HELLO EVERYONE. THANKS FOR STILL READING THIS STORY. OK SO I KNOW THE WHOLE 'GETTING TO PANDORA FROM EARTH IN 48 HOURS' IS COMPLETE AND UTTER BULLSHIT. BUT UNDERSTAND IF I SAID IT WOULD TAKE A YEAR OR MORE I WOULD HAVE TO WRITE A YEAR OR MORE WORTH OF FILLER. AND I'M NOT THAT GOOD. PLUS FOR WHAT'S ABOUT TO HAPPEN IT HAS MORE IMPACT IF JAKE ISN'T A MEMBER OF THE CLAN YET. JUST THOUGHT I SHOULD EXPLAIN.

AS FOR THE WHOLE SUICIDE BIT. WELL THAT WILL BE EXPLAINED IN THIS CHAPTER. I KNOW HE DIDN'T SEEM SUICIDALIN THEMOVIES, BUT I WANT TO PLAY UP THE DRAMA A BIT MORE IN THE NEXT CHAPTER OR TO. AND THIS HELPS A LOT. SORRY IF SOME OF YOU DON'T APPROVE.

OK THIS IS A WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER. THIS CHAPTER IS GOING TO BE A MAJOR 'AU' CHAPTER. BASICALY I'M GOING TO BE CREATING A LOT OF JAKE'S CHILDHOOD, AND FAMILY RELAYTIONSHIPS, FROM SCRATCH. I'LL BE DOING A LOT OF STUFF THAT WASN'T IN THE MOVIE, OR WASN'T MENTIONED IN THE AVATAR WIKI. SO YOU'VE BEEN WARNED. NOW ON WITH THE STORY!

"Neytiri." Jake stood in the doorway to the hanger, a small smile covering his face. "Neytiri there you are. What are you and Trudy up to?" Neytiri quickly tried to hide the pounding fear in her chest and spoke. "Trudy was telling me about your kind." Jake nodded but Neytiri notice he looked at Trudy through narrowed eyes. "Anyways Neytiri I'm done here. So we can go back to the hometree now if you want." Neytiri tried not to look to eager as she and Jake left the human compound and climbed back onto their banshees. She was deeply troubled by what Trudy had told her. Even when she had felt completely alone she had never considered ending her own life. Just the idea of never be able to see the world around her made her feel sick.

CHAPTER 8

As they touched down on the forest floor, Neytiri found her gaze drawn to Jake, as he waved to his banshee who was now flying away. He stood tall and proud, and he certainly looked happy. It was hard for her to picture him ever thinking about killing himself, and yet as she walked along next to him she could not shake the idea. The faint idea of what would have happened if he had. Neytiri felt small tears well in her eyes and she slowed her walk so as not to let him see. The idea of him not being here now. Of him being gone from the world. It shook her, to the deepest parts of her soul. "Neytiri?" Neytiri blinked tears out of her eyes and found Jake had stopped and was looking at her a concerned look on his face. "Is everything alright?" Neytiri tried to smile. She tried to act as though nothing was wrong, but she couldn't that pain in her chest was too great. She could feel tears falling from her eyes, and as she moved to wipe them she felt Jake's hands push hers away. Gently Jake wiped her face of tears. They were so gently, so loving. How could Jake ever have thought of killing himself when he was so loving? Neytiri looked up at Jake who still had a look of concern on his face. "Neytiri what's wrong? Please tell me."

Neytiri looked up at Jake. Tears still clouded her eyes but she could easily see the worry written on his face. For a long moment she stood there looking into his eyes. Then slowly she spoke. "Jake……………. Follow me." Neytiri grabbed Jake's wrist and began to drag him through the forest. For half an hour Neytiri dragged Jake through the forest completely ignoring his please for her to tell him what was going on. Night began to fall around them and still Neytiri ignored Jake's please for an explanation. Neytiri pushed a bush aside as they stepped into a clearing. On the far side the wall of trees and grasses was broken by a large cave that loomed out of the ground like the mouth of some monster. Pulling Jake behind him Neytiri tugged him into the cave and through the rocky caverns, stopping only when they came to her favorite place in the cave. Jake opened his mouth to speak but Neytiri stopped him. "this is my favorite place. Watch." Pointing to the center of the room Jake followed her finger and found it pointed to a large rock spire that stretched from the floor to the ceiling.

High above them the moon slowly moved out from behind the sea of trees, it's light illuminating every section of the forest. Jake watched as a ray of moon light arced through the darkness of the cave and hit the small spire in front of them. The light fractured and splintered sending thousands of smaller rays dancing around the cavern illuminating the cavern. Jake felt his breath hitch in his chest as he watched the light dance and swirl interacting with the dust and creating what small galaxies of dust and light all around them. Next to him Jake felt Neytiri tug him so they were sitting down on the rock floor. Turning to her Jake found that again tears were falling from her eyes, and instinctively he moved to wipe them. As he do so he spoke. "Neytiri, please. What's wrong?" Neytiri smiled at him. "you are strong Jake. your skin is as hard as any banshee's and your mind is sharp like an arrow. But………… there are things that I still don't know about you. Please……. I have to know." Jake felt his body stiffen, he knew what she was talking about. "my accident?" Neytiri nodded. "Trudy mentioned it. but wouldn't tell me about it. why? Why does everyone else know but me? I'm your mate, I love you. Why won't you tell me what happened?"

Jake sighed and stood up. "Why does it matter so much?" my old body is gone. I'll never have to worry about it again. So why does it matter so much?!" Neytiri flinched at the anger in Jake's voice. But her creeping fears were not enough to stop her from jumping to her feet and shouting back. "I love you Jake!! I know something is wrong! And I want to know what! I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU ARE KEEPING FROM ME!" Jake whipped around his face full of anger and pain. "What I'm hiding from you!!!! I'm not hiding anything from you!!! The me in front of you is all that there is. My old problems are gone. SO WHY ARE YOU STILL ASKING ME ABOUT THEM!?" Neytiri grabbed Jake's head and moved it so his face was inches from hers. Willing herself not to shout Neytiri spoke as calmly as she could. "Jake. I love you. But if you're hiding things from me how can I trust you?" Jake sighed and looked down at the ground after a moment of silence he spoke. "Neytiri if you knew…….. What I was like as a human………. You wouldn't love me." Neytiri looked at him. "How can you say that?" Jake shook his head and sat back down. "My accident took something very important for a warrior."

Neytiri sat down next to him. "What did it take your heart, your honor? It obviously didn't take it all because you have shown both those things in coming to this place and trying to become one of us." Jake shook his head. "No it took something much more important." Neytiri leaned in and put her hand on Jake's shoulder. "What did it take? Please Jake…….. I don't want to be the only one who doesn't know." Jake was silent for a moment and then looked up at her. "Do you know what being paralyzed means?" Neytiri shook her head. "No. I don't know what 'to be par-aly-ed' means." Jake sighed and nodded. "Yeah I thought so." Jake went silent for a moment as he thought. "Being paralyzed. It means that you can't move a part of your body. No matter how hard you try or how hard you will that part to move, it doesn't." Neytiri nodded as Jake continued. "My accident left me paralyzed from the waist down. I couldn't………" Jake broke off and could feel him shaking. After a moment Jake spoke again.

"I couldn't……… move my legs. I couldn't…….. Walk, or run. I couldn't be a warrior anymore." Neytiri felt her blood run cold at those words. Not being able to walk, or run…… she shuddered at the thought. It seemed so permanent so absolute. To never walk or run again. She tried to imagine that. Not being able to run on tree branches, not being able to swim, or walk. Again she shuddered. Jake smiled sadly at her. "Yeah, not very nice is it. I was a soldier, I went places and I fought for the good of my country. And then I couldn't be a soldier anymore. Almost everything I had ever known was taken from me during that last mission." Jake gritted his teeth and he felt anger rise in his chest. With a voice seething with anger he spoke again. "But the funny part……. The really funny part was that I could have had my legs fixed. I could have had surgery, and I could have walked again." He seemed to be getting angrier, the more he talked. He was still shaking but now it was from anger. Neytiri opened her mouth to speak but Jake cut her off. "It's a very odd feeling when you hate everything's all I could feel after my accident. I hated everything around me. I hated the people around me. God I hated the looks of pity I got from them. They drove me insane. They looked at me like I was lower than them like I needed their help to survive. I'd fought in wars, killed people, gone through hell and back, and they thought I NEEDED HELP?!?!?!?!"

Again Neytiri flinched at Jake's voice. She could feel the anger in it. Jake stood up and began pacing in front of Neytiri who stayed sitting on the ground watching him. "I HATED MY LIFE, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, I HATED NEEDING OTHER PEOPLE TO HELP ME! AND I HATED THAT WHILE THEY WERE HELPING ME THEY COULD WALK AND I COULDN'T!!!!!!!" Jake took a shuddering breath and willed himself to calm down. He could tell he was scaring Neytiri and that had not been his goal. Breathing deeply Jake felt himself relax, and only then did he continue. "About the only thing I didn't hate was my brother tom." Despite his anger Jake smiled at his memories of tom. Tom had been kind, bond matter what had been happening tom never passed up a chance to be kind to others. Jake sighed and sat back down again. He suddenly felt drained. Like he had been running for several hours without rest. Next to his Neytiri put her hand on his shoulder. "Jake…….. Why did you come here?" Jake raised an eyebrow. "You dragged me here remember?" Neytiri shook her head. "No. I mean here to Pandora. Why did you come?" Jake shrugged. "I'm not exactly sure. I guess I wanted to get away. I need to feel useful again and as much as I hate to say it Quaritch gave me a purpose."

Silence lapsed between them; the only sounds in the cavern were echoes of animals outside. Jake sighed again and looked to Neytiri who was still looking at him curiously. "Jake… why did you think I would care about this?" Jake shrugged. "Neytiri you have no idea how much I love you. I'd go to war if it meant keeping you safe. I don't want you to feel bad for me. I don't want your pity. I don't want anyone's pity. I just want to be looked at for my abilities and not for how I look, or how I think." Neytiri smiled. "I see your fears Jake. But you were wrong to think this would matter to me. I love you for who you are. Even if your sky person body was…….. Injured I wouldn't care. I love you jakesully, and nothing will change that." A moment later their lips connected. The kiss was sweet, and gentle. As they broke apart, Jake smiled. Right now he was in heaven. Neytiri smiled at him and gently rested her hands on his chest, gently pushing him on his back.

LEMON BEGINS

Sounds filtered into the cave from all around them in only a way that a bioluminescent night could on this world. For a moment they just lay there on the cool stone in each other's embrace listening to the sounds of the forest. It was so peaceful, unlike the nights on earth in which every step you took in the dark meant trouble could be just around the bend. Simultaneously both moved to rest their foreheads against each other. It had been a long day and they both knew that they needed this moment right here to revitalize them.

Neytiri shifted around rubbed her nose against Jake's as a sign of affection before moving to gently take his lips. Where there mating night had been Jake's night to make Neytiri feel loved, tonight it was her turn. Hiking herself up onto his lap she kissed him more passionately now and rubbed her hands between his hair and over his ears. He responded with gentle caresses to her back and kissing back with a growing passion.

As he moved to reach a more comfortable position to reciprocate his movements were to jerky that Neytiri accidentally fell off. Jake immediately made movements to try and help her but stopped and let out a bit of a breathless moan. Neytiri's head had landed right near his queue which at sensing her presence had opened open and revealed the delicate tendrils that lay beneath. She had only been lightly breathing on it due to where her face was located but those light puffs of air had caused Jake unexplainable amounts of pleasure.

Neytiri seeing this reaction picked up his queue in her hand and lightly testing let out a cool stream of air on the sensitive flesh. Jake moaned at this new ministration and leaned back a little panting in pleasure. Neytiri smiled at this reaction and then proceeded to bring the queue into her mouth and lightly suck on it. Jake moaned harshly again and started to buck in pleasure. There was nothing that compared to things he felt on Pandora to that of Earth; he had never felt so alive.

Not wanting to have all the fun though he reached over with strong hands and gently lifted Neytiri up into his lap. At her questioning gaze he simply gave her a gentle smile and murmured "Tsahaylu." Neytiri nodded in response and reached for her own queue and together they formed the bond that seemed to only exist on this world alone. Both gasped on the initial click before rubbing their hands all over each other with equal passion. It was not long before a small pile of their leather clothing formed a pile beside them.

As Jake prepared to enter he looked into his mate's eyes and found what he was looking for, acceptance and love. He then formed the bond of flesh with her and began to move. This wasn't like the first time in which the passion had been incomparable but it wasn't as though it didn't have the same desire or love within in it. This time it was gentle, it was taking time to figure out each others bodies and love each part of it.

It was a slight nip on the shoulder that was later soothed by a gentle kiss. It was fervent grabbing with hands that later turned into gentle caresses of touch. It was the gentle pleasure of love that only those who are truly in it can experience and feel.

Eywa also seemed to recognize that this was true by dozens of woodsprites and a pale blue bioluminescent ring to form around them. The two occupants once again paid no mind to this new attraction as they embraced each gently and moved as one. Jake suckled lightly on Neytiri's breast causing her to gasp in pleasure while she nibbled light on his ears making him growl his. Even as both knew they were reaching their climax they only sped up slightly and kept their eyes own one another. Both panted harshly now as Jake readied himself for the final thrust to completion, Neytiri wrapped both her arms around his neck and kissed him deeply while he held her wrist tightly to his body and then trust in to climax. Both moaned under the other's lips and shuddered in the aftermath, but neither moved as both laid back to rest against the soft ground of the cavern floor.

LEMON ENDS

Jake and Neytiri lay on the ground. All around them light and dust wove together creating small galaxies in the cavern. As they lay there Jake pulled Neytiri a little closer to him. He loved her that was the only way to describe what he felt. Jake felt Neytiri's hand against his and allowed her to manipulate it. Neytiri gently spread his fingers apart; before putting her own hand over his, until they were aligned. Looked down at her Jake smiled. "I see you." Neytiri smiled and looked up at him. "I see you." Jake smiled and wrapped his fingers around her hand. Looking up at Jake Neytiri spoke. "Jake……. I don't want you to hide things from me. I want you to be able to come to me about anything." Jake nodded. "I know." Neytiri pushed herself up so she was looking at Jake in the eyes. "no you don't. I mean it. I don't want any more secrets between us." Jake stayed silent. He could tell she was about to ask him to do something drastic. Neytiri took a deep breath and continued. "Jake…….. I want to see the memory of your accident."

Jake sighed deeply. He would have said no he would have resisted in a dozen ways if it weren't for one thing. The tone of voice that Neytiri had spoken in. he had come to know that tone well, it told him that she wasn't going to take no for an answer. Jake sighed again felt around for his queue, after finding it Jake looked to Neytiri and spoke. "if I show you this, you have to promise me one thing." Neytiri nodded. "anything." Jake took a deep breath and continued. "you have to promise me that you won't look at me with pity. I don't want it so save it for someone who needs it." Neytiri nodded. "ok Jake. I promise. No pity." Jake nodded and offered Neytiri the end of his queue. Jake felt Neytiri's queue touch his and less than a second later the world around them vanished. (I'm not going to go into details about the dream cause I wrote it in the first chapter.)

QUARITCH'S POV

Quaritch sighed again more out of irritation than anything else. Tapping the glowing button in front of him. "I told you before Spellman it was a trick to make it look like they vanished. There is no virus!" on the other side of the protective plastic dome Spellman touched a similar button. "Don't care general. I'm not willing to risk contaminating the base. You can deal with the deserters after you've been cleared by hazmat." Quaritch slammed his fist into the plastic as Spellman walked away. Above him fire suppression novels flicked on showering a mixture of disinfectants, antivirus drugs, and a dozen or so other chemicals. Growling Quaritch made a mental note to punch Spellman the next chance he got. Putting his back to the barrier Quaritch slid down until he was sitting in the ground. He was pissed he had been out sifting through blown up junk for 5 hours he had come back and he and his squad had been shoved into this decontamination dome. Closing his eyes Quaritch lit a cigarette and took a deep drag. Only one thing stopped him from pulling out his sidearm and shooting people. In 24 hours raven company would be landing and he would be able to make Jake pay for trying to leave.

AN:) WELL FOLK CHAPTER 8 IS DONE. I KNOW IT WAS KIND OF SHORT BUT THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS WILL BE LONGER I PROMISE.

ONCE AGAIN I GIVE HUGE THANKS TO saingirl101 FOR WRITING THESE HOT AND STEAMY LEMONS. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

OK SO I'VE BEEN GETTING A FEW QUESTION ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH TSU'TEY'S AND NEYTIRI'S ARRANGED MARRIGE. I WILL BE GOING ITNO DETAIL ABOUT THAT IN THE NEXT CHAPTER OR SO. BUT I WONT GIVE AWAY MORE THAN THAT.

THANKS FOR STICKING WITH THIS STORY FOR SO LONG. IT MAKES ME SMILE TO SEE SO MANY PEOPLE READY MY STORY. THANKS.

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