Chapter 4
His heat radiated off of his body engulfing me with his sorrow and comfort. My sobs wouldn't stop though and I needed to get my mind off of this for a second. I turned my face to Edward and it was if he knew I needed to do something so he handed me his phone. "Thank you." I said, I was pretty worn out now but I didn't have time for that I needed to tell Renee and get to come up and help me with this week. The phone rang three times and I was about to give up when the phone was picked up.
"Hello?" I heard Renee answer.
"Mommy, I need you to come to Forks tomorrow." I said my breathing not normal and sobs broke through. Edward took the phone again thinking I wouldn't be able to talk. That boy knew me way to well. He spoke quietly and quickly, rubbing circles into my back. I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes while he talked to Renee for me. I couldn't believe this was happening today. My dad just died, jasper hates me, and I'm having weird feelings for my best friend in the whole world. Man my life is pretty screwed up. Edward hung up the phone and I looked up to see what was going to happen.
"Your mom said the she would take the first flight in tomorrow and help with all that needs to be done. You can stay over here for the time that you need to if you want, and I'll get Emmet or Rose to go get you some clothes." He rambled on, "Do you want me to call Jasper now or later?"
"I'll call later tomorrow, I really just want to sleep some." I replied. I don't think I could talk on a phone right now seeing how the other conversations ended up. I started to get up from Edwards lap but fell back down when my legs gave out. "Ugh, Edward will you help me. I want to change into some of your sweat pants and a shirt."
"Ok." So this time he just got up and grabbed some clothes from his dresser and tossed them to me. I waited till his back was to me and I changed quickly into his clothes, and lay back down on the couch waiting for whatever was next. "Bella you can have the bed." He was so nice to me I knew he cared and that meant a lot. He picked me up and dropped me on his bed.
"Thank you Edward, but will you please stay in here with me. I need you right now." It was the truth, who knows what I would do if I didn't have anyone with me at the moment. I pulled the comforter over my body and waited for Edward to get in. He looked kind of hesitant and excited it seemed. The feelings passed though as he finally crawled in next to me, but when he got down he looked a bit awkward. His arms were crossed over his chest and he was lying on his back. Why is he being so weird? I pushed my arms through his and wiggled up so I was squished into him. I pulled in my legs and just let my breathing calm down for a second.
"Bella I need to tell you something." He whispered to me so I looked up at him and he was staring at into my eyes with a very serious look. To tell you the truth I don't think that I could go through anything else tonight. While I was waiting for the something he let go of me and pushed me away from him while his hands were still on my arms. What was going on? The alarm showed through and he quickly pulled me back to him. "Bella, I, well I love you."
"Edward I love you too." I knew we loved each other. He was my best friend I could never think of anybody nicer then him. Sure I wished it could be more but I knew he would never want to be with me any other way.
"No, Bella I'm in love with you."
"Oh." My response wasn't what he was looking for and he turned back to his back leaving me shocked and alone on the other side of the bed. I curled into a ball, bringing my legs to my chest. I couldn't believe what he had just said to me, but I knew what I had to say back. So I turned to face him still in my ball position and whispered like I was talking to myself. "Edward I love you too, that's what I said and I meant it." He didn't move so I thought he didn't hear. I crawled on all fours to him and sat Indian style waiting for him to look or even glace in my direction. God this was the reason I wouldn't say anything before, I can't loose him. Not tonight, not ever. But stupid emotional me started to cry again because stupid Edward won't listen. That immediately got his attention though. He shot up and pulled me into another hug and just rocked me back and forth.
"Do you really? Because I know this is weird and so close to your dads death but I don't know what's going to happen in the morning."
"Edward can we talk about this situation in the morning please? I am not sure if my brain can take much more. I love you and I love that you are taking care of me it's really sweet. Thank you."
"Anytime beautiful." With that he pulled me into his arms and hummed to me as I fell into a dreamless sleep.
It's a bit short I know but I'm not positive how long I'll be away from the computer for the next few days. Thanks for the review and stuff! I will post something for yall later.