Sam's point of view:
I walked across the sand my eyes scanning for Embry. When I finally spotted him he was playing football with his friends and as we walked closer I noticed he wasn't wearing a shirt. I looked down at my feet suddenly feeling flustered and the blood rush to my face. Jeremy and I made our way over to where people who weren't playing football as they gathered around a large fire in the sand. I laid out a blanket I brought for myself a little way from the others but close enough to where I could still talk and hear them.
I watched the people most of who I didn't know. I noticed a girl about the same age as me. She was beautiful with light skin and long copper hair. Jacob sat with her and talked softly. I saw how Jacob would look at her with such love and it makes me want the same thing. After about thirty minutes Embry came and sat down by me.
"How come you are sitting way over here," he asked.
"I'm not sitting way over here," I said, "I just like being able to watch everyone anyway."
"If you say so," he said leaning back on his elbows.
I then noticed, again, that he was shirtless. I looked away not wanting to be caught looking at his broad shoulders. I swallowed at the thought of seeing his bare broad shoulders, chest and abs. Why was I thinking of my best friend this way I thought. I didn't get hung up on boys very often but now I had one that made me feel flustered. It was strange and something new. I decided to put the thoughts out of my mind as I watched the others enjoying the bonfire.
"Embry?" I asked quietly.
"Yeah," he said looking at me.
"Who is that woman with Jacob?" I asked.
"Oh that is Nessie," Embry said.
"Oh so that is the Nessie I've heard so much about," I said, "she is very pretty."
"She is," Embry said and I felt a pang of jealousy run through me.
We lapped into silence again as I looked away from the others and into the ocean.
"Sam are you alright?" he asked me.
I looked into his big brown eyes that had concern in them.
"Yeah I just was thinking," I said giving him a weak smile.
"You aren't feeling sick still are you," he asked me.
"A little tired but I'm feeling fine," I said honestly.
"Well let me know when you are ready to go home and I'll drive you home," he said.
"I will," I told him.
"Hey I'll be right back," Embry said.
"Alright," I said.
A few moments later I felt someone sit next to me again but this time it wasn't Embry.
"You're Sam right," Nessie asked me.
"Yes," I said quietly.
"I'm Nessie," she said sticking her hand out and I shook it, "So how is working at the shop?"
"I like it," I said, "Just as long as I don't have to do anything with working on the cars."
"I know the boys are glad that you came to work at the shop," she said, "especially Embry."
"Oh didn't know they felt that way," I said.
"We'll they mention it," she said, "but Embry always talks about you."
"Really?" I said feeling worried.
"Yes," she said smiling.
"Oh," I said looking at my feet.
We ended up talking about a few more things glad we were finished talking about Embry. After talking for a few moments Jacob approached us.
"Hey Sam," Jacob said, "Enjoying the bonfire?"
"Yes," I said craning my neck to look at his tall form.
"Good," he said smiling at me before turning to Nessie, "Go on a walk with me?"
"Sure," Nessie said smiling and then looking at me, "It was nice talking to you Sam."
"You too," I said.
I watched Jacob pull Nessie up by the hand and once again I felt jealous of what they had with each other. I stood up wanting to have a moment to myself and I walked down the beach enjoying the feel of the cool feel of the sand under my feet. I looked out over the water as I stopped walking thinking about how Jacob looked at Nessie. I felt sad knowing that I wouldn't ever have something like that.
"Hey Sam," Embry said coming up beside me causing me to jump, "sorry I didn't mean to scare you."
"It's alright," I said.
"So where did you go," I asked.
"Oh I had to ask Jeremy something," he said.
I looked over the water again unsure of how to shake my feelings of loneliness as well as the strange feeling that I had towards Embry.
"What's wrong," Embry asked putting a hand on my shoulder.
"I just was thinking," I told him before hesitating, "Embry you are my friend right?"
"Yes," he said.
"Do you care about me?" I asked.
"Yes," he said.
"You are my best friend though right?" I asked.
"Of course," he said looking confused, "why wouldn't I be?"
"Just asking," I said my heart sinking knowing that he wouldn't be more than just my best friend, "and having some doubts about things."
"Oh right," he said, "well if you need my help with anything else."
"I'll let you know," I said smiling at him, "so what were you asking my brother about?"
"Oh nothing," he said, "just something to do with the shop."
"You all you boys talk about is the shop," I said shaking my head at him.
"What else would we talk about," Embry said smiling at me.
"I think I'm ready to go home," I told him.
"Alright I'll give you a ride," Embry said.
We walked to his car and silently rode home. When we got there he walked me to the front door.
"Did you enjoy tonight?" Embry asked as we reached the door.
"It was nice," I said, "you are lucky to have such close friends."
"I am," he agreed with me.
"Are you going to come over tomorrow?" I asked, it was starting to become our tradition for Embry to come over on Saturday mornings for breakfast.
"Yes and I wanted to ask you if you would like to go to Port Angela's with me?" he said, "You know since you are new and I'd like to show you around."
"That would be nice," I said.
I had heard plenty about Port Angela's but had never been there.
"I'll see you at breakfast tomorrow then," he said giving me a big smile.
He brushed his hand with mine as if he wanted to take it in his but then turned and walked to his truck. I waved after he got in and watched him drive away. I hugged myself as I walked into the house. Something was different in me and I wasn't sure what it was. I was happier now and I felt something else that I didn't recognize.
Embry and I were walking along the beach holding hands something that would have freaked me out normally but now it was something I really liked doing. Embry and I stopped walking and looked out over the ocean to watch the sun set. I felt Embry rap his arm around my waist and sunk into his side much like I had when I was sick several weeks ago. It felt so good to be held by him and I felt a warm feeling bubble up in my chest.
Embry then turned me in his arm and cupped my cheek gently. He slowly bent down and kissed me. At first I was shocked, my best friend was kissing me. I then gave myself into the feelings of the kiss. His lips were warm and gentle and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around his neck to pull him closer to me. I felt my lips move against his and I heard him moan. We broke the kiss breathing hard.
I then woke up breathing hard. There was no way I just dreamed that! I closed my eyes and tried to get back to sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about the dream the way his hands felt on my skin and how his lips connected with mine. I opened my eyes again to stare at the ceiling.
Where in the world had this dream come from? Embry was my best friend and we had been growing closer to each other for the last couple of weeks. I didn't think it would lead to something like this. Did this mean I liked him as more than just as a friend? I mean he was extremely good looking and was always there for me when I needed him. He was also my best friend, something that I wanted in a boyfriend or my future husband.
I thought about several nights ago where he held me when I was sick and fell asleep in his arms. It felt so nice to be in his arms and to wake up in them. I rapped my arms around myself and as I sunk into sleep wished that Embry was really there to hold me as I fell asleep.
The next morning I woke early determined not to think about the dream I had the night before. I showered and took more time getting ready than I usually do. I made a large breakfast knowing that Embry would be eating most of it anyway. Around his usual time he knocked on the door and for some reason I felt nervous about opening it.
I opened the door to find a smiling Embry there. I swallowed nervously as I let him in.
"It smells good in here," he said grinning.
"Well good because I cooked enough for an army," I told him.
We sat down and ate in silence and I found that ignoring the dream that I had was easier than I thought it would be. I could focus on our friendship, something that was easy and normal. We finished breakfast, did the dishes, and got into Embry's car to ride to Port Angela's.
"So what are we going to do in Port Angela's?" I asked Embry.
"Well we are going to go to one of my favorite restaurants and to a book store I think you'll like," he said.
"Oh that sounds nice," I said.
We then talked the whole way to the Port Angela's smiling when we got to the bookstore. As much as I loved living in La Push there wasn't much of a bookstore there. I ended up spending an hour there before Embry forced me to look around at the other stores in the area. Around noon we went to a small diner.
"Thank you for taking me here," I said quietly after we finished our meal.
"I'm glad you like it," he said stretching and I couldn't help but ogle at him as his t-shirt moved over his body, "What?" he asked after he noticed my staring.
"Nothing," I said looking away quickly.
When I looked back he was smiling at me as if he knew he caught me looking.
"Are you ready to go?" I asked.
"Sure," he said, "Do you want to go to the movies?"
"That would be nice," I said since we didn't get to go see movies very often.
We walked down to the theater and got tickets to a romantic movie that I wanted to see.
"I have no idea how you can eat so much," I said shaking my head at Embry as he ordered popcorn and candy from the snack bar.
"It's like you haven't seen me eat before," he said smiling at me.
"I don't think I could ever get over how much you eat," I said smiling at him.
We walked into the theater and sat down in our seats. The room went dark and I realized how close Embry and I were sitting next to each other. I so badly wanted to reach out and put my hand into his large one and part of me was hoping that he would reach out and take my hand. Another part of me was terrified that he would.
"Sam?" I heard him whisper half way through the movie.
"Yes?" I said looking at him.
His eyes were dark and there was something there that sort of reminded me of the way Jacob looked at Nessie.
"Can I hold your hand?" he asked.
"Yes," I found myself saying.
As soon as my hand was in his all of my doubts and fears ran away. I loved having my hand in his and it felt I was going to fly away. What was I so afraid of? I thought. Throughout the movie I grinned like a fool as he held my hand and I felt his thumb caress the back of my hand. After the movie finished we exited the theater holding hands. It felt amazing that we were holding hands.
"I had a good time today," I said to Embry on our way home.
I worked up my bravery and put my hand in his and he grinned at me.
"I did too," he said giving my hand a squeeze.
We rode in silence both enjoying each other's company. All too soon we rolled into La Push and to my house. Even though Embry and I spent all day together I didn't want to leave him. As soon as we stopped Embry hopped out of the car and opened the car door for me. I hesitated and Embry noticed.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"I just…" and stopped unsure if I should be honest or not.
"What's wrong Sam?" he asked.
"I just don't want you to leave yet," I told him honestly looking down at my hands.
"I don't have to go anywhere if you don't want me to," he said lifting my chin up.
"Alright," I said smiling weakly.
He looked over my face and his eyes focused on my lips. He looked back up at my eyes briefly before focusing on my lips again. As he started to lean in I started to panic as I realized what he was about to do.
"Embry I'm not ready for that yet," I said and he stopped.
He looked disappointed and I felt guilty.
"I'm sorry," he said.
"No it's ok," I said, "you didn't know."
"I really like you Sam," he said, "and I'll wait until you are ready for that."
"Thank you," I told him.
"Anytime," he said giving me a warm smile.
"Come in the house," I told him, "I've made some pie yesterday."
"Sounds great," he said.
We walked into the house holding hands again excited and a little scared to start something with Embry. I then thought about the way that Jacob looked at Nessie and a small part of me hoped that Embry would look at me the same way.
Tell me what you think, not too crazy about it myself…