Chapter 5
I woke up in a light filled room, I don't remember what happened last night but I could feel two clear emotions sadness and love, two very different feelings that were attacking every part of my body. While I laid there for a moment my body started to notice its surroundings. I felt two warm arms surrounding my body and my head was against something warm and hard. It was hard opening my eyes to see but eventually I did. I was in Edward's room, in Edward's arms, resting on Edward's chest. Why were we like that? Then yesterday came back to me like a professional boxer hitting me in the stomach. I flinched automatically making Edward open his eyes. He looked so happy but a little lost then the spark of knowledge flew across his eyes and he smiled at me. I scooted closer to him and just rested there for a moment until I knew I would have to get up and do something.
"It's time to get up." I whispered to Edward who frowned at me.
"I don't know if I ever want to let you go Bella" I didn't want him to either.
"But we have to tell Jasper about Charlie and then me need to talk about us." I didn't want to talk though. I just wish every day could be nice and that Charlie would magically show up at Edward's house.
"I guess I'll call Jasper and then when he leaves you and I can talk. Bella you can go downstairs and I'm sure Esme will have something you can eat. I will be down right after ok?" I rolled out of his arms and onto my feet. But before I left I smiled at him and nodded my head for my answer. Walking out of his room I didn't feel as great, I was tired and just wanted to be held by Edward all day. Coming down the stairs I saw Emmet on the couch, he looked like a little 5 year old in a 19yr olds body. If you didn't know Emmet was Edward's older brother, he graduated last year with his girlfriend Rose. Yes she is beautiful if you were wondering. Her name does give away how she looks, I mean the most beautiful flower and well model woman. Anyway Emmet was playing some video games until he saw me.
"BELLA!" He yelled and ran to give me a hug.
"Hey Emmet." He swept me up into a bear hug almost cutting off my air passage before he set me down.
"Bella, come sit down and let's talk!" I did what I was told and I went over to the couch with him. "I didn't see you come in. Did Esme open the door for you?" I giggled at that comment but then felt a wave of sadness wash over me as I thought about him not knowing. A few tears started flowing out of my eyes before I stopped them with my hands. "Bella what's going on, why are you here, and how come the door bell didn't ring!?" He was getting a bit frustrated that I wasn't giving him any answers but I just need him to calm down before I talked to him. When I saw that he was done I began to explain every thing that happened in the past day with out crying throughout the whole thing. But when I was done he pulled me into a hug and I cried my eyes out. "I'm so sorry, I didn't even know. I would have kept you company last night. Even if Edward was here, and Jasper god that boy I can't believe that. Don't worry I'll beat him up later. I'm so so sorry Bella I don't even know what to say." Emmet then cried with me about everything. I couldn't believe what was going on still a bit shocked that he was in my arms and we were both sobbing but that stopped when Esme came into the room and cleared her throat.
"Bella, when did you get here?" I looked up at her still crying like a baby and she seemed to notice because she ran over to Emmet and me wrapping us in a hug. "What's going on?" I caught Emmet shaking his head in the corner of my eye and tried calming myself down a little bit before I explained to her what had been going on.
"Charlie's cancer took the best of him last night and I couldn't function enough to do anything so I stayed with Edward. Nothing happened if you were worried about that, I just needed my best friend and he was there for me." She wrapped me in another hug again and led me to the kitchen to get something to eat for breakfast.
"Bella I want you to stay here at our house while your mother is in Forks and maybe we could talk her into letting you stay here instead of going to Arizona with her. I'm not positive what we are going to do but all I know is I don't want you to be alone for a while." She said this to me while fixing me some cereal to eat. When she was done she passed me the bowl. I really didn't realize how hungry I was until I took my first bite but the cereal was gone as fast as it was put in front of me. I sat there for a moment hands in my lap looking around the empty kitchen, Esme must have left while I was eating. Footsteps were coming from outside the kitchen and getting louder I hoped it was somebody I wouldn't have to explain everything to. When they walked in the doorway my heart sped up a little.
Edward, he looked perfect standing there, the light helped the color of his hair making it sparkle. How I wanted to go plant a kiss on him right then, but I knew better. I'm not ready for him, and plus we still need to talk. He walked up to me and hugged me to his chest. I pulled my arms free and wrapped them around his torso breathing in his delicious smell. I never want to leave him; Edward will always be the boy in my life now that Charlie was gone. I had a bad feeling about being happy though. Charlie just died and I don't know what to do! My feelings need to slow down for a second.
"Rough morning?" How could he tell? Was it just written on my face that I had been crying for who knows how long?
"Emmet and Esme, two down one to go. Speaking of that one when is he coming? Because I need Renee to come and tell me when everything is going to happen and remember that we still need to talk. "
"Jasper said after school that he would try to come, but he sounded mad still so I wouldn't make any promises." I frowned at what he said and just sat for a few minutes in his embrace.
"Edward, what's going to happen to me? Will we ever be together?" I knew the answer would be painful, and that neither of us wanted the real answer.
"Bella, no matter what happens I will always be there. I love you and you're my best friend I don't know what I would do if you left me." His voice sounded sincere and I believed what he said.
"I need to talk to Renee now." I took his phone out of his front pocket and dialed her cell number.
"Renee? I forgot if you told me when your plane getting in."
"Bella dear I just got in, could you come pick me up? Or should I grab a rental?"
"Edward and I can come and get you just wait there. Oh and you might want to get a hotel room for you to stay in. I'm staying at the Cullen's house."
"Alright sweetie I'll call and work that out. See you in a little bit!" With that she hung up the phone. I looked up and gave Edward his phone.
"Ok let's get to the car and go to get your mother." With that he took my hand in his leading me to the garage. His Volvo was closest to us which was nice and left me fewer obstacles to trip over. I climbed into the passenger side of the car and stared out the window as we drove to the airport. The silence was nice and it left me to think what was going to happen with me. I started to doze off.
"Bella, I love you and I think that we are better together." Jasper was telling me.
"Jasper no! You can't ruin your friendship with Edward! I am just going to go to Arizona if you boys don't stop telling me about how much you love me and need me." I was furious, why are they doing this to me?
"Ok Bella but you're telling Edward!" He yelled once before walking away.
I woke up with a jolt. Looking around at my surroundings I saw Edward and mom in the car with us. Wait mom?
"Bella, finally decided to join us did you?" She was joking and I knew it but it was a tad bit annoying.
"Hello mom, how was the flight?"
"Wonderful, you've been out for some time Bella. How much sleep did you get last night?" I thought back to when I went to sleep and I couldn't really remember.
"I don't know mom. Last night was kind of tough on me and all." She backed off after that knowing the last thing I needed was for her to be fake and annoying. I couldn't wait till we got home to tell her what I had decided in my dream. I needed to leave Edward. As much as I didn't want to, I couldn't ever ruin his relationship with Jasper. I would never be able to live with myself.
I decided on sending Renee a text. I would delete it right after and all would be ok. Edward wont have a decision to make between his two friends and I could go without him thinking I wouldn't want to be here.
"Mom, I need to go with you after everything is done. ASAP! Please delete this after you read!" I sent it and waited for her phone to get it. The vibrations were a little loud but Edward didn't take his eyes off the road. Mission accomplished.
I know Bella sounds like jerk but really she is doing what Edward did to her in New Moon… I didn't think of it till I started to explain her side of the story. Well I will get the next chapter out soon!