I will name you Gaara.
Sometimes I know I love you. Sometimes I not so sure, sometimes you don't mean anything to me; you're just this thing growing inside of me. Sometimes I just want to scream.
I will name you Gaara.
It's like you're a parasite trying to suck my life away. I scared, I don't want to die. I know it will hurt and I'm scared. It will be your fault. I will die because of you... I still can't bring myself to hate you. You are still my son. I hate your father...or at least I'd like to. I guess I can't bring myself to hate him either. I still love him even though he plans to kill me. I hate myself. I hate myself for not being good enough for my husband, the man I married. He has chosen this village over me. I wish it would burn. It's them I hate, those people who he values over my life. I don't think he'll even miss me.
I will name you Gaara.
Temari and Kankuro, my children, they'll miss me, at least Temari will. I think Kankuro is too young to remember properly, in time his memories will fade. He'll never forget me entirely though, I am sure of that. Even so I think my death will be hardest on Temari. For the moment they are happy, they excited, and they cannot wait for you to be born. They're looking forward to it; they don't know what your birth will mean. You will take away their mother. I don't think you deserve them; you should not be their brother. You are not their family, I am. I don't want to leave them because of you. I love them more than you. I wish it were different but you're going to kill me and I'm scared. I don't want to die.
I will name you Gaara.
I can't stand to see my brother anymore. I know my death will hurt him. You will hurt him, you will hurt my brother. I can't stand to see the looks he gives me, like his about to cry. He knows I'm going to die and it's killing him too. I feel like it's my fault because I don't want you to die either. I don't hate you enough to want you to just disappear. It feels like I'm choosing you over him and it hurts because I love Yashamaru more than anything. I know that I don't have a choice but if I did I don't think I could bring myself to kill you. I wish I hated you. It would make it easier.
I will name you Gaara.
I asked Yashamaru to look after you, to protect you. I hope he does. It will give him something to focus on. I don't want him to hurt anymore. It won't work though; you won't be able to heal his heart. I want him to love you though. It's strange that I want this, considering I don't want you to go anywhere near Temari and Kankuro. It's confusing but then nothing about this situation makes sense. I told Yashamaru I hated your father even though it wasn't true, not really. I wanted to give him a target, someone to blame for this. I don't want him to blame you.
I will name you Gaara.
I know the villagers will hate you, I hope you hate them back. They deserve it, as much as I detest it I am dying for them and they would spit on my sacrifice. They will call for your death. They'll go after you. You won't be safe.
I will name you Gaara.
Will you be like him, like your father, terrible, cold hearted and cruel…or me, weak, trusting and pathetic? I'm not sure which is worse. I hope you're like your father, it will make you stronger. I'm not worried though, I doubt you'll be like me. You won't even be human. You'll be a demon in human skin. Your father will make you into a monster and I wish I could hate you. You won't be alone though, they are all monsters, your father, the villagers, everyone. They'll want you dead but you are stronger than they are. You are a real demon and you will survive. Kill them before they kill you, remove the threat, only then can you exist.
It doesn't matter if I love you or not because I'll be dead soon, I just know I don't hate you.
I will name you Gaara, the demon who only loves himself.
Kill them all.