Okay, so I know I left you with a little cliffhanger last time but I hope it will be worth it! I'm really sorry it took me almost 2 weeks to get this chapter up but you know it's that time of year when everyone is busy! Between work at the hospital and life itself I don't know whether I'm coming or going lately! That plus we have had a shitload of snow this week and I'm still trying to dig myself out of the blizzard! 14 inches really!
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She turned back around as the song came to an end. Just then Chad Kroger, the lead singer, smiled and started to talk to the audience. I swear to god I think I saw him look at Bella and wink. I really didn't want to get arrested for kicking his ass tonight!
"Well, I hope everyone's having a great time tonight." he said as the crowd cheered. "Well, we have a little surprise for all of you guys. You see a good friend of mine was in town and we don't get to see each other all that often so he decided to drop by tonight. I asked him if he would mind doing a song or two with us. I hope you all don't mind." Everyone in the crowd looked at the stage just waiting to see who it could be.
"Ladies and Gentleman please give it up for….." I could see Bella tensing up next to me in anticipation.
BPOV
"Ladies and Gentleman please give it up for Chris Daughtry." Chad said.
HOLY SHIT! I think I'm going to piss my pants! How in the hell has my luck changed! First my boyfriend and I have mind blowing orgasmic sex this morning. Then he takes me to a spa to get totally and completely pampered. Then he takes me to dinner at the Seahawks fucking stadium and not only that but he has a table set up on the 50 yard line. Then he takes me to see Nickelback and now of all people Mr. Sexy (who should have won American Idol) is literally standing feet in front of me about to sing. Can life get any better than this? I think not!
"Bella, honey? Are you okay?" Edward asked me as he was wrapping his warm arms around me and kissing my neck.
"Uh, Uh" was all I could stammer out. Okay maybe it could get better!
Edward started laughing at me. "Breathe honey." he said.
Uh, yeah like it's that easy. All of a sudden the band started playing 'No Surprise'. OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD!
"I've practiced this for hours gone round and round." Chris' sweet voice rang out. The crowd was screaming!
I couldn't believe this. I reached down and grabbed Edward's hand. He was looking at me with the biggest smile on his face. I started singing along with the song. I looked back up at the stage and just got lost in the song. It seemed to be over all too soon though. Then he started so sing 'Life After You'.
Edward leaned down and sang to me as Chris was singing and I can honestly say that I would rather have Edward sing to me everyday of the week than Chris. God I must be in love. Because a couple of weeks ago I would have given anything to have Chris Daughtry sing to me.
"I'm ten miles from town and I just broke down. Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road. I'm out here alone. Just trying to get home. To tell you I was wrong but you already know. Believe me I won't stop for nothin'. To see you so I've started runnin'.
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter. As long as I'm laughing with you. And I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after. After the life we've been through. 'Cause I know there's no life after you. "
I didn't even know if I was breathing at this point. Edward was singing to me and that's all that mattered!
" The last time we talked, the night that I walked. Burns like an iron in the back of my mind. I must've been high to say you and I weren't meant to be and just wasting my time. Oh, why did I ever doubt you? You know I would die here without you.
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter. As long as I'm laughing with you. And I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after. After the life we've been through. 'Cause I know there's no life after you. "
He kept singing and I was lucky his arms were wrapped so tightly around me or I would have melted right then and there. I couldn't believe that this man with his magical voice never sang in front of anyone.
"You and I right or wrong, there's no other one. After this time spent on. It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind. Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been out of my mind. So I'm runnin' back to tell you.
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter. Without ya God know's what I'd do, yeah. All that I'm after is a life full of laughter. As long as I'm laughing with you. And I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after. After the life we've been through. 'Cause I know there's no life after you."
Edward pressed his lips to mine and I knew at this moment that I could never ever love another man.
Chris and Chad sang a couple more songs together and then Chris took his leave from the stage. I was thankful that I had my phone handy and I took a ton of pictures. There was no way that Leah was going to believe this. Nickelback sang several more of their songs from their various albums and Edward and I had the best time ever. We continued to sing and dance with each other. I don't think I had sat back down in my seat since before the concert started. We had a few more beers and I think I was starting to feel a little tipsy. I was now very thankful that Edward had the foresight to hire a limo so we wouldn't have to drive tonight.
The concert came to an end and we started to make our way back towards the parking lot. As we were leaving through the special entrance for the VIP section I stopped dead in my tracks. Right there in front of me was Chris Daughtry himself. I couldn't make my legs work. I was sure that someone else must have seen him but there didn't seem to be anyone around him except for some security people.
Edward saw me stop and looked in the direction that I was staring. "Come on Bella. Let's get you an autograph." He had a very determined look on his face.
"Edward, we can't just walk up to him." I said but I was trying not to listen to my voice of reason. I just wanted to run up to him and tell him he was a rock god! I am so pathetic. I'm starting to sound like a little teenager.
Edward took me by the hand and walked towards where Chris was standing. "Excuse me Mr. Daughtry." I heard Edward say. Always the gentleman. "I'm really sorry to bother you but my girlfriend is a huge fan of yours and has been for quite some time and we were wondering if it wouldn't be too much trouble if we could get your autograph." I don't exactly know what happened next, but the security people didn't even care that Edward had approached Chris.
"Of course you can." Chris said. "Who should I make it out too?" he was asking me.
"B..Bel…Bella." I stuttered out.
Chris kind of chuckled in my direction. Great he's going to think I'm some sort of mental spaz or something. "Tell you what, do you have a camera?" he asked.
"Uh, yeah." I said.
"Why don't we get a picture real quick." he suggested.
I got my camera phone back out and the security guards were nice enough to take a picture of Edward and I with Chris Daughtry and then Edward insisted that I get a picture of just me and Chris. Chris then asked one of the security guys for something and the next thing I new I had a Daughtry t-shirt that Chris was signing the back of for me. Just for me! I think I want to frame this thing!
How did I get so lucky! Edward and I thanked Chris and started to leave the concert and head back to the limo.
"Oh my god I have got to be dreaming." I stated.
"And why do you think you are dreaming my love?" Edward asked me.
"Because there is no way that this can all be real. And I don't just mean the fact that I met my all time favorite singer." I stammered out. I really didn't believe all that had happened to me over the last couple of weeks. I had met the most amazing man that has become such a huge part of my life and I didn't know how I could ever live without him. I knew that I would never want to live without him. But did he feel the same way? I was so afraid to find out. I didn't want to push things on him too quickly and have him run away from me screaming.
We had stopped walking and were standing holding hands and waiting for the limo to pull up when Edward turned towards me and bent down to kiss me on the lips. I relished in this simple kiss from him. He truly was an amazing man.
"Thank you Edward. For everything." I told him.
"My pleasure Bella. Always my pleasure." he said.
"Edward?" I wanted to tell him how much he means to me but I wasn't sure where to start.
"Yes Bella?" he was starting to look a little concerned and his brow was starting to pucker.
I reached up and smoothed the lines away from his forehead and he began to soften with my touch. "Edward you have come to mean so much to me in such a short period of time and I don't know how I've made it through my life without you for so long. Thank you for all that you have done for me and continue to do. I really don't know how I managed to get through life before I met you." I smiled up at him.
"Bella, life didn't exist before I met you. I was an empty shell moving through my days. You are the sun that brightens my existence. I cannot and will not ever live without you again. You're it for me. I will never love anyone else ever again!" he said.
"You're it for me too. I cannot imagine being without you or waking up without you next to me." I told him with all honesty.
"Bella, I kind of have something I want to ask you but I'm not sure if it's too soon." he said.
"What is it sweetheart?" I replied with my heart hammering in my chest.
"Well, you know that we haven't spent a night apart since we started seeing each other. And I really don't know if I could ever spend a night away from you again. You are the most beautiful, loving, caring woman I have ever met and I know it's really soon, but would you consider moving in with me?" he asked looking into my eyes. His eyes looked really hopeful. I can't believe he really wants me as much as I want him.
"Edward, are you sure? I don't want to intrude on your space." I told him.
"Bella, if I wasn't sure I wouldn't have asked. Please, please move in with me." he said again.
I smiled up at him and then reached up on my toes to kiss him. I wound one hand around his neck and let my other hand drift into his hair. He wrapped his arms around my midsection and deepened our kiss. "Edward, I would love to live with you!" I said pulling away for just a moment before he crashed our faces back together. He had his tongue in my mouth massaging mine when we heard a coughing noise behind us.
"Excuse me. I'm sorry to interrupt." Paul said. "I just thought I would let you know that we are ready to head out whenever you are Mr. Cullen."
"We're ready Paul. Please take us home." Edward said with a smile.
We got into the limo and we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. I know what we had done in the limo, or actually what I had done in the limo, on the way to the concert but I was pretty sure that we couldn't go too far before the driver would suspect what was going on back here. We continued to kiss and grope each other until we were pulling up outside of our apartment building. The door opened up and Edward stepped out. As soon as he was out he held out his hand for me. I took it and climbed out myself only to be swooped up into Edward's arms as soon as my feet had touched the ground.
"Edward Cullen, what are you doing?" I asked him.
"I'm taking my roommate home to bed." he said with an evil little grin.
"I really like the sound of that." I told him. He hurried us to the elevator and never did set me back on the ground. At least there was no one else in there with us. That would have been a little embarrassing. We got to his floor and he stepped out and started walking to his door. We hadn't stopped kissing since we left the elevator and I was shocked that he was able to make his way to the apartment and get his keys out and open the door all without breaking the kiss. God this man was talented!
Edward turned around and shut and locked the door and then pulled his head back from mine. We were both breathless and panting like crazy. "Are you ready to go to our bedroom my love?" he asked me.
"Always!" I told him.
He carried me into his bedroom, well I guess it's now our bedroom, and we made love until the sun came up and then fell asleep in each other's arms. I made sure to set the alarm before we fell asleep so that we could get up in time to go to work.
EPOV
I was having the most amazing dream. Bella and I were walking along the beach. She was in a beautiful blue strapless sundress and was holding her sandals in one hand and my hand in the other. Her hair was cascading down her back and she was laughing and smiling as we strolled down the secluded beach. We had stopped a few times to kiss and hold each other and then when the sun was starting to set we sat down and watched the sunset together. Then I laid down beside her on the beach and we made love. It was such a wonderful dream and it felt so real. As I lay there with her on the beach I took her hand in mine and I saw something sparkling up at me. Right there on her left hand she had a beautiful diamond ring glistening in the moonlight. Then right next to it was a wedding band. I smiled down at her and brought my lips to hers once more.
Then I woke up. When I looked down at my chest I saw Bella sprawled out on top of me with her hair fanned out all around her. She was absolutely gorgeous. I looked down at her left hand that was laying on my stomach and picked it up. I brought it to my lips and kissed her ring finger. After last night there was no doubt in my mind that I would be putting a ring on that finger as soon as she would let me.
I was thrilled that she said yes to moving in with me. I wasn't sure quite what came over me when I asked her last night. It truly wasn't my intention to ask her so soon but I just couldn't help myself. When she started to confess her feelings for me I just couldn't stop myself. I had to have her with me as much as humanly possible and I couldn't stand the thought of ever sleeping without her again so I asked and she accepted.
Just as I was about to kiss her hand that would someday hold my ring the alarm went off. Bella swung her hand out of my grasp and slapped the alarm clock.
"It can't possibly be time to get up already. I swear we've only been asleep for a couple of hours." she said sleepily and burying her face back into my chest.
"Actually my love, you have been asleep for approximately 10 hours now. It's 4 pm and we are going to have to go to work in a few hours. How would you like breakfast in bed?" I asked her.
"I would love breakfast in bed." she said with a smile on her face. "That means that I don't have to get out of bed for a little while yet. Although that does mean that I am going to loose my pillow so maybe I don't want it."
"You have to eat my dear to keep up your strength if you are going to continue to do the things to me that you did to me last night. God knows I'm going to need my strength." I said with a chuckle.
"Okay, okay." she finally caved.
I kissed her on the cheek and climbed out of bed. I walked over to the dresser and pulled out a pair of my pajama pants. I swear I heard her whimper from behind me. When I turned around she had this devilish little grin on her face.
"Everything okay my dear?" I asked her.
"Yes honey. I was just enjoying the view." she smirked at me.
I smiled back and walked into the kitchen to start breakfast. Technically it was almost dinner time but with our goofy hours for work this was pretty much breakfast time when we got up. As I started making scrambled eggs, bacon and toast I let my mind drift. I started to think about my dream again. Would Bella say yes if I asked her to marry me? I hoped that she would. I know this was really, really fast but I know that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her and I wanted to start the rest of my life with her right now. I know that we will be going to Port Angeles and Forks next weekend and I was going to meet her father for the first time. Jake and Leah seemed to like me enough so hopefully they put in a good word for me. God knows I don't need to be showing up at Chief Swan's door announcing that I have shacked up with his daughter and oh by the way may I ask for your daughter's hand in marriage?
Boy that sounded corny but I really wanted his approval. I know that it is the right thing to do. Maybe I should take Jasper with us. He always seems to have this calming effect on people.
I finished up with breakfast and set it all on a tray with a two cups of orange juice and made my way back into the bedroom. It wasn't my bedroom anymore it was now our bedroom and I felt a little kid with how giddy that made me.
"What are you smiling at?" Bella asked from the bed. I noticed that she had grabbed the pajama top that matched my bottoms and put it on while I was gone.
"Nothing sweety. I just love seeing you in my clothes. It's kinda sexy!" I smirked at her.
"Don't start what you don't intend to finish." she told me. "Besides I'm starving and my boyfriend/roommate told me he was bringing me breakfast in bed."
I walked over and set the tray down in front of her and then climbed in bed with her. We cuddled up together and took turns feeding each other breakfast. Then I turned on the tv and we decided to watch a few reruns before we actually had to get up and take showers and head to work.
The day started out like any other day at work. I had a few people that came into the ER with chest pain and a few people that had flu like symptoms. Nothing too exciting. I was working with Lauren and Jessica tonight. Working with one of them was bad enough but the both of them together was horrendous. I was really wishing that Ben would at least be here as a buffer between them and me but I was in for no such luck tonight. The good news was that since we were busy that meant they were too and I didn't have to listen to them carry on and on about how we should hang out.
I have never found either one of them interesting and had never even considered taking either one of them out on a date. They just couldn't take a hint.
I know that Bella and I would eventually have to tell people that we were living together and I was all for it, but I understood Bella's reservations about it. She didn't want people to think bad of her but I really wanted everyone to know that she is mine. We were definitely going to have to have a talk about this soon!
I was then pulled from my thoughts when the receptionist told me that the ambulance was bringing in an overdose. I quickly pulled my thoughts together and got ready for them to come in. When the ER doors opened I directed them into the room that we had set up and waiting. I noticed that it was James and Victoria's rig. I sighed and hoped that they wouldn't stick around after this. Of course that is wishful thinking.
We started working on the young man that was brought in. He was somewhat conscious but seemed pretty doped up. I ordered a bunch of blood work on him and then asked Lauren to get everything ready so that we could pump his stomach.
Bella walked into the room a little while later and got her stuff ready so that she could draw his blood. She was definitely good at her job. She was in and out of that room in less than 5 minutes. She said that she would get the labs back to me stat and she smiled at me as she left the room. I smiled back and mouthed an 'I love you' to her before she turned and went back to the lab.
I had all of the patient's blood work back in less than half and hour and was able to decide that he would need to be shipped to a larger hospital. He had apparently overdosed on Acetaminophen and had done some pretty serious damage to his liver. This young man was in for quite a long recovery.
Just as I was about to walk down to the lab to see how Bella was and find out if she wanted to walk to the cafeteria with me I was told that there was a phone call for me. I went to the phone and picked it up. "Hello, Dr Cullen speaking." I said.
"Hello Edward, this is Dr. Andrews."
"Oh Hey, Jared. What's up? Shouldn't you be sleeping, your shift starts in a couple of hours." I told him.
"Yeah, about that, I've been up all night praying to the porcelain gods. I don't know for sure but I think I've got the flu. I'm not going to be able to make to cover my shift. I'm really sorry Edward. I've called Dr Sullivan and he will be coming in to cover for me but he won't be able to make it there until 11 o'clock. Can you cover until then?" he asked me.
I really didn't want to but I knew I didn't have a choice. That plus I knew he would do it for me. "Of course Jared. You just take care of yourself and get better soon." I told him.
"Thanks man! I owe you one. Uhh, I better go now. Bye Edw…" was all I heard except for something that sounded like someone puking in the background. I hung up the phone and grimaced at the thought.
Then I thought about Bella. I would just give her the keys to my car and have her drive it home after her shift and I would just catch a cab when I got done.
I walked down to the lab and as I got closer I saw James and Victoria lurking in the hallways. I had a very bad feeling about the two of them. They just seemed like they were always up to something and it never seemed like it was good. James just gave me a creepy smile as I walked past them and Victoria tried to smile at me and look sexy which just wasn't working for her.
I continued into the laboratory and noticed Bella standing in front of one of her analyzers and swaying her hips to the music she had been listening too. I noticed it was her Daughtry cd and I chuckled to myself. She hadn't noticed me yet so I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her stomach. She jumped up and luckily didn't fall over because of the hold that I had on her.
"Jumpy tonight my dear?" I asked her.
"No. I'm just not used to people walking back here at night. I thought I had a ghost in here." She laughed.
"Would a ghost be able to do this?" I asked her as my hand reached under her scrub top and up her smooth stomach. I had been aching to do this all night. I got to her bra and grabbed her firm tit. Her nipples were hard and I could tell that they wanted a little attention.
"Edward, what do you think you are doing?" she asked me.
"I'm copping a feel." I smirked.
She pushed my hand down and apparently just in time. I still had her wrapped up in my arms when I heard a coughing sound behind us. Shit!
I turned my head and saw Jessica standing there holding a urine specimen. "Well, Dr Cullen, there you are. We were wondering where you may have disappeared to. I see we're slumming it tonight huh?"
Who in the hell did this chick think she was. There was no way I was going to let her speak to Bella or about Bella like that. I couldn't care less what she said to me. I was just about to speak up when Bella said "Believe me Jessica if he was slumming it he would be sitting back down in the ER with you and Lauren. Instead he was stopping by the lab to see his GIRLFRIEND. Now if you don't mind you can leave that specimen right there on the counter and show yourself out." Jessica turned to leave but Bella had one more comment for her "Don't let the door hit you on the ass on your way out."
God I love this woman.
B.P.O.V.
The nerve of that bitch to say that to me. She didn't even know me. I really don't like her. It doesn't help that her name is the same as the bitch that is my ex-best friend. Thanks to her I'm going to probably be in a pissy mood for the rest of my shift. I was still fuming when I felt a warm pair of lips at the base of my neck and moving up towards my ear.
"Baby, that was hot." Edward whispered in my ear.
"Yeah, well she deserved it. I mean really what have I ever done to her. I barely know her and what right does she have to….." was all I could get out before Edward spun me around and had his lips pressed to mine.
He broke the kiss for just a moment and said "Calm down honey. Don't let her get to you. She is a bitch. Her and Lauren both. And now that the cat's out of the bag I'm sure she's down there telling Lauren right not about us which means that I can finally do this in front of people." And with that he kissed me again and deepened it. I felt his tongue slide over my lips and I parted them so his tongue could caress mine. We stayed like that for a few more minutes before we finally had to break away.
"You really need to stop doing that or I'm going to take you back to the doctor's lounge and have my way with you." I joked to him.
Edward started to grab my hand and lead me out of the lab when I stopped at him and laughed. "I'm only kidding." I told him.
He looked sad and started to pout. "But Bella?"
"No buts mister. We will have all morning to do this when we get home." I told him and he looked sad again. "Edward, what's wrong?"
"That is what I was coming here to talk to you about. Dr Andrews called in sick and I have to stick around until Dr Sullivan can come in at 11. I want you to take the Volvo home and I will catch a cab when I'm done." he said.
"You don't have to do that. I can set the alarm and come back and get you then we can go home together." I said. I knew it would be hard to get back up after only a few hours sleep but I was more than willing especially because I knew I would probably have a hard time sleeping without him sleeping next to me anyways.
"You will do no such thing. I want you to go home and get some rest because when I get home I plan to continue where we left off a moment ago." He said cocking his eyebrow at me.
"Okay, I'll stop by the ER before I leave to tell you goodbye." I told him.
"Alright love. I better get back down there now and check on my patients. I have to make sure I find the most disgusting job down there to assign to little Miss Jessica. I'm sure there are some bed pans that need to be emptied or something like that." he laughed.
"Okay honey. I'll see you in a little while." I told him and kissed him on the cheek before he walked back.
I finished up my work and the day shift people were starting to arrive to take over. I told them what was going on and made my way over to the lounge so that I could change my shoes and grab my purse out of my locker before heading home. Once I had gathered my things I made my way over to the ER to find Edward.
I stopped at the desk and saw a nice little old lady sitting there. "Excuse me. Is Dr. Cullen available?" I asked.
"Oh yes dear. You must be Bella. He told me you'd be stopping by. He's in his office just down the hall and to your right." she told me.
"Thank you." I said and started off towards Edward's office. As I was walking by I saw Jessica out of the corner of my eye on her hands and knees scrubbing a gurney. She looked up and saw me and looked completely and totally pissed. I smiled at her smugly before continuing on to Edward's office door. I knocked once and heard his voice on the other side.
"Come in." he said.
I opened the door and smiled at him. "Hey babe, I just came to get your keys." I told him.
He got up from behind his desk and walked towards me. "There in my pocket." He said with a smirk. I reached down into the pocket of his scrub pants and brushed his erection that was forming.
"Um, Edward. Do you have a lock on your office door?" I asked him with a blush.
"Uhhh, yeah." He said smirking.
"Can you lock it for me please." I asked trying to look all innocent.
He reached behind me and locked the door and as soon as I heard the click I grabbed the sides of his scrubs and forced them down his legs along with his boxers. I dropped down to my knees and grabbed his erection that was standing at full attention with my hands. I smiled up at Edward and then took his length into my mouth. I started to move my head back and forth faster and faster and I knew it wouldn't take him long. I had already dropped my purse to the floor and had his balls in one hand and the base of his cock in the other. Edward has his hands on my head and was helping to guide me.
"Uggh Bella, Oh Bella. I'm not gonna last much longer baby." he said. And with that I sucked a little harder and he spilled himself down my throat.
After he was pretty much soft I smiled up at him and released him from my mouth. I pulled his pants back up as I stood up and kissed him quickly on the lips.
"God I love you Bella." he said with a very tired look on his face.
"I know you do. But not nearly as much as I love you." I smiled back at him. "I better get going before they figure out what we're doing in here." I reached back into his pocket to grab his keys.
"Bella!" He warned.
"I'm not doing anything, just grabbing your keys." I told him.
"Do you want me to walk you out to the car?" he asked me.
"No Edward. I'll be fine. I'll see you when you get home today. I love you." I told him.
"Love you too babe." he said with a smile.
I left his office and continued out of the hospital. I noticed that the ambulance was still here. I didn't know why they would still be here because I thought they were transferring the patient who had overdosed but I just shrugged it off and figured that it may have been a different crew here now besides James and Victoria.
I had just gotten to the car when I felt someone grab my arm and spin me around. It happened so quickly that I didn't even realize who it was until I was trapped against Edward's car. Oh Shit was all I could think. Why me?
Dun, dun, dun, dun…..! Uh oh another cliffy! I know you are all going to kill me but if you are please review and let me know! I'm hoping that leaving it at this will get a few more people to tell me what they think! So who do you think it is? Is it James? Is it Victoria? Is it Lauren? Is it Jessica? Let me know who you would like it to be! Like I've said before the more reviews I have the faster I write! I'm at 218 and I would love to see 250! Show me the love and hit the little button at the bottom! You know you want to!
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