Castiel tried to process what exactly had happened so much was going through his mind, Dean's mouth the hot wetness all over his body like he was placing his mark on him. An invisible mark that only he knew about. "Cas, your gonna have to look at me at some point." He was curled underneath his duvet his head underneath the pillow, what could one possibly say in that kind of situation, Dean fingers slid across the bare flesh when he pulled back the cover. "There's nothing to be embarrassed about." Castiel tried to respond as he face flooded with heat again. "When you're in a relationship you tend to try and help out your partner when they're stressed." At those words Castiel sat up placing the pillow on his lap. He sat naked his skin damp and clinging on to the scent of Dean. "A relationship?" Dean's eyebrows shot up at his words. "Yeah a relationship, what did you think this is the same thing I had with Lisa?" honestly Castiel had rarely thought about it, of course Gabriel had hinted on the subject many times. "Lisa was just sex Cas, we were lonely and needed a release. Than I met up and everything changed." His face heated up at Dean's blunt honesty as he bit his lip. "I-I would not know what to do in a relationship."
Dean stroked Castiel's flushed cheeks. "Don't worry you've been doing pretty well."
His mouth opened and closed several times not sure what to say as he thought back at the amount of time they had spent together. "We'll take it slow one step at a time, that seems to be working for us right?" he resisted the urge to hid under his duvet again as more redness spread across his face. "And Cas I can assure you we'll burn the embarrassment out of you, that I can guarantee." The look in Dean's eyes finalised the promise as he soon felt the need to cover up trying to hide his body as much as possible he reached for the nearest clothes, pulling them on hastily. When he looked back at Dean, he almost looked disappointed to see the pale skin being covered. "The clothing or lack of ratio is a bit unfair." He nodded to Dean who was still wearing his jacket. "If you wanted me to strip all you had to do was ask Cas." His face yet again flushed red, as Dean took off his jacket and boots. "Are you going to be okay?" Castiel waited for Dean to reply as he settled himself on the bed again. "What do you mean?" Cas stood as Jimmy started making a racket from being ignored to long, he opened the door picking up the cat before sitting on the bed stroking the fur. He cleared his throat and indicted towards Dean's jeans. "Ah I'll be fine Cas, don't you worry your face is practically burnt into my brain gives me something to think about later."
"Raphael have you found them yet?" Raphael was at yet another bus station in the possible areas Castiel may have used for a route. "Not yet Father but I believe he maybe in the Kansas area, a woman was able to positively identify him but they have no record of any transactions under his name since he had paid by cash." His Father made a disgruntled sound. "Search the Kansas area if you need too, every town. Don't fail me now Raphael."
Unaware of what was happening many miles away, Castiel slept deeply in Dean's arms with Jimmy between them. For once he had no niggling feeling of doubt or worry of what could possibly be going on…
Downstairs Gabriel sat in the dark the phone glued to his ear. "What do you mean?" he listened to the other person for a moment. "How long has it been going on for?" the feeling of dread filled his body as his feelings where finally confirmed. "Is it possible he may know where we are?" he ran his fingers through his hair. "No, no it's fine thank you Joshua for ringing me. If you hear anything else keep me updated okay. There has to be a way of making sure Raphael doesn't find us."
Lisa tapped her fingers against her chin thoughtfully as she entered yet another number into her phone, she had underestimated how many people were out there truly were in America with the name 'Novak' but Pontiac, Illinois was the place she had found information about the Freak's family. As the phone rang she had half expected yet another answer machine. "Raphael, have you found him yet?" her breath caught in her throat. She knew he had a Brother called Raphael since it was in the paper online "No, but is this Lucas Novak?" she was waiting for another to put the phone down but instead she got a different attitude. "It is. Who might I ask whose calling?"
"You don't need to know that Mr. Novak but I have information about your sons Castiel and Gabriel and I know where they are as well."
It was later on in the day as Castiel sat in Church he had not been for a while and felt a little guilt. He had asked if Gabriel would have like to join him but surprisingly Gabriel had said no. "You seem lost my Son." He jumped as the local priest sat beside him. "I am fine Father, I just came here to catch up."
Castiel and the Priest sat in silence. "Father, do you think God discriminates between whom you can and cannot love?" the Priest stared at him curiously. "Why do you ask?" Castiel shrugged his shoulder not wanting to go into much detail. "I am just wondering, call it curiosity. But can God truly control who the heart desires?"
"Desire is a powerful feeling the only person who can object or accept is you my son. Although that question can only be answered by the person who asked it."
Castiel felt like he was spilt in two, one side knew he had the desire for Dean. He cared… could almost say loved Dean yet the side which his Father had drummed into his brain for most his childhood and teenage years spoke of punishment for breaking the commandments of God. That side overpowered him. Would God punish him and Dean for their relationships? Would it be impossible for God to accept and let Castiel live his life free from fear and worry?
A conflict of interest part of him feared the repercussions of his actions yet he remembered Gabriel's words: This God should be accepting you for your choices because in the end you're still His creation but instead of following His rules you're making up your own and following your heart."
A/N: I'm sort of branching out different plots and twists but I thought it would be interesting bringing back Castiel's Faith because in a way he still believes in God ish... Kinda not like proper full on.
Enjoy and tell me your thoughts :) and oh yes... Lisa is still a... Super Freak, she's a Super Freak. That hasn't changed at all!