ca-" all the sudden we both freeze when we hear the door open, my mom is coming from work, damn it, we both run to my room closing the door and hearing my mom climbing up stairs, jade passes me a jacket so i can cover the bandages, i put it on and drag myself under the covers of my bed while i watch jade leaving my room from the window, she glances me one last time
" see you tomorrow" and with that she leaves my room and i can hear my mom steps until they stop and my door opens.
" Hey honey, how you feeling?"
" Better i guess"
" Good , i saw cupcakes downstairs where they came from?"
"Jade" i answer and my heart starts to beating faster
" How nice of her, you should invite her for dinner"
"i will"
"good i will make you dinner and you can eat it here"
"thanks mom" i replied before the door close again
My mom brings me the dinner, but i can't eat it, all i think about it's her, the cuts on my wrists are hurting me, my head is pounding and i feel pain in my chest, i love her so much and now she knows, thinks will never be the same. I decided to check my messages i read all of them leaving the ones of beck for last. i open one of them and she was telling the truth
text message:
from:Beck
Cat, you didn't show up on school today, i'm worried, hope you're ok, things are not teh same without you
p.s -i forgot my phone at home so i text you from beck's
jade
I cry , like every night when i realize i love her and she doens't know, today i cry for what i did to her and to myself, and i told her i love her and still she doesn't love me back. I don't know for how long i stay like this sobbing silently not wanting my parents to wake up, until i drift myself to sleep
x-x
what do you think? i know it's short but i was out most of the time so i didn't have much time, sorry