Disclaimer: I own nothing not the show and not the music.
Warnings: Mentions of Rape and self harm, and some pretty strong language.
Chapter 11
"Britt, please say something"
"Santana I have no idea what to say. I've been dreaming of hearing you say something like that for a year now. The only thing I can think to say right now is, is this real life? Did I pass out and am I now having a very realistic dream?"
"Damn Britt, you scared me for a second. I thought I had dreamt of you saying all those things three weeks ago and made myself sound like a fool right now."
"I still can't believe you heard me say all that. I'd be embarrassed if it hadn't made you say everything you just did right now which I also can't believe. Wow, San, I still don't know what else to say."
"How bout we figure out what to do next? I mean what do we do now?"
"Would it be completely weird of me to just go straight to asking if you would be my girlfriend?"
"I think it would be appropriate I mean we have already confessed our love for one another. We are going backwards anyway. I think its okay for us to skip that awkward dating phase." She laughed and then looked serious. "Whats wrong?"
"I feel like I owe you an explanation as to why I didn't tell you sooner."
"Britt you don't have to if you don't want to."
"No, I want to. Look I know that the Glee Club and our parents would be fine with it, but what about everyone else? We don't live in the most accepting town. People can be cruel. Look at what Kurt has to go through and what Sof went through. I know you're strong enough to handle all of that but I don't think I am."
"Brittany you cant let other people get in the way of what you want. Besides, we only have four more months in this shit hole. Then we will hardly get a second look walking down the street together."
"See Santana this is just one of the many reasons I love you. Given any situation you know exactly what to say."
"Yeah well I am pretty awesome." We both laughed
"And ever so modest. Come on lets go back to the party, It's rude to not attend you own birthday party."
"Yeah I should probably go make sure the kids aren't tearing apart my house." I was about to open the door when I felt her grab my wrist. I turned around and before I could ask what was wrong I felt her lips on mine.
When I was younger I thought seeing fireworks during a perfect kiss was a bunch of bull shit. But holy freaking shit thats only because I had never kissed her. She made every cliche come true, weak at the knees speechless, dizzy. All too soon it was over although it probably lasted a lot longer than it felt. I could do that all day. We pulled away and both stood in silence.
"Are you sure you want to go down stairs? We could just call it an early night?" I asked completely serious.
"As much as I would love to do that we have a party to attend. I wouldn't worry too much though. People are probably already passing out."
She was right when we went downstairs only Puck, Shay, Artie, and Quinn were still up. I turned down the music and they looked at us. Puck smiled knowingly and the others were too drunk to notice our hands intertwined.
"Hey where have you two been?" Quinn slurred.
"Britt drank a little too much so we were trying to sober her up a little." I looked around and everyone was on the floor of the family room. "Why did everyone sleep here? There are plenty of guest rooms, and where's Rach and Finn?"
"They took a guest room. As for everyone else they just kinda dropped. I don't think they had time to even register that they were tired before the fell asleep."
"Okay, well when you all get tired Sof and Ricky's rooms are open and the other guest bed down here. Nobody is allowed in the master bedroom my parents would find out and kill me."
"Actually I'm pretty tired right now where is the other guest bed?" Shay asked.
"Puck knows where its at. You two kids have fun now" I said with a smile. He just rolled his eyes. "And clean up any mess you leave" I shouted after them.
"Shut up Santana." The four of us left busted up laughing.
"Hey Santana, I was wondering um do you think you could help me lie down on the couch?"
"Yeah no problem Artz" Q and Britt started talking bout something as I wheeled Artie to the biggest couch.
"Just so you know I already know about you and Britt."
"What? How?"
"She told me that she liked you and I sort of noticed how you look at her. You two walking down the stairs looking like you did, I just kinda connected the dots."
"Oh, so you're okay with it right?"
"Oh yeah of course thats why I thought I'd let you know. Everyone in Glee Club will be fine with it just thought I'd use myself as an example."
"Yeah I figured. I wasn't actually worried about them. I just wanted to make sure you weren't mad since I know you kinda like her."
"Oh that? No I was never really that into her. I actually like Quinn, we were going to try to plan something so that we could both get our girls but we couldn't go through with it. I just like hanging out with her."
"Wow, you and Q? I'll see what I can do bout that."
"Really? Cool thanks Santana. And I think this is the part where I'm supposed to say, 'Don't hurt Brittany she's a great person' blah blah blah. but I know you'll be okay. You two really love each other." We both laughed and said goodnight.
"Hey Q where are you going to sleep?"
"I think I'll take Sof's room, 'night guys."
"Night Q"
"So, tired?"
"Not really but I can think of a way to occupy our time until we are."
This night will forever go down as my favorite party. Just cuddling with Brittany was better than anything I ever did with Puck or Sam.I also came up with the perfect way to both let her know how I felt and tell the Glee Club.
People cleared out pretty early this morning. It was just Quinn, Rach, Britt and me left. Everyone helped clean up so we only had to get rid of the trash now. None of us had hangovers but we were extremely tired.
I looked over at Britt and she shook her head answering my silent question. We had talked last night saying that we would tell Q and Rach together but I had a surprise for her in Glee Club.
"So Q, Rach, you know how you wanted to know who I was interested in?"
"You're gonna tell us?" Rachel practically squealed.
"Does that mean it worked out?"
"So they are in the Club?"
"I mean you guys could just sit there and guess if you want."
"No" "Just tell us"
"I think we should just tell them San" Britt said with a smile.
"Wait she knows?"
"Did she just say we?"
"What the hell?"
"Yeah she said we. Me and Britt are together now."
"I knew it! You two have been spending so much time together lately."
"Wait so when did this officially happen?"
"About 7 hours ago? Give or take."
"Wow, Surprising but it makes sense."
"I guess congratulations are in order."
"We are so happy for you two."
"So how exactly did it happen?"
We decided last night that we would tell them she helped me through some stuff but not get into specifics. They were extremely excited for us and I had never been more happy.
...
The next day in Glee Club, it was time for my surprise.
"Um Mr. Schue? I have something I would like to say."
"Okay the floor is yours."
"Well, first I have a song and then I'll fill you all in on what it means." I cued up Brad on the piano and started.
Hands over my head thinkin' what else could go wrong
Woulda stayed in bed, how could a day be so long
Never believe that things happen for a reason,
But how this turned out removed all my doubt so believe
That for you I'd do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through led me to you,
So I'd do it all over again
For you
At that point I went over to Britt and pulled her up front with me.
I missed the first train stood out in the rain all day
(little did I know)
When I caught the next train, there you were to sweep me away
Guess that's what I waited for
Never believed that things happen for a reason
But how this turned out removed all my doubt
So believe that for you I'd do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through led me to you so I'd do it all over again
Oh, who ever thought a day gone so wrong could turn out so lovely
Yea, I'm so glad I found you
Even though the day went so wrong, I wouldn't change a thing
Yea, yea
I'm a do it
Do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through led me to you
So I'd do it all over again
Do it all over again
I'd do it all over again
I'd do all over again for you
All I went through led me to you
So I'd do it all over again for you
Whoever thought a day gone so wrong could turn out so lovely
Whoever thought a day gone so wrong could turn out so lovely
Everyone started clapping but they also looked really confused.
"So obviously its not literal but its the meaning that I was going for. For those of you who still look like you just saw a dog stand and start teaching your math class, Britt and I are together now. The song kinda tells it how it is, I was going through some stuff but it all brought me to Britt."
"Well Santana that was nice. So now on to the lesson."
Me and Britt went back to our seats.
"That really was sweet San thank you. But I would never want you going through any of that again." She gave my hand a tight squeeze and I returned it.
"I would though Britt. For you I wouldn't change a thing. I know you would heal me every time too." I kissed her cheek and we tried to pay attention to what was happening in class. Never breaking our hands apart.
Okay I got bored and decided to just finish it. Sorry if it sucks. I would like to know what you think though so review please. Oh and the song is 'Again' by Bruno Mars.