I was sitting on the bed with Sirius eating soup when he asked me if Remus and I had ever kissed. I blushed and couldn't look him in the face. How do you tell the one that loves you that you've kissed another man?
"Gracie, have you?" he pressed
"Harry was five, we were at the beach. I'm sorry Sirius." I said looking at the floor.
"For what?" Sirius asked "I'm the one who should be apologizing seeing I was the one who went to prison."
"Yeah but you had a good reason to go after Peter. I kissed Remus because .. because I ..."
"Shh, you don't have to tell me." Sirius inturrupted putting his hand on my cheek. "I love you, no matter what you do or have done. I will love you for the rest of my life, and even after." then he leaned forward and our lips met. I wrapped my arms around his neck and let the kiss go on and on. Sirius's kiss have always made me feel as if I was a princess and I owned everything I've ever wanted. I love the feeling, the feeling that makes me feel like I can fly. Like I could anything and master it. I had missed that feeling, and I had longed for that feeling. At that moment I knew no matter what I was not going to let Sirius just walk out of my life. Even though he was going to Hogwarts to catch Peter he was not going back to prison.
Later that night
I watched as his chest rise and fall. I listened to his breathing so low and happy sounding. I looked at the smile plastered on his face, and I rememberd the first time he held me. The first time he said 'I love you', the first time I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. I stood up and walked over to the window with the sheet wrapped around me. I looked out into the night and sighed. Remus had come back but he was pissed and wouldn't talk to me. He talked to the boys but acted as if I didn't even exist. It hurt but I tried to act as if it didn't. I tried to apologize we just got into another fight and he stormed off again. Harry and Johnny are starting to realize something's going on. They wont stay quiet for long.
I turn around when I hear Sirius sigh in his sleep. I walk over and kiss his head then pick up my clothes and quietly walk out of the room to mine, where I laid down on my bed and think about my times at Hogwarts when life wasn't complicated and everything was just like I wanted it to be.
I woke up the next morning and got to work getting the kids up and ready to leave for Hogwarts. I was cooking breakfast when Johnny asked the question. "Auntie Grace, why are you dad fighting?"
I turned to him and said "We're not fighting, we're just having a little disagreement right now honey." I looked at the door as Remus walked in and started making his usual morning cup of tea. "Remus." I whispered he pretended not to hear me at first then he looked at me and said "Yes Grace?"
"Do you need money or anything for your year at Hogwarts?" I asked he shook his head no and sat down at the table. I passed Remus and the boys their breakfast then walked out of the room and up the stairs. I froze when I heard moving in my room. I slowly opened the door to find Sirius laying on my bed. "Sirius." I said shutting the door "What are you doing in here? Remus could've found you."
"Really? Has Remus ever been in here Gracie?" Sirius asked
"I know you're leaving Sirius. You don't have to be mean just to end what ever this is that's been going on." I said standing in front of him.
"I will come back, I promise Grace Potter. I might have to be your little secret and hide out in one of the rooms here but I don't care. I want to be with you forever." Sirius said placing his hands on my waist. "What do you say Gracie? Want to be Mrs. Sirius Black?" he grinned
"Sirius I've already told you yes."
"Yeah you did, but that was like fifteen years ago. Harry wasn't even born." Sirius said after placing a kiss on my thoat
"Sirius I can't, I have to take Remus and the boys to Kings Cross." I said "And you have to get moving if you want to make it to Hogwarts by the Feast."
"I will miss you Grace." Sirius said standing up. He kissed me hard but yet tender, it was one of those kisses that leave me clumsy and confused. One of those kind of kisses that turn me into an idiot.
"Go Black, while I can still control myself." I whispered
"I love you." he turned into Snuffles and ran from the room. I watched him go and closed my eyes as the tears threatened to fall. They probably would've if it hadn't been for Harry and Johnny yelling saying it was time to go. I walked out of my room trying not to think about how my 'little secret' could be thrown back into Azkaban any day now that he was outside of the house.
Hogwarts
"Mrs. Potter I assure you that Harry and Johnny will be fine." Dumbledore said smiling at me as his eyes twinkled "If you don't mind me asking, is it really young Mr. Potter and Lupin you're worried about? Maybe it has something to do with Mr. Black."
"What do you know about that?" I asked
"Sirius is not the traitor. I've known that from the day he broke out and didn't go straight to a house of one of the members of the Order and kill them. After all that is what the Death Eaters do, is it not?" Dumbledore asked
"I suppose you're right." I mumbled "He is innocent." I whispered looking at him
"He will be fine and by the end of the year I promise you that he will be saftly back at your home." Dumbledore said
"Thank you ALbus." I got up and left his office.
I had origanally came to Hogwarts to see Remus and ended up talking to the Headmaster. I knew he was on my side and not trying to hurt Sirius but yet I had a bad feeling about confiding in him and not Remus. But Remus was to far gone believing Sirius was the traitor to believe anything I say.