Dean sat in the front seat of the Impala mentally crossing his fingers in the hopes all the hard work he had put in would finally get the engine to turn over. "Now or never." He said softly under his breath as he turned the key, the engine spluttered several times before dying. "Son of a bitch!" he got out slamming the door in frustration, he leaned his head on the roof his eyes squeezed shut. "Umm Dean? Are you okay?"

"Yeah Sammy I'm fine," he glanced at the small clock inside the car. "Go back to bed." Sam made a small sound as he turned to see his Little Brother sitting stubbornly on the step. "It's difficult to sleep when you're shouting obscenities at your car. So what's the problem?" Dean moved around the Garage picking up random objects in the hopes they would distract him. "It's got something to do with Cas right?" just hearing the name made his heart clench. "Sammy, not for nothing but it's none of your business. Would you please go to bed?"

"Oh so it does have something to do with Cas." He turned to glare at his Little Brother whose arms were crossed and he waited. "Okay yes it does, now will you stop being such a smart ass and go to bed now?" Sam shook his head his eyes unblinking. "Not until you tell me what's up."

Dean picked up a cloth wiping his hands as he sat next to his Brother. "What have you heard about Cas?" Sam scratched his head for a moment. "Only stuff that he was beaten up in December, a bit of stoner and there's a rumour going around he got wasted at school."

"So all the bad stuff right?" Sam nodded as he opened his mouth to butt in before Dean could speak. "But I know he's a nice person so I don't listen to what people whisper about, I don't like gossip."

"Fair enough, so well me and Cas… we've been seeing each other." Sam's eyes narrowed. "As in 'seeing' or 'seeing'." Dean snorted in disbelief at his Brother emphasis on the same word. "There's a difference?" Sam clicked his tongue. "Yep, seeing is like… what you and Lisa had. Seeing is serious dating."

"Sam you know that's not healthy for a guy to know that right?" Sam bottom lip jutted out insulted. "Don't be a jerk so which is it?"

"Seeing. And it's pretty serious." Dean watched as his Brother took the information in. "So you're gay now?"

Dean's eyebrows shot up as he heard the one word he had never considered. "I don't really know because I've never felt anything for a guy before. It's only Cas and probably will always be. I can't really imagine being with another guy."

"So Bi than?" he poked Sam in the ribs at his flippant use of labels. "Oi, don't label okay. That just makes it more complicated."

"Okay touchy, touchy. Carry on what happened next?" Dean rubbed his temples as a pounding took place. "Cas admitted he loves me but he's worried about God's punishment I don't really know since I don't really believe in the Guy." Sam made a thoughtful sound as Dean carried on. "We've sorta been avoiding each other whenever I go round to his. He's never in and I went to talk to Jo about him and he saw me in town with her."

"Is that why Lisa came around to tell you?" a dark presence emanated from Sam at the use of his ex. "Yeah I panicked when she said he was leaving Lawrence, but I haven't heard anything since I went round."

There was a tense silence as the Brothers sat side by side neither not to sure what to say. "Well… do you feel the same for Cas as he does for you?" he could only nod. "Easy solution Dean, go tell him that before it's too late."

Castiel sighed for the hundredth time as he watched the rain fall on the floor, for the first time he found it less than soothing but just down right depressing. He had been depressed since Lisa had told him that once someone expressed their love to Dean Winchester he wanted nothing to do with them, Gabriel had pushed him several times to talk to Dean about it but his pride had not let him. Instead he was furious that Dean had only made one attempt to speak about the subject. He had found himself going to the Church on a regular basis seeking the words of comfort from the Priest. He listened to Castiel inner anguish and like Gabriel advised to speak with Dean directly.

"Sometimes Castiel, you have to put aside your pride and hold out the olive branch."

"I understand that Father but I am afraid I might not hear what I want." The Priest patted his back. "That's what love is Castiel, you have to expect the unexpected."

"Expect the unexpected?" part of him wanted to think cynically about the phrase but as usual the Priest had a point as well as Gabriel. He stared for a moment in the general direction of Dean's house. Part of his yearned to speak to Dean, the other was still angry at Dean's lack of effort even though they had both been periodically avoiding each other and of course the last little part of him whispered: Stop arguing and just do it! You love the guy go for it! He ran his fingers through his hair his eyes squeezed shut as the personas clashed with their opinions. Yes. No. Do it! Pissed. Angry! How on earth could one person cope with all the emotions? "Hi Cas."

Standing in the rain was Dean his hair flat and clothes sticking to him like a second skin. "W-what are you doing here?" he resisted the urge to run and hug Dean just to feel the comfort; he knew that body would give him. "We need to talk." Castiel stepped out in the rain until only steps separated them. "Is it true?" Cas asked Dean his voice deeper than normal. "Is it true that when someone admits their love you lose interest?" his lips twitched as he waited for an answer, Dean cleared his throat his brow furrowed. "In the past yes."

Castiel forced the tears back this is what he had feared. "So you do not want me because I love you?" Dean held up his hands as Castiel moved back, extending the distance. "Cas if you let me explain. Look don't cry okay just-just-." He grabbed Cas by the shoulder holding him in place. "I've never… I've never cared about someone like I do for you, a girl admits she loves me and you know what that means to me?" he touched Castiel face gently, his thumbs stroking his cheekbones. "Commitment, the thought of being tied down scares the living crap out of me but when you said you loved me I felt different." Dean's eyes grew hot. "And I panicked." Dean stared into the watery blue depths of Castiel's eyes. "I panicked because I didn't know how to handle those feelings and it probably didn't help that Lisa was shit stirring." Castiel had yet to say anything as Dean felt on edge. "Cas please say something." Castiel remained silent as he moved back sitting on the wet step his tears mixing with the rain. "You son of a bitch." Dean was taken aback by Castiel's language since he rarely ever swore. "Do you have any idea what I thought when I saw you and Jo together?" he stood up grabbing Dean by his jacket. "It felt like my heart had been torn out, I felt like an idiot I had stupidly admitted my feelings for you. And there you were with a girl." His grip tightened feeling the wet fabric crease under his fingers. "If Lisa had not involved herself would you have ever come to me?" he saw his answer in Dean's eyes as he turned to leave only to be held back. "Dean! Let go of me!" Dean's arms tightened around him. "No, only if you'll let me explain." Cas fought against the restraints of Dean's arms. "I don't want to know you asshole!"

"What the heck is going on out here?" Gabriel appeared as he saw the two boys, his Brother trying his best to escape and Dean struggled to calm Cas down. At the sight of Gabriel, Dean released Castiel who stormed past him leaving a trail of puddles and footprints up to his room. A loud slam shook the house. "I think it's about time you accept the invitation Dean."

A/N: Jeez Castiel has a bit of a potty mouth when he's pissed off... Aww it's adorable :D

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