Disclaimer: I own nothing but unrecognizable characters and plot line. Though if Joss would be willing to lend me Spike I wouldn't be object.

A/N: Takes place after "Not Fade Away." Just assume Buffy's crew got to LA in time to help stop the apocalypse, and save Wesley. Spike and Wes followed the Scoobies back to England to work on building the new council. Spike Shansued-human with strengths and married Buffy. Dawn is studying to become a watcher and Wesley is doing the mentor thing because Giles is to busy with being head councilman. I think that about somes up what you need to know for now. Enjoy nichbuket

Prologue

Being alone sucks. Everyone knows this. Everyone also knows how annoying it is to have two people who are obviously in love with each other prance around in front of you all day reminding you of just how alone you are.

Don't get me wrong I love my sister and Spike more than anything in the world, and I'm happy that they finally get a chance to really be together. It's just that, well, I feel like I'm doomed to repeat my sister's mistakes when it comes to romance. Yah, sure Spike is a great guy, but first there was Brad who just stopped calling, Pike who left, Owen and Scott are hardly worth mentioning, Angel who went evil then turned good and left, Parker was the one night stand, Riley who left, and finally the Immortal, Mort. He was with Buffy just to get at Angel and Spike. So you see her track record blows.

It seems mine is following suit. The first boy I went out with ended up being a vampire, who wanted to turn me. I staked him. Once Buffy and I settled down in Rome, I met Vincenzo. He seemed generally sweet, at least until he found out that I wouldn't put out. Giovanni was next. We were in the same chem. class together. Vanni probably lasted the longest out of all my would be boyfriends. He was amazing. Than came his introduction into the other world. When he said he could handle the demons and magic I fell even harder for him. Unfortunately learning that I'm a mystical key who's technically only been alive for four years was too much to handle. Since we've moved to England I've pretty much ruled out dating.

"Dawn. Wesley's here!" Buffy shouted

"Be right down!" Dawn replied grabbing her bag.

Wesley smiled at Dawn as she came down the stairs. "All ready then?"

Dawn smile. "Yep. All set for the learn'n. What will it be today? Archaic demonic languages perhaps?"

"But you've already mastered them all, my dear," Wesley said shaking his head.

"Maybe, but it never hurts to practice," Dawn replied walking out the door.

"No. No, it doesn't," Wesley followed her out.

I don't understand why it seems so hard. All I want is a kind, caring, mature, guy who wont freak out when he learns about who my family and me really are. I want a guy to treat me as great as Spike does Buffy.