Logan woke up with an all too familiar pair of emerald eyes while he brushed sleep from his own and started too wiped off dry tears; the events of last night were still very real.
"Fuck Kendall," Logan could hear Jennifer start, "What the hell did you do this time? Rabid Ex, Christian Daddy, what?"
"Look Jen, I-," Kendall tried to reply before being cut off.
"At the moment, we aren't on a level where you can simply call me, 'Jen'; I'm Jennifer to you right now," she said with her arms across her chest.
"I, I made a mistake, that was all," he defended when he saw Logan's eyes open slightly, "Kisses, are you alright?"
"Shut up Ass," Stephanie stated, still under the brunette, "you don't get to keep doing this."
"Yeah," Jennifer joined in, "Stephanie's right; ever since you got here this type of shit's been happening a lot."
"Look, I don't give a damn what you two think, I'm worried about him," he pointed to Logan, who was still waking up slowly, "Up yet Coco."
Logan looked away, not sure what was going on still; he knew that something was wrong in the message, but this was beyond confusion for him. Why was Kendall back and looking after him if the night before, he'd sworn that they'd never see each other again? "Kendall," Logan said back hesitantly, "why are you here?"
He could read the sting on the blonde's face when Kendall responded, "I'm here for you beautiful; I'm here to tell you the truth." Logan was still so confused and muddled in thought before the blonde continued, "That message last night, it was all a lie. I tried to slip any kind of hint I could into it, but I guess I didn't do good enough cause you're here all torn up on the couch. Look Logie, you know how much you mean to me. I, I, I like you, a lot and I would never in this life time leave you. It killed me to say that word for word, but I had my reasons. Look, it's not safe for anyone to know about us; people could try," he couldn't quite get it out, "they could hurt you, and that's my biggest fear."
"That's bullshit and you know it," Jennifer shouted into Kendall's face to Logan's surprise.
"Fuck off Jennifer, you aren't involved."
"Um, yes I am, I've been involved from the start and the moment you broke Logan's heart the first time, I knew that you weren't good for him. So I am going to do what I should have done from the start; get out Kendall, get out and never come back. The only one hurting Logan is you."
Logan starred forward blankly while the events unfolded around him. What exactly was he supposed to feel about all of it, his life was just too complicated right now. It was just a few months before that he could say that he was happy with his simple, narrow life, but of course, Kendall fucked that up too. And nothing made Logan happier than the fact that the blonde ruined that dream. But at the moment, he was lost for words and when he saw Kendall shouting at him to answer; he simply stared forward to not have to endure any more pain. And when he saw the flurry of blonde hair storm out of the house and the door lock, he felt his heart get taken with him. And without his heart, he simply refused to live any longer.
Kendall had a feeling it would all end like that; as soon as he walked in and saw Logan in shambles, he knew that he had fucked up big time, but it wasn't his fault. And he wasn't going to give up the best thing to ever happen to him, so instead of going permanently like the girls had demanded, he rode to that familiar convenient store to do something that could never be changed. He quickly bought a throw away phone and put ten minutes on it and then he grabbed a camera for good measure. To convince Logan to go along with this ever, he'd have to have incentive. Finally, after an hour of working on the thing and getting everything ready, he typed the familiar number in and was greeted by something that made him smile.
"Hi," Logan chimed, "May I ask who's calling; this is a private number."
"I don't know which is prettier today, the water, the sky, or you," Kendall said into the phone with his eyes closed, imagining the brunette that was on his mind night-and-day.
"Ken-," immediately the blonde could hear the smile in his voice when he had cut himself off, "You, you know you aren't supposed to call. You know that. And how did we not recognize your number."
"Iboughtanewphone," Kendall said out as fast as he could cause he was desperate to tell the brunette what he needed, "but that's not the point; point is this. Jo swore to hurt you if I didn't leave and, and I can't leave you and I can't let her hurt you. So, I need to get you away from here, where she can never find you again. You can't stay where you are, so I need you to pack everything that's essential to you and be ready for me at eleven tonight. Got it, eleven, because I have a big surprise for you."
"Ka – Don't you think you're over reacting; I'm the mentally unstable one, remember."
"Look Coco, just do it, I know it doesn't make since now, but give it time and you'll see. Just be ready, because I think you'll love what we're gonna do."
"Okay, if you insist," he could hear the pause from across the line, "but am I ever coming back."
Kendall knew that this wasn't an easy question to answer honestly because it was the most irrational part of all, but he did it anyway, "No. " and with that, he hung the phone up so that he didn't accidently say the l-word yet. He had very different intentions of when he was going to say that to a conscious Logan. He wasn't going to screw this up again. But he had a lot of time so he ran to the car to go fuck around town till eleven that night.
After going to go pick up Logan's big surprise, he was startled when his own phone started to ring.
"Kendall Austin Knight," his father's voice boomed over the line, "what is this I hear about you not coming to the church grill off tomorrow."
"Sir," Kendall instantly regretted the text he sent his dead that he couldn't come.
"Don't Sir me son, you know how important it is for you to be here. You don't have to come for long; I just need you to show up so I can show off my family for a bit. You can go back to the ward and help some more, but this church, not the patients, should be priority one."
"But,"
"No buts,"
"I need to speak though."
"We can speak tomorrow. And if you aren't there, I'll send Jo out to get you from the home you're at, so choose wisely."
"I'll see you tomorrow Dad," Kendall said with a scowl. It meant they'd have to go to the picnic tomorrow and see Jo before they finally left. Forever. But all he wanted was to leave right now.
"You as well, You as well." The Pastor said, clicking the office phone back into place before turning back into his office. He had his own intentions if the sick boy he was, with, showed up with him there.
Logan was nervous about what Kendall had told him, but for some weird reason, he trusted the blonde boy. And now, he apparently trusted him with his life, because he knew what happened if a patient ever tried to run away from here. They'd be put into permanent housing, and not the nice permanent housing, but the cold housing of the mental ward in a hospital. Of course, it wasn't really permanent, but it was at least thirty-five times harder to escape there than where he was now could ever be.
But there was something about Kendall that could get him to drop everything he had and was just to be next to him. Logan guessed that it was the sense of safety, but he knew the real reason, but the real reason was still an unspeakable one. He loved Kendall Knight. He loved every strand of tissue; every fiber that made up the teen that could turn him into a puddle of confusion. Who took him to the very edge and then pulled him back just as soon, just to get him into an embrace. And Logan enjoyed it. He enjoyed every moment of it, but this would be different. And while he was contemplating it all, the alarm clock by his bed began to steadily ring. Eleven O'clock sharp.
Immediately, he grabbed the mesh blue bag and the folder with his pictures and tip-toed down the stairs before putting his keys on top of his letter to Jennifer. He was honest with her in it, telling her that he didn't know where he would end up, but he knew that she would be upset, yet it was worth it if he just got to be with Kendall. Because living with Kendall happily ever after would get him over any fears, even this one, and so he raced out of the house, shutting the door as quietly as possible to the black car he could still remember from their first true night together. But the mood was completely different this time, even if Kendall was leaning on the hood like before and smiling. And then he heard the snap and the flash.
"Did it hurt when you fell?" Kendall asked with a grin while putting the camera down next to his side. Logan had a feeling it was one of his cutesy jokes, but at the moment, he was looking at the new camera.
"You Got me a new Camera!" Logan responded ecstatically as he scooped it out of Kendall's hands.
"Yeah, but you didn't answer."
"Okay, I don't know, why it would hurt," Logan replied while snapping a picture of nothing in general.
Kendall smiled again, "Cause heavens along way up Coco," and he pulled a blushing Logan closer for them both to escape the cold. "Are you ready to go?"
"Yeah, I'm ready; I'm ready to be with you for the rest of time."
"You know as soon as we leave, we can never come back right."
"Yeah."
"Don't you think we're crazy for doing this then" Kendall reasoned out to Logan, which the brunette found bizarre.
"Kendall, I'm crazy in the first place," the petite teen replied jokingly, snuggling into Kendall's strong chest against the biting wind.
"Well, I'm crazy for you," the blonde responded, "That's why I did this." He pulled two tickets out of his back jean pocket and put them up the Brunette's face and he felt his heart skip a beat when he saw Logan's face. He almost dropped the camera.
"No way," Logan responded, the smile on his face turning him into a Cheshire, "No way at all."
"You mean 'No Doubt'," Kendall responded smirking.
"I mean GWEN STEFANI!" Logan shouted a little too loudly, forcing Kendall to jump, "sorry," he added quickly.
"Well, I remember how much you told me you love her, and," Kendall was just happy to see Logan act like this, "And I knew that I had to do this for you. They're in town for one nights only and I had a little money left over to get us okay seats, but we have to go now if we don't want to miss them."
"Wait, it doesn't start till eleven?"
"Well, the opening act started at ten, so I'm figuring she doesn't start till eleven," Kendall responded, opening the brunette's door for him.
"You know Kendall, you aren't supposed to go to concerts like that," Logan pointed out, still smiling, "You're supposed to enjoy the whole thing."
"I kinda figured I could be your opening act," Kendall said, gripping Logan's face lightly and kissing him on the lips gently. "Was that a good performance?"
"Yeah, but I think we could do a little better," Logan said as he slinked across the seat to right in front of Kendall's face and smashed their lips together.
Immediately, Kendall started to have flash backs of the camp while the smaller boy wrapped his arms around his neck. It felt a little like the first time. But, this kiss was entirely different than that other time. It was even deeper and Logan was even more invested, with the smaller boy slightly thrusting himself into it all. And instinctively, the blonde took lead, pulling Logan in and tasting his lips, but it wasn't enough. So, he slipped his tongue into the other boy's mouth and immediately, it felt right. And then when Logan started to do the same and they collided, it was breath taking. Yeah, Kendall had done this lots of times, but something about the brunette made him feel like it was his first time. was that quality of innocence and vulnerability that made it so different. With Logan, he was forced to be gentle, and with that, he learned what true passion was, and it was fucking amazing. But after a long time, he knew he'd have to go up for breath and though it seemed like a pained ending, they separated from each other.
"That was … Incedible," Logan said, still trying to catch his breath after something like that, "that was *breath* the perfect show opener."
"Yeah, it was, wasn't it," the blonde replied, putting his foot on the pedal and speeding out of the tiny driveway, "But then again, you could open anything perfectly." Logan blushed before they sped off, past the big gate and out into the big city and for the first time in a very long, long time, Logan felt normal.
Author's Note: The Concert thing is actually important, but you'll see why on friday; I din't just throw it in there because I love Gwen Stefani. Not at all. I know, I've jumped the shark already, but I felt it's necessary for this story. But we have five more chapters, so bear with me and just accept some of the insanity of it all. After all, it's about a crazy boy. I hope you guys enjoy the ending because the big death is coming up. Maybe it's soon, maybe it's the very end, but its gonna happen. Would that make it be a Big Time Death? Anyways, review and tell me how you feel because I love to know. Your reviews honestly mean a lot to me. A frickin lot. So just do it. Sorry for the pressure, So I'll just say keep up your awesomeness and be you. Luv ya. XoXo