Hey. I bet you all hate me. I hate me. I didn't update this like all summer :( im sorry. The only reason this is up is becasue by bestie TheFonzGhandi19 is sick and begged me to so here you go mon ami. Yeah i know this is way short but then next to will be so much longer because i actually have it planned unlike this :/

I started my senior year so im suprised i actually did this, be thankful :) thanks to all the reviews, alerts and favorites. those made me smile to no end so again THANK YOU

"Never give up hope because in the end, hope is all we can hold onto."-Anon.

Watching the ambulance drive away that held two of his best friends was one of the hardest things Kendall had to do. The last thing he wanted was the four of them to be split up after this whole ordeal but he knew it had to happen. As soon as they had gotten to ground level, paramedics swarmed them like a child would chase an ice cream truck. It took the combined forces of Corey and John just to get one friend with another on the ambulances. Since no one could get Carlos to leave Logan, the paramedics loaded Logan up with Carlos in the back. With a shaky hand wave and a watery smile, Carlos had disappeared from Kendall's sight.

All that was left was him and James. As James was being put on a stretcher and put in the ambulance, Kendall never let go of his best friends' hand. He knew it was irrational but Kendall felt like if he let go of James he'd somehow end up back in that hotel and Kendall wouldn't be able to take that. So as they hooked up James to different machines, Kendall sat with both hands clutching one of James' and kept a silent vigil over the brunette.

"I'm not going anywhere Kendall." James spoke up as the back doors were slammed shut and the ambulance started up.

"I know James. I'm just looking out for you." Kendall replied and gave his hands a squeeze which James eagerly returned.

It was a couple moments of the paramedic talking and the blare of the sirens before Kendall heard James chuckle.

"What are you laughing at?" Kendall questioned while inside he was doing a happy dance because that was the first time James had laughed since this whole life or death thing happened.
"How is it that we always end up in ambulances wherever we go?" James replied flashing Kendall a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes.

Kendall rolled his eyes and returned James' smile. "I think the logical answer here would be; we're Kendall, James, Logan, and Carlos. Maybe we should get our own personal one to follow us around."

James's laugh turned into a hiss as a young paramedic eased a needle into his arm. That seemed to bring the boys back to the reality of this situation.

"Ken?" James called softly sounding more scared than Kendall had ever heard in his life. The simple fact that he used Kendall's nickname from grade school made him sick.

Kendall tightened his grip on James. "Yeah Jay?" He knew calling James by that would give him some comfort.
"You think Logan will be okay?" James questioned in a voice Kendall knew as his I'm-trying-to-sound-stronger-than-I-really-am voice.

At the mention of Logan, Kendall's stomach twisted in knots of panic and fear. Truthfully, Kendall didn't know of their best friend was going to be okay. The way Logan was so warm and so pale made Kendall very frightened for the teen. They couldn't lose Logan, it was that simple. They were four best friends not three.
"I hope so James, I really really hope so." Kendall replied honestly because he knew he couldn't lie to James.
When they finally got to the hospital, James was taken toward to clinic so the doctors could make sure he wasn't seriously injured. Kendall didn't like leaving James but as soon as they both saw Carlos sitting stock still in the waiting room James forced the blond to their other best friend.
Giving one last squeeze to James' hand, Kendall walked over to Carlos who had his helmet in his lap and was staring wide eyed at nothing. Kendall took a seat next his best friend and didn't even speak as he waited for him to talk. What was said turned Kendall's blood to ice.
"He-he flat lined."

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Love, Jamie