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"You nervous?" Sam asked as they waited backstage. Quinn was singing backup to Rachel's solo. It was a great song, Rachel and Quinn had a lot of talent.
"Not so much," Quinn replied, "I got over my fear of going into labor after a performance."
"You're going to be amazing," Sam told her, "You look beautiful." Quinn smiled at him and they hugged before she went onstage with Brittney to sing with Rachel.
What have I done
I wish I could run away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is, on my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
"Wow this song is really good," Mike said, "And Rachel wrote this?"
"No, Quinn did." Tina said.
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
To get it right
Can I start again
With my faith shaken
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
Quinn glanced to the wings to see if she could see Sam, but it was too dark.
But if I get stronger and wiser I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
"I guess we all know who it is about," Mercedes commented. The small group nodded. Sam was standing behind them and overheard their conversation. Quinn wrote this? About him? This isn't how he felt about her, she was always good enough. Was he being too hard on her? Sam loved Quinn that he knew, but he wasn't sure if he was ready to go there again with her yet.
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth
That sometimes life isn't fair
I'll send out a wish yeah I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see
How much I care!
Rachel belted out the last note and they took their cues to enter. Sam took his place next to Quinn and gave her a quick grin before they began singing. He knew she cared and he needed to tell her that. After throwing the slushes of confetti into the audience after the last song Sam put his arm around Quinn and held her to him. As they listened to the applause he kissed her on the head and she turned and grinned at him. Rachel was hugging Finn who was closer to her then Puck, but she looked over and smiled at her boyfriend. When the curtains closed Rachel let go of Finn to run over and hug Puck.
"You were awesome!" Puck told her.
"That was an amazing song Quinn," Sam said to her as everyone hugged and cheered around them. He hugged her again and they stayed like that till they were told to get off the stage.
The bus ride back was awkward. Quinn had laid all her feelings out with that song and Sam didn't really know what to do. Quinn had made the same vow as him in the beginning of the year, but she had given in for Sam. Shouldn't he give in for her? Why did she have to write that song? Why did she have to kiss Finn? Three times? He loved the way things were between them now. Being friends with Quinn was amazing. They had so much more fun together then when they were a couple. What if they screwed it up again? Sam would lose his best friend. He didn't want to lose her.
Rachel and Puck were sitting across from them and Puck was actually listening to her. They looked happy. Sam finally allowed himself to look at Quinn sitting next to him and she was looking at him. Sam smiled softly and Quinn said nothing but laid her head on his shoulder. That was enough for now.
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"It's the chase," Sam told Puck, "She only wanted to get back together with me after I broke up with her. I am probably the only guy who has ever said no to her. Quinn probably just has something to prove. If I give in and get back together with her the second she gets bored she will run into Frankenteen's arms. Where will that leave me?"
"Don't give in then dude," Puck advised, "Thank her for writing the mushy "I am so in love with you and want everyone to know" song but tell her you're not ready or some shit like that."
"I need to know she is serious," Sam said talking mostly to himself. "I need to know that Quinn really wants me, or is it just the fact that she can't have me."
After his talk with Puck, Sam went to find Quinn. He had to tell her that he knew the song was about him, but he didn't want to be with her yet. The wound was still too fresh. Sam found her talking to Rachel and Mercedes.
"Can I talk to you?" Sam asked and Quinn nodded. He didn't notice Rachel wink at Quinn and Mercedes grinning. They walked out of earshot to the two girls, but Sam could feel their eyes on them.
"What's up?" Quinn said.
"Was the song about me?" Sam asked he wanted to make doubly sure before he said what he was about to say.
"Yes, but I thought you knew that." Quinn replied.
"I love you, I do," Sam said and then went on, "But I don't trust you."
"Oh," Quinn said softly. He had said those wonderful three little words followed by four awful ones.
"I want to trust you," Sam continued, "But I can't be in a relationship with a person I don't trust." Sam felt awful seeing the hurt look on Quinn's face but it needed to said, "Trust can be earned again, but it takes time."
"I understand," Quinn said looking at her feet
"You're my best friend Quinn," Sam said putting his hands on her shoulders making her look at him, "Nothing changes that, and that was an amazing song. I'll talk to you later." Quinn nodded. Sam kissed her on the forehead and walked back over to Puck. Quinn made her way back to Rachel and Mercedes.
"What happened?" Rachel asked before Quinn could sit down.
"He loves me, but he doesn't trust me," Quinn told them, "Sam said he can't be in a relationship with someone he doesn't trust. Which I can understand, I guess."
"Quinn, I'm sorry," Rachel said and put a hand on her shoulder.
"Sam said trust can be earned and that I am his best friend," Quinn said, "I just have to keep trying to prove it to him."
"Quinn?" Mercedes said.
"Yeah?" Quinn said.
"How many times has Sam said he loved you?" She asked. Quinn had to think about it.
I think I love you.
A part of me does still love you.
I love you, but I don't trust you.
"Three times I guess," Quinn replied, as many times as she kissed Finn.
"Have you ever told Sam that you love him?" Mercedes asked. No, Quinn realized she had never said that to him. After all this time Quinn had never told Sam she loved him, and she did. More than she had ever loved anyone.
"No," Quinn said shock all over her face, "No I haven't."
"If you want to him to trust you, I would start by telling him stright up how you feel, not hiding behind a song." Mercedes told her. She was right, the truth was always a good place to start.
Okay, I hoped you like it. I didn't want them to get together quite yet, Quinn still has to work for it.
I will update when I get five reviews, I want to know if anyone is still reading and liking this fic…
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