There's Always been something about you

Chapter 2

Hide the truth

Mondays. Who likes them. I certainly don't.

First lesson of the day: Maths. And guess who sits next to me in maths? Kyle. I have to try and hide the truth. He can't find out. No one can.

Here he is now.

"Hey Cartman"

"Hey Kyle" I say, not looking at him.

"Dude? Is something up? I mean you haven't been acting yourself lately. I mean, you haven't called me a stupid Jew for weeks now." Kyle says.

"Nothing's up, Jew. I have been calling you a Jew, but you Jews are deaf which is why you haven't heard me." I lie.

"Then why not come and say it to my face?"

"I have, but like I said, you Jews are deaf. Go get a hearing aid, Jew"

"Fuck you, Cartman. I thought maybe, Just maybe you may have become a better person. But I should have known I would be wrong. You're a self centred arsehole Cartman, and nothing can change that. I hate you" He says coldly.

My heart shatters into a million pieces. He's said it a lot, I know, but this time it hurt. It hurt so bad I wanted to cry. Me, cry. I had to get out of there quick.

"I will go away then Jew, seeing as you hate me so much." I say, holding back tears.

"What? You can't just skip lesson Cartman!"

"Oh yeah? Well watch me then." I say as I walk out the classroom.

I lock myself in the boys toilets that hardly anyone comes to because of a rumour that spread round the school about getting HIV by just walking in here. What kind of crap is that?

I burst into tears as I shut the door. How can I go on like this. I love Kyle, although I hate to admit it.

But he hates me.

And I hate him.

And that's how it should be. But isn't.

" God, If you exist you'll help me with this won't you? I need Kyle to realize how I feel, but I want him to feel the same way back. Please god I'm begging you..."

I didn't hear the toilet door open

".. Please let Kyle love me back..."

"Cartman?"

I open my eyes, only to see Kyle's best friend, Stan, Standing in front of me, looking seriously confused.

"You..love Kyle..Cartman?" Stan slowly says, shocked at his new findings.

"N-No it's not like that!" I say quickly.

"You love Kyle?" Stan says faster this time, the news sinking in. He heads for the door.

I grab onto his foot. "NO STAN! YOU CAN'T TELL HIM! Please!" I cry.

"S-so it's true? But y-you hate Kyle though" Stan says quietly

"that's what I thought..." I say, tears spilling down my cheeks.

"Then... what happened?" he says, intrigued.

"Well...I don't really know. It just sort of happened.." I blurt out.

"I won't tell him for now." Stan says. He was secretly laughing inside. Cartman was gay, after years of making fun of them. AND he loved Kyle. It was shocking at first, but now that it had sunk in it was actually quite funny.

"Y-You won't?" I say surprised.

"no. But he needs to know eventually Cartman." He says, becoming serious. "I don't care if your gay, Cartman. But Kyle has the right to know." Stan says.

I sniff. "Thanks Stan.." I choke out, not believing I actually said thank you.

"um..I'll see you later I guess" Stan says

"I guess... " I say

Stan won't tell anyone, will he?