Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, I only own the characters I create like Ella.

Pain can't begin to describe what I feel

Ella's POV

I ran towards my house and phased, after opening the door I realized my mom wasn't here yet, she worked at the hospital and I think she has the night shift tonight. I walked around my empty house to find something to eat. There were some leftover turkey sandwiches so I heated um' up and sat down to a lonely dinner. Then I heard a wolf howl, knowing it meant something I ran into the forest and unwillingly phased,

'Where were you?' Sam demanded in my mind.

'I'm gonna take a wild guess and say I was not the only one who heard the conversation.' I said harshly, I felt sympathy from some of the wolves, Collin was not among them,

'Why did it affect you?' He asked and I exploded,

'What if that was Emily, would you have been able to contain the anger and pain that would well up inside?' I asked and was awarded with silence,

'Meet us in the field south of the house.' He stated quietly, I saw what he was thinking about, Emily, he was wondering if she would ever do that, my thoughts traveled to Collin though, I wonder what he said on the phone after I left and blocked what I could hear out, Riley shifted his mind and showed me a flash-back of what had happened.

"Ummm, ya I'll be there. I just have to get rid of someone." Collin said to Kayla,

"Ok, see you then." She replied sounding eager, then he closed his phone and heard hell break loose in the next room.

"What you let her get away?" Sam yelled angrily at Embry,

"Who?" Collin asked looking around to see who was missing.

"Ella, he let her leave. I heard someone phase and asked Embry, he had let her leave." Sam said, trying to stay calm,

"Do you think she could get hurt?" Emily asked holding onto Sam's arm, Collin remained still the entire time,

"Where is she" Sam and Collin demanded, and Embry stood still,

"She needed to leave and I let her." He said in a defensive tone.

"Well than, tell me if you find her." Collin said before walking out the door to go see Kayla. Everyone stared after him in shock.

End of flash-back

'I'm sorry' Riley said in my mind but I shrugged it off as I ran. Once I was in the clearing Sam began to give orders,

'Riley, Ella, and Quil run perimeter while James and I run the inner area.' He said in the alpha voice. I nodded and began to run behind Quil. The hour went by fast, once we were sure there were no vampires in the area we were allowed to return home. I was the last to go, Sam was waiting for me to go off and phase,

'Can I stay a wolf?' I asked, I could feel his confusion,

'Why would you want to do that?' he asked looking at me intently,

'I don't want to go back.' I said plainly, letting my memories flood out into the open between our two minds,

'Ok, but the next patrol starts in about three minutes, I'll tell them you'll be running as well.' I sighed, at least this gave me something to do today, then I remembered Collin ran after me. I felt Sam phase into a human, than there was an eerie silence that covered the forest. I laid down for a moment, I looked at my paws and saw that the silver was almost gone due to all the dirt I ran through, maybe this time I would be able to run through the stream. My thoughts were interrupted though,

'Hay how's it goin?' Embry asked me, seeing the pattern of my thoughts. I huffed and stood up, he was running towards the clearing so I could just wait for him to come. Once he arrived we sat in silence for a little while, his thoughts were mainly about his imprint, Ashley.

'Hay Embry…who's with you?' Collin's voice rang loud and clear through our minds. I kept my mind silent as did Embry. I looked at him and he shrugged, keeping his eyes and thoughts from reaching me. The pain that erupted inside me as he showed the scenes from the part was excruciating. There were scenes of him and Kayla kissing, drinking, smoking, and other things I don't want to repeat, he was fourteen he shouldn't be doing that! I heard Embry growl at Collin and I just sat there feeling numb. I saw Collin run through the trees looking happy until he saw me, his thoughts automatically switched to other things.

Embry nervously scratched his ear with his paw.

'Ella's running with us.' He stated plainly

'Why, her patrol already ended she…' He was interrupted by someone else phasing, Leah.

'Oh' Was all she thought when she noticed I was there. 'What's going on there?' she asked, just then she burst through the trees and into the clearing to see me practically cowering behind Embry while Collin thought things through. I let some of my thoughts, (Collin's memories) leak out of my mind, and I heard her yelp.

'Collin' she scolded running towards me, she stopped directly in front of me. 'She's running with me.' She stated with an air of authority, I reluctantly came out from behind Embry and she took off running with me closely behind.

'That jerk!' she yelled in her mind 'One of the lucky ones to imprint throws it all away for a girl who dresses in tight skimpy clothes and will…' Her thoughts trailed off, realizing that I was still there.

'I'm sorry' she thought quietly. We didn't communicate very often other than that. My thoughts wandered countless times, than something disturbed my peace. There was a sickly sweet smell, than Leah bared her teeth.

'Vampire' she spat in her mind, Embry and the others were running towards us, but it was to late, a male vampire with short brown hair and pale skin jumped out of the trees and smiled at us.

"Hello Lean and Ella." I started to panic, how did he know our names?

'Mind reader' Leah thought, layering on the despise for the vampire.

"Yes, very good Leah." Than the boy laughed, he looked fairly young when he was changed, around my age maybe…14.

"Yes, I was fairly young when I was changed, last year right after my fourteenth birthday." After he said that he lunged directly at Leah while she was momentarily distracted. She was struggling against him but it was no use, Embry was running as fast as he could but he was still a few minutes away, why was he so far out?

I made a snap decision, I lunged at the vampire and knocked him off of Leah, I could see her from here, she wasn't moving but I could hear her heart.

'If he bites you, you'll die. Vampire venom is poisoeness to us.' She thought calmly, he grabbed me and threw me to the trees across the clearing into a large grouping of trees. He was already running towards me, but Embry had just entered the clearing. I watched from the ground as Embry knocked the vampire in the other direction. The others quickly started to rip apart the vampire, Brady phased and started a fire quicker than I thought possible. After the vampire was ripped and burned they turned their attention to Leah and I.

'Both of you phase and get dressed, we'll carry you back to Emily's' Embry said quietly in our minds. The second they left to phase as well I phased and pulled in Emily's clothes that I had stuffed near a tree. The boys came back and I realized that Collin was no longer with them. I was about to ask but Leah beat me to it.

"Where is Collin?" She asked through clenched teeth,

"He phased into a human after you took Ella…he went…out with Kayla again." Leah snarled, but I barley registered it, my heart felt shattered, and there was something pulling me towards the east. The second we arrived at Emily's, Sam burst through the door, his calm demeanor gone.

"What happened?" he asked as his hands slightly trembled.

"Vampire, but he's dead now. He attacked the girls." Embry replied, Sam looked us all over. I noticed his eyes lingered on Leah's broken body a little longer than the rest of us. It's understandable, her thoughts were about him and what they had, she was sad, but happy that Emily found someone.

"Where's Collin?" he asked,

"Gone." I replied quickly, looking towards the forest,

"Take them inside, I'll be right back." Sam said before walking into the forest. Then I heard the most demanding howl, I even had trouble resisting phasing to go and report to the alpha's orders. Emily looked us over and placed Leah and I on two dark brown couches. Than about five minutes later Sam came in with every other pack member behind him, even Collin. Their eyes widened when they saw Leah and I.

"What happened?" Riley asked, his dark hazel eyes glinted in the light. I looked down to see the bones in my legs were disfigured. I looked over at Leah, she was worse than I was, I'm going to leave it at that. I glared at Collin as I spoke,

"Vampire, he could read minds. He attacked Leah and I while we were patrolling the area. He attacked Leah and I tried to knock him off of her so he turned his attention to me. He plowed me into a clump of trees, than Embry came with the others to help." I dropped my gaze and looked through the windows to the forest again.

"How many wolves were on patrol with you?" Riley asked,

"We were short one wolf." Emily had told me I wasn't allowed to move or walk for at least six hours maybe more, and that she would have Dr. Cullen come and reset my bones, oh and guess what. He's a vampire, yay! Not. I laid down on the couch, gasping in pain whenever I moved either of my legs.

"Whatever though, the vampire is dead, and we only have…MAJOR INJURIES so it doesn't matter that Collin went off to make-out with his girlfriend." I said layering on my disgust. He looked at me, shocked, but I ignored him. He didn't deserve my attention anymore.