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Previously…

"Well, first off, he is really a she…"

Now…

JPOV

Bella smirked like she knew this would make everyone crazy.

We all knew the only she-wolf was Leah so no one was happy.

I was growling because I didn't want Bella to leave while everyone else just seemed more upset she was taking Leah with her.

Sam was the most upset. Something has been up with Sam ever since the night we found Bella at the warehouse. He hasn't been acting himself.

All of us see it we just don't know what's going on or how to approach him about it.

After ending her phone call Bella turned back to us took and took a deep breath.

She than yelled, "Will everyone shut up?"

Everyone for the most part did as they were told.

I was fighting my wolf to calm my growling.

I didn't want her to leave, I haven't even had a chance to explain my feelings yet.

Obviously she knows I imprinted on her but I don't think she realizes just how confusing this can all be.

One second you're looking at a complete stranger and the next you're irrevocably in love with that stranger.

It's a little fast and doesn't give you a chance to breathe. You are all of a sudden drowning in your own emotions, it's just crazy.

I definitely didn't want to pull a Sam and cheat on my girlfriend at the time. It wouldn't have been fair to either of them even if Kim was doing that to me already.

I wanted to space myself for a bit so I could slowly get to know her the way you should when you meet someone.

I thought maybe I could control at least a little bit of my life and have some sense of normalcy.

I know I said I was going to fight the imprint, but I was just lying to myself. I mean, seriously, who finds their soul mate and doesn't want them? I'd be insane to not want her.

Over the last couple of days every time I try to go apologize and talk to her I get cut off by Leah or the pack.

The pack isn't doing it intentionally but I have a feeling Leah is.

The other day when Bella came into the Clearwater's house all over Leah I didn't know what to do. I couldn't decide whether to be turned on or jealous.

I really did think I drove her to bat for the other team.

Thankfully though when Leah phased we saw they were just messing with us, though Paul and Quil were disappointed.

I went at it with them for the images they conjured up about my Bella. I don't think even the worlds most flexible gymnast could pull off some of the moves they imagined.

Anyway, back to the present.

Sam had decided to talk through his consistent growls.

"Leah, I am alpha ordering you to stay. You are not to leave La Push."

Oh man, we all knew that wasn't going to roll over too well. Leah hates it when he orders her to do anything, especially something that's not necessary.

We all know Sam still loves Leah; it's just more of a sisterly thing now. At least it was until recently. I'm not saying he's in love with her because we all know how he feels about Emily; it's just lately he has been acting, well, different like I said.

Leah growled at our alpha while Bella giggled. There was something off about her giggle though. It was more sadistic and crazed.

I remember her talking to the leeches about her being this Izzy now and they seemed worried. Not so much for her but for everyone else's safety. I wonder what is going on with her.

"Sammy Sammy Sammy, why is it you don't want Lee to come with me?" Why does she call her Lee?

"We will be back and she'll be doing what she was made to do, take out leeches." She sneered the word 'Leeches' and looked right at me.

"You should've just stayed in Italy leech-lover." I can't believe I said that to her. I flinched with the memory. She looked so heartbroken. I will never be able to forget the look on her face that night.

She turned back to Sam and slowly stalked her way to him. She placed a hand on his upper thigh and started whispering in his ear.

I didn't hear a word she said because I was too busy growling. My imprint was touching my alpha in an intimate way and worse than that everyone could smell his arousal.

My growls continued to get louder. Bella glanced at me and squeezed Sam's thigh one more time before walking over toward me.

I couldn't take my eyes off her and as she got closer my growls slowly subdued.

She ran her hand sensually up my arm and across my shoulders. I couldn't stop the shudder of pleasure at being touched by my imprint.

"Jared, baby, why are you growling so much? I do believe you are the one who rejected me, not the other way around. Now be a good boy and let mama have her fun."

She was talking to me like one would a child. She even pinched my cheeks and patted my head.

God, that was degrading.

She started to walk away but I couldn't just let her turn away from me. I don't care that we have an audience I need to talk to her.

I grabbed her wrist and spun her towards me. "Bella, wait I…" she growled and cut me off before I could finish.

"Bella is dead. She is gone and not coming back. No one wanted that pitiful excuse for a woman. She couldn't even keep her supposed soul mate. She won't be coming back and I like it that way. Now let go of me before I make you. Although, I might enjoy forcing you to let me go."

I can't believe she just said all that. What have I done? I destroyed my mate.

I don't deserve her or any kind of happiness. I am a monster in its truest form.

I dropped her wrist quickly; I didn't deserve to have any physical contact with her.

I hung my head down and whispered so low she shouldn't have been able to hear. "I'm sorry, and I do want you."

Her head snapped back to me. How the hell did she hear that?

"What did you just say? You're sorry? You said you're sorry?"

Her voice was full of venom and you could see the air around her shimmer.

All of a sudden I was wrapped in what I assumed was her shield and dragged over to her. I was forced to kneel down in front of her so I just hung my head in shame.

I deserve whatever she does to me.

I could faintly hear everyone yelling and crying and begging her to let me go but I just couldn't find it in me to care.

I guess she had another shield around us.

I somehow knew that even though she was really angry with me that she wouldn't actually hurt me. In fact I think she would actually protect me with her life. I could just feel it.

Sam was trying to alpha order Leah to attack Bella but thankfully it wasn't working. I don't know how but Leah was no longer affected by the alpha orders.

"So Jared, explain to me why you decide that now all of a sudden you are sorry and you want me? Is it because you are scared? I smell your fear Jared I know you are afraid. So is this you trying to save your own ass in some pathetic attempt at pleasing me?"

Bella was shaking and if I didn't know any better I would say she was about to phase. I didn't respond right away which made her even angrier.

"Answer me damn it!"

I felt a tightening around my neck and my head was forced up to look at her.

I was embarrassed because now she would see me crying. I couldn't control the tears that streaked down my face.

She gasped and took a step back from me which made me feel worse.

She didn't even want to stand close to me.

Leah was now next to her holding her hand, comforting her the way I should be.

I took a deep breathe before I responded.

"I'm not scared of you, I'm scared for you. I'm scared I turned you into this and I know you don't really want to be this cold all the time. I'm scared I really lost you before I even had you. I'm scared that when you leave I won't be able to protect you the way I should. I've already killed part of you myself and I'm scared you finally see how undeserving I am of you. I've wanted you from the beginning, I broke up with my girlfriend the day after I met you but I didn't want to push everything. I just," I sighed not knowing how to finish, "I was stupid and I'm sorry."

Suddenly the shield holding me up disappeared and I fell to the ground.

I didn't have it in me to move. I was trying to control the sobs that were trying to break free.

I missed most of what Leah had said but heard the tail end of her telling Bella that if she lets me in I won't mess up again.

I just stared dumbfounded at my pack sister, the bitter-when-it-comes-to-imprinting bitch. She just did something nice, for me.

I was beyond shocked. I turned to Bella who was now kneeling next to me with that sweet beautiful smile on her place holding her hand out to me.

I was so happy it took me a minute but I finally reached for her hand.

Just as I touched her and felt that beautiful spark of electricity, she was attacked from the side by a blur of midnight black fur.

I growled as I watched her get sent a good twenty feet. I quickly phased and went to attack my former friend. Bring it Alpha.

A/N Alrighty, leaning more towards good Sam with the votes! I'll probably take down the poll tonight or tomorrow so I can post the next chapter! Thanks for all the reviews, I love it!