Rain.

It was a curious substance rain and it came in so many different forms. Big, small, sharp, soft. So many one could list them, but for some including Castiel rain held an extremely close and significance to him. Every year without fail Castiel would stand in the rain, allowing it to drench him completely as he sort of the closeness of his Mother, and each year of her passing the rain had never failed to fall no matter where he was. Some of course would argue it was due to the Geographical locations but to Castiel it was a sign. It was the one time he could get full closeness to her even if it was only for a few hours or sometimes days. He opened his eyes allowing the sounds and smells to consume him; his lips trembled as his tears mixed with the rain. He lifted his arm in the hopes of finally being able to touch her. "Cas? What are you doing?" Gabriel stood on the porch he ignored his Brother, again closing his eyes just for a brief moments before answering. "Mother died and was buried while it was raining."

11 Years Previous

Castiel watched as his Mother's casket was finally lowered into ground, he stood between his Brothers Gabriel and Raphael a small sound escaping him as he looked for support. Raphael stared down at him his eyes ringed red before turning his attention back to his Mother's burial. Gabriel sensed his Youngest Brother's distress and pulled him to his side a hand on his shoulder while Castiel burrowed into his warm jacket.

It seemed like an age until they finally returned Home his Father had not once said a word to any of his sons and soon locked himself in his Study with Michael at his heel. Raphael, Gabriel and Castiel waited in the Family Room. "Has Dad said anything to you?" Gabriel asked in a hushed voice as a single voice raised and echoed throughout the house. Castiel flinched as he heard his name mentioned and hid his face in Gabriel's side, tears dampening the fabric. "Why is Father so angry?" not much made sense of Castiel, he wanted his Mother. He wanted her warmth and comfort only she could bring. "Do not be a fool Castiel! He blames you for her death." Raphael's words came out cruel and cold as Gabriel made a sound of disgust. "Don't be a idiot Raphael, nothing is his fault."

A door swung open as his Father appeared, a bottle in one hand and Michael trying his best to hold him back. "I want that Abomination dead! He is the Devil! The Devil!" Gabriel shielded Castiel from their Father's drunken gaze. "He is possessed!"

"Michael! Do something would you!" Gabriel yelled as their Father broke from Michael's grasped and advanced forward grabbing Gabriel by the front of his shirt. "Why do you protect that Abomination? He killed your Mother!" Gabriel never once flinched, as he stood strong. "Because he's my Brother and I love him which is more that can be said for you! Now take your hands off me before you make me really mad." Their Father sneered throwing the bottle into the fireplace, the flames reacting violently with the alcohol. "You can't protect him forever Gabriel!"

"Well I sure as hell can try! And if it means taking him away from this Hellhole than I will! Mark my word on that old man!"

He felt Gabriel's hand on his shoulder bringing him back from the past; they stood together in the rain. "It's a shame I couldn't do what I promised." Castiel could do nothing by shrug. "It was not your fault Gabriel, I do not blame you for leaving." His Older Brother wrapped an arm around Castiel's shoulder; very similarly to the day their Mother was buried. "Yeah but I broke that promise." Castiel rested his head against Gabriel's side contemplating his next question. "Why did you leave and not take you with me?" it was not until now that Castiel finally asked one question that needed a time and a place. "The week Mom died I got accepted into a College with some connections and help from her. She had always wanted one of her children to go to College, and after what happened that night I made the decision that if I was going to be able to care for you I needed to further my Education and earn money. I only wanted the best for you and when I left I regretted that decision throughout my entire years at College." Castiel's turned his head towards the house as warmth bloomed in his chest. "But I wanted you to come somewhere, where you would be able to be cared for emotionally, physically and financially. It's just a shame it took so long."

Once they had moved into the warmth of house Gabriel set about making Dinner, a common method he used to distract himself for a short period of time. "I never did ask how things were going with Dean." Whether he was trying to make conversation, Castiel face flushed bright red as memories of the Shower Room filled his brain. Gabriel sat down as Castiel picked up his glass of water while Gabriel noting the blush and tried his best to keep his face serious. "Oh I see it's like that is it? I hope you're being safe." Castiel half inhaled the water and spat it out in shock of his Brother's words. "W-w-w-we have not…!" he tried to find the words ones he had managed came out in a garbled mess. "Oh, you haven't gotten that far. Okay fair enough I don't condemn any of the acts I would however prefer you were of age to be honest." Castiel's face turned several shades of red at Gabriel comment. "Oh don't be such a prude Cas! It's normal to have these conversations, now when you do get down to doing the dirty make sure you are protected." Castiel had the sudden urge to either melt in a pool of embarrassment under the table or run upstairs. "And make sure you're not forced in to anything. You want to enjoy your first time." Castiel stared at his Brother his eyes wide. "Could we please not talk about this?"

"Hey I'm just trying to help but it's about time someone had the sex talk with you."

If it was possible for the person to die of embarrassment Castiel knew he would have and for some reason Gabriel enjoyed the idea of embarrassing him. "Must be a sibling thing…" he murmured as he sat outside, the rain had stopped briefly, leaving the scent of musky outside dampness it was sweet and clean, he sent a silent prayers of apologises to his Mother if she had witnessed the torture Gabriel had put him through with explanation about sex and what could come with it. He cringed slightly not particularly sure whether he even wanted to know but according to Gabriel it was necessary to be aware of it. "Hey Cas." His heart jumped a reaction he had become accustomed to whenever he heard his voice. Dean stood in front of him, hair slightly damp from being caught in the rain, Dean's head turned at Castiel flushed appearance while kneeling in front of him. "You're not sick are you?" Castiel shook his head avoiding Dean's eyes out of habit, the last thing he needed was to have to explain his last conversation with his Brother. "N-n-no." he mentally cursed his stutter. Dean caught Castiel's jaw between his fingers, his thumb gently stroking his jawline. "What's happened?"

He slowly licked his lips and closed his eyes only briefly. "It is embarrassing." He opened his eyes as Dean smiled softly like he was remembering something. "Gabrielsextalk." The whole sentence came out in one single breath as his face flushed crimson at having to speak out loud about it. "What?"

Cas took a single deep breath wanting to hide his face. "Gabriel insisted on 'having the sex talk'." He air quoted as Dean's eyebrows raised in realisation. "Oh, I see. Well it had to happen at some point I guess."

When Castiel noticed a darkening in the sky he stood as went back into the house, Dean following up to his room. He wanted to maintain the privacy aspect of their relationship as he closed the door with a snap. Dean sat on his bed as Castiel kept his distance. "Cas everyone has 'the talk' believe me it's not the most pleasant experience." He held out his hand indicating for Cas to take it, when he finally did Dean pulled him down as they lay side by side. Dean stroking Castiel's hand and fingers. "You thought talking to your Brother about it was bad, you should've seen what happened when Bobby decided to have 'the talk' with me." Castiel tried his best to find the humorous side but failed. "So I take it your Brother knows about us?" Cas nodded while biting his lip completely unsure of how Dean would react. "Yes he guessed, we have been a part for so long he is just a little over protective sometimes." He half expected Dean to get up and walk out but instead he turned his head kissing Castiel on the jaw. "If it helps I reckon Sammy knows, he may be young but he's sharp nothing gets passed that kid." Dean mused on the thought before turning his attention back to Castiel jaw and neck, but something still bothered Castiel he just was not sure how to bring it up. "And about the sex thing Cas, I'll wait until you're ready. So don't panic."

A/N: Gabriel... BEST. BIG. BROTHER. EVER! FACT!