Prompt: 039 – Reminisce
Pairing: Remus -centric
Length: 324
Of all participants in the war Remus felt he had lost the most without exception – not even Severus. Many men and women had lost their freedom, hundreds more had lost one or two irreplaceable friends or family yet they still had others left to comfort them. Remus had nobody he truly felt a deep connection with left.
His family, bless them, had long since faded into the mist of distant but his friends had meant the world to him – even Pettigrew to a point. They made every day bearable and were a godsend when the moon rose to defy his humanity each month. He missed them with every inch of his being. There would not and could not be any replacements for what had so cruelly been snatched from his weary grasp. The way they could all just sit around for hours enjoying each other's company in complete relaxation with the entertainment of watching Lily send every charm and hex she knew at James and Sirius was pure bliss. They were all understood within their little group, were never shunned, and for that Remus would be eternally grateful. On the day Lily, James and Peter had been reported dead seemingly at the hands of Sirius a part of Remus had died that day; he had never recovered. Even years later when he finally discovered the truth and was re-united with a friend he had thought lost to him the tears in the wolf's heart still gaped open as fresh as the moment they were ripped open. He barely blinked when Sirius was lost to him again.
It was a sigh of relief that was the last action taken by Remus Lupin when the green flash of light whipped towards him. He would no longer have to battle through each day just to see the end with the ghosts of his past drifting alongside him. Perhaps, he smiled, it was finally time to let go.