After hours of cleaning, scrubbing, rearranging and unpacking boxes, I finally finished working on Kendall's apartment at ten at night and for some reason lately, all I've wanted to do is sleep, so staying awake from seven to ten was an accomplishment. Before I could lay down with Kendall (who'd been a lazy bum all day), I decided to call and check on Jo and tell her I would be staying another night. What I got wasn't my dream of perfection.
"Hello" a rushed voice said, obviously rushing around our little room at home, "What do you need Bambi."
"Nothing Jo, I was just calling to say that I'm at-," she interrupted me while I was trying to tell her I was still at Kendall's apartment.
"I know, you're at Kendall's, anything else," she said, obviously flustered.
"What's the rush Bitch, I thought maybe you wanted to talk," I was calm, but determined to find out what the hell was going on exactly.
"I have to pack and don't have- Crap!"
"What do you mean you have to pack?" I screeched, catching Kendall's attention away from the TV.
"Look, I've been putting off telling you, but Samantha is transferring to another College upstate to get out of this town. She invited me to come and I decided it would be best for me. It's not because of you Logan, I swear, but after what's happened here, I need to get away."
"When are you leaving," I said pleadingly; I had to know. She wasn't getting away without a goodbye.
"Tomorrow morning at five. We are driving up to the airport that's a couple hours from here and then flying out. You don't have to come Logan; Samantha is gonna drive and Camille will be home all night with her new gay best friend, Carlos. You know, that girl is a bit of a gay magnet, wonder if she-."
"Stop doing that," I said in an upset tone, "Stop trying to get me not to pay attention. You are my very best friend and I at least get to say good bye to you. Kendall and I will be right over. Don't do anything."
Kendall had been listening to the whole conversation when I turned to him, "We need to go to your house Logie," he said.
"Yeah," I responded quickly, grabbing a coat and running out the door, Kendall was slower behind me cause he had to grab the car keys and lock the place up. I was out in the freezing cold, next to his old car when he ran up to the door and manually unlocked it, which made me giggle. We both got in as fast as we could before he started driving. It startled me at first, just how fast he was going, but I got used to it when I thought about Jo. Jo who had been through so much with me. Jo my best friend who was also a rape victim. Jo my friend who was almost like a sister, and she was going to leave without even saying goodbye. It made me sad, but I didn't realize I was crying till Kendall wiped my cheek.
"What's going on Logie-Bear," Kendall started softly, "I'm still not sure what we're doing exactly."
"Jo is moving tomorrow and just told me. And it's just – it's just that I keep losing people and she was my one constant. When I screwed up, she was there to tell me it was okay. And tomorrow she'll be gone. Never there again, probably. I know I have Camille and You and Carlos to some extent, but she was different. Almost every tragedy possible happened to us and now the greatest one of all is going on. She's leaving."
"I really wish there was something I could do," he said, "I absolutely hate seeing you like this. So sad."
"It's okay, it's just difficult. She was the person to tell me that you had a crush on me. I kind of think she chose my Halloween outfit just to get you to make a move. It's hard to realize that soon those will be memories of an old friend," my tears had slowed a little and I wasn't choking (yet), but it still felt bad.
"How'd she know I like you," Kendall responded, "I know I never told her."
"Besides the fact that you scared off a few bullies who tried to kill me day one," I started, "but she told me about my nervous habit."
"Of blowing things when you're nervous,"
"Yeah, that one. She said when I got nervous I'd do it to the end of my pencil and that you could barely handle yourself."
"Dear God is that true. You don't have any idea how crazy you make me in Math class. Then especially, cause you get really focused and will hum a little which is like a whole performance for the whole class."
"The whole class can hear me sing?" I said in horror.
"You practically put on a live show for us."
"I know where this is going?"
"What can I say Logie, you've given that pencil many happy days. I think it's scene more action than me," Kendall said chuckling, but I was humiliated. Everyone heard me sing. And do that. I'm surprised I haven't gotten made fun of for those things.
"Awe, don't look so sad Bam Bam," Kendall said as we pulled into my drive-way, next to Samantha's car, "The football team seems to enjoy your little tick, and I think a few girls are gonna ask you for lessons soon, unless they already have. I've been gone for a while remember." He ran over to my side of the car and swiftly opened the door like a gentlemen before I pulled out my keys and unlocked the door to see Camille and Carlos on the couch watching a Romantic Movie together with popcorn.
"Hey Guys," Carlos shouted a little too loud.
"It's date night I see," Kendall said quickly.
"Ha,Ha," Carlos mocked sarcastically, "you're a real comedian. We rented a movie so we could catch up on what everyone is talking about. It's actually really good, wanna watch."
This time I interjected, "No, I came to see Jo, were is she."
"She's waiting for you," Camille finally spoke up, breaking her attention from the movie, "She said that she's through packing and Samantha is as well, she wants to see you as soon as you get here, and you are so go so we can watch the movie." Camille threw some popcorn at us and I dodged it before rushing off to my room. There she was, sitting on my bed crying while Samantha lay asleep on the one opposite it.
"Hey, *sob* Bambi," she said, "Watchu doin here."
"I'm here to see my best friend in the whole wide world for the last time!" I said, the tears welling in my eyes.
"Don't say that," she responded, "I'm gonna come back just to see you and we can call each other too."
"I know, but it won't be the same, not with you gone."
"Yes it will; You have the amazing Kendall and Camille has been dying to talk to you. And Carlos is a blast. You won't even notice I'm gone kiddo."
"Yes I will, because you mean the most to me in this life," I could see Kendall grimace a little before returning to his first expression again of just not caring.
"You know I love you," she finally spoke up again.
"I love you more," I said back.
"No, me more,"
"Uh –Ah, no me more," we giggled and did this for a long time and laughed and talked and had the time of our lives in just a few hours. Jo had made one of the biggest impacts on my life besides James and Kendall and it wouldn't be the same without her, it just couldn't. Kendall ended up falling asleep on the floor and I brought a blanket down on him and put a pillow under his head. I don't know how, but he totally slept through the whole thing. He continued to amaze me every day. "Why don't you just sleep with me tonight, for our last night together." She gave me that smile before crawling into bed next to me and as usually, I cuddled her which she thought was hilarious. We both fell asleep by one, but it didn't matter. It was our last night together, we could go to bed at four.
I woke up in the morning to Kendall's face right in front of mine, he's arm around me. We were still at my house, but Jo was gone and so was Samantha. I was desperate to find out the time to see if I could catch up to them, but of course it was too late. It was nine in the morning. I shifted a little, forcing the beautiful blonde haired boy to moan in his sleep and grin. When he got closer I figured out why; Kendall was having naughty dreams. Of course he would. We're talking about Kendall Knight, horny straight, gay boy. It was so hard to classify him, just like his Closet/Kitchen. I tried moving again and I got far away enough to grab a letter Jo left on our shared nightstand. It read as so:
"Dear Bambi,
I realized as we were talking last night that you were right; you do mean the most to me in this life because you're the first friend I've ever had to accept me. You loved me and took care of me and no matter what happened, those good things will always be my memory of us. God, I'm writing this like we're dating, but I just don't know any other way. How can you love someone so much without lust and so on; I'm still figuring everything out myself. But, I won't ever forget about you and you have to call or I'll come back down to kick Kendall's ass because I know how to get to you through guilt. I'm super excited though to move to a town where there is an actual pride parade. It's crazy cool to think about it, but I know it's nothing new to you. You lived the glamorous life in L.A.; you've probably been marching since you were two," (I had; my mom had lots of gay friends), "but it's finally my turn. It's important that you watch out for yourself, Kendall, Camille, and Carlos. It's not gonna get any easier since I've gone and you don't exactly have the thickest skin which isn't a bad thing, just the truth. Do well in school like you always do and try not to attract any more suitors with your, special abilities. I hear the captain of the football team totally wants to make you his bitch. Still, baggin a hockey player ain't bad at all. Especially Kendall Knight. And I hope you know that all James would want would you to be happy, so don't feel so guilty about learning to love again, even if it was so fast. You're the most special person I know and you deserve every ounce of love that Eyebrows can give you and he's probably pourin that shit on you like syrup. And don't you dare go back to L.A. without me because the time of my life was going with you there for New Years. When you go get super famous and get a TV show and a number one album, I better be with you all the way. Cause I'll still beat the crap out of Kendall and you totally know I could. I can already see it now, 'For one night only, Logan Mitchell performing his new hit single, Worldwide.' Like that last one, I through in a title just for you cause I know you'll be a freakin phenomenon of hotness. You are the most beautiful guy I've ever meet; you'll be running from those crazy fan girls at a mile-a-minute. And maybe I could sing back-up vocals on a track before going off into my own career as a singer/actress. Still, we'll be the best friends ruling the world. And you'll still have to dress me cause I don't have all that great of a fashion sense, but you make a great nurse, so your ambition of being a doctor if you don't get famous is totally on track. Or a porn star, because I can hear you moan at night sometimes and It's like watching some porno. Plus the looks thing again. And if you're a porn star, I wanna be the pizza girl who totally gets to watch and the dude your doing it with. Knowin you, it'd be hot. Still, I love you Logie. No matter what you do or who you are, I absolutely love you. Tell everyone there that I love them too and kiss Camille for me. I always wanted to do it and see how she'd react.
Your favorite Lesbian who is totally in Love with You,
Josephine 'Jo' Taylor"
Kendall was rocking my side to side from behind as I finished the letter and the tears rolled down my cheeks again. How many times could freaking letters make me cry.
Author's Note: So this is not the big thing to happen, but I loved my Jo character and felt I didn't have enough time to keep her heavily in the story like she was at first, so I decided to give her a happy ending for a while until we got closer to the official end. She'll be back. Promise. Love Ya. XoXo.