Heartbreaking Love - A Harry Potter and Ron Weasley Love Story - Chapter 3 – Lies, Secrets and Tears
Here is the third chapter, thanks to eagerlyawaiting f or the lovely review, it's great to hear someone is enjoying this :) Also thank you to anyone else that is reading this too :P As always reviews would be awesome :D
*Still your POV*
When we got to the portrait hole I'd still not thought what I'd tell Harry. What was I meant to say? "Harry, your best friend has a huge crush on me and I think I might like him back?" I don't think so, besides I hadn't told Ron how I felt yet and I wasn't sure if, how and when I was going to. I was still pondering this and trying to come up with reasonable justifications for my obsession with his smile and the acrobatics my stomach did when he hugged me when the portrait hole opened. "_? You coming in?" Ron asked, bringing me back to real life. "Huh? Oh yeah right." I said following him through. Harry and Hermione looked up when we walked in. "Hey, we were just about to come looking for you two. What were you up to?" Hermione asked. "Eh..." Ron said awkwardly. "We were just talking" I said innocently, hoping Ron's awkwardness had gone unnoticed. "What about?" Harry asked, obviously meaning had I found out what was up. "Just random stuff" I said, and then a sudden wave of inspiration hit me and I continued, "Ron was worried about his...um..muggle studies essay so I was explaining..er.. how computers work." I said. 'Smooth _' I scolded myself silently' "Huh- Oh yeah right, thanks _, really helped" Ron said, cottoning on a bit slower than I'd hoped. Hermione cocked an eyebrow suspiciously but thankfully Harry seemed convinced. "Well, I think I'm gonna hit the hay now guys." I said, trying not to sound too eager to get away before you had to answer any more questions. "I'll come, I'm tired too." Hermione said, but I suspected she wanted to find out what was really going on, nothing got past that girl. "Ok, well night Ron" I said giving him another stomach-squeezing hug. "N-night" he replied over the top of my head, which as I am small for my age and Ron was so gangly, fitted snugly under his chin. "Night Harry" I said, going over and sitting down on his lap and putting your lips to his, all the while very aware of Ron's eyes on us and equally aware of the feeling of guilt I had kissing Harry in front of him in light of today's revelations. "Night_. Love you." He said, smiling at me, completely oblivious to my internal mental struggle. "Love you too" I whispered. I got up and hurried towards the door to the dorms, Hermione in tow. I didn't want to wait around to see if he was going to ask why I whispered it.
As soon as I climbed the stairs and went into the dorm room I shared with Hermione and Ginny, who thankfully was still down in the common room, Hermione asked "What were you really up to? Ron seems a bit cheerier and we both know he doesn't get that upset over homework!" "I don't know if I should tell you, it's kinda personal." I said. "_, He's my best friend too you know, I should know, maybe I can help too." "I don't think you can Hermione" "Please just tell me, I'm worried about him, so is Harry." She pleaded. "Ok" I sighed, "But you can't tell him I told you, and you definitely can't tell Harry, ok?" "Why?" she said looking extremely puzzled, we didn't keep secrets in our group. This was different though. " You'll see why when I tell you, just promise you won't tell, please" I said urgently. Although I felt guilty, as if I was betraying Ron, I was desperate to share my worries with someone and she was his best friend too and who knows? Maybe she can help somehow. "OK, I promise, just tell me" I could sense the worry and anticipation in her voice. She knew it must be big if it involved secrets. "Well" I said taking a deep breath, "He-he said he liked me. More than as a friend. And he feels really, really bad about it because of Harry." I said, watching her face very carefully for any sign of a reaction. "Wow" she breathed, "What did you say to him?" "I..er..I didn't" I said blushing. I saw her face and I carried on speaking, not wanting to give her the chance to judge me for leaving the poor guy in the lurch. "I know, I know, I should have said something but I just...I don't know what to tell him." And then I added sheepishly "I don't know how I feel about it...or about him" I blushed furiously and looked at her, anxious to see what her response to this would be. "What? What do you mean? Do you- oh my god do you like him back?" She said, unable to hide the shock in her voice. "Like who back?" came a familiar voice before I had a chance to answer. Neither of us had heard Ginny come in. "Uh No-one" I said, a bit too quickly. She cocked an eyebrow, shrugged and said "Whatever, I'll find out sooner or later" and left, grabbing a textbook from her bed as she went. I sighed with relief and turned back to Hermione's expectant face. "I don't know. I mean I think so. My tummy went all sort of squeezy when he told me and when he hugged me and his smile... I can't stop thinking about it. What am I going to do Hermione?" I whined the last bit in a panic, my cheeks still burning. "What about Harry?" she asked. "Do you still feel the same about him?" "Yeah of course I do" I replied "This isn't about my feelings about him changing. I just feel them about Ron too. Oh shit! I'm a really bad person aren't I?" I wailed at the realisation at how serious my new feelings for Ron where and the implications of them for Harry and me. "Not really _, it's not like you chose for this to happen is it?" She said reassuringly. At that moment, I was sure I'd never been happier to have her as a friend as I was now. "Thanks _ Herm" I said, feeling a tear falling down my cheek, "Thank you for being so kind and not judging me. I didn't mean it, really I didn't. The last thing I want is to hurt either of them, I love them both so much!" Oh my god, it was true, at that moment I realised, I had well and truly fallen for my boyfriend and for his best friend too. Hermione gawped at me, unable to believe what I'd just revealed to her. "What should I do? Should I tell Harry? Or Ron? He's down there feeling rejected! At least Harry knows I love him. But he's my boyfriend, I'm meant to love him, not him and his best friend!" I stopped my rambling panicked outburst so I could catch my breath and Hermione said. "I don't know if telling Ron would help. I mean unless you break up with Harry you can't do anything about it, you can't give him hope and then snatch it away. Not without breaking his heart." "But what if I'm not snatching it away, I don't know what I'm going to do. If I talked to him, he'd understand my situation, wouldn't he?" I asked. "Maybe. I mean yes, I suppose he would but it's not going to be easy for him." She countered. "I know but it's not going to be easy for either of us is it? None of it. And I can't stand lying to them both. I know Harry's my boyfriend and he deserves the truth but this will be easier for Ron to hear, it might even make him smile again and we all want that, right?" I said, forming my decision and praying for Hermione to support it. "Yes" she said thoughtfully, "That actually makes sense for you to tell him first, you should go now before he falls asleep. And remember, muffliato will stop anyone overhearing, just in case" she said softly. "Thank you Hermione!" I hugged her tightly. "I'm so sorry. I never meant to come into your little group and mess it all up!" another few tears escaped and she said "I know, and you haven't. It'll work out one way or another, it has to and anyway we've been through worse things than this together." She said hugging you back. "Now you'd better go, if he falls asleep you'll never wake him up!" You both giggled at this, albeit rather weakly and with yet more tears escaping your eyes. "Ok" you said, checking your pocket and finding your wand was still in there. "Good luck_". "Thanks Herm", you said, taking a deep breath and mentally psyching yourself up to spill your heart.