Sorry for the long wait, guys. I had school and a bunch of things happening.
But I hope you enjoy this chapter. :)
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"So, all I have to do is wait in here, and when Clare come in I'll talk to her and she'll love me again?" Eli asked Imogen for the hundredth time, clearly annoying her. They were currently standing outside of a small sweat lodge that Eli built for his school project. He thought if he could get Clare in there, with Imogen blocking the exit, he would certainly be getting Clare back. Imogen promised him that after all.
"Yes, Eli. How many times do I have to say it?" Imogen spat back, "Oh my gosh. She's coming. Quick, go inside." Imogen rambled and pushing Eli in. He sat quietly on the ground waiting for Imogen to allow Clare in.
"Yeah, it's right in here." I heard Imogen say. The door opened and Clare walked in, immediately regretting it the moment she saw Eli.
"What is this? Some kind of joke?" Clare said crossing her arms. Imogen whispered a goodbye before closing the door and locking it up.
"Look, Clare," Eli said, but Clare quickly cut him off,
"No, Eli. If you brought me here to hurt me more than you already have, then I'm leaving." Clare turned around; beginning to open the small door, but it was shut tightly.
"Sorry, you're not getting out until you let Eli talk to you." Imogen said on the other side of the wall. Her voice filled with victory as she said each word.
"Fine, Eli what is it." Clare turned back around, crossing her arms back over her chest.
"I know you still love me." Eli whispered.
"No I don't, you're crazy if you think I would ever want you back. You hurt me, you walked all over me, you-" Eli cut her off by crashing his lips over hers. She gasped, mistakenly letting Eli slip his tongue thought her parted mouth. He grabbed her wrists and held onto them tightly, pushing her up against the wall.
"Tell me you don't love me." Eli mumbled, kissing down her neck.
"I don't love you." Clare whispered, shaking gently as his kisses began to get lower. His grip on her wrist began getting tighter as Clare fought him. She used all her strength and power to get out of his grip, but he was always stronger than her. As much as Clare wanted to get him off of her, she couldn't help but feel that small tingling in her stomach, the one she felt when she was with Eli, how his kisses are always soft and gentle. She couldn't help but stop fighting him, and slowly melt into his touch.
When Eli started kissing back up her neck to her jaw line, Clare kneed him in his lower region, making him cry out in pain and fall to the floor.
When Clare finally pulled back to reality, her eyes widened and her mouth fell open, pure disgust rose in her as she glared at him. She scoffed and walked towards the door, banging on it lightly
"Let me out." Clare said loudly, trying to hold back her sobs. "I talked to him, now let me out." Clare stood impatiently by the door. When Imogen finally decided to open it, Clare managed to slip passed her quickly to get away. She didn't want to know that Clare had been crying, or what actually happened in there. She ran inside the school, blocking out the sound of Adam's voice who was calling after her. She turned the corner to her 6th period and bumped into someone.
"I'm sorry." The guy said, "Oh, Clare. Are you okay?" Clare looked up and saw Jake. He finally noticed that she was crying, so he pulled her out of the school to his truck, no words said.
Clare sat there, knees to her chest with arms wrapped around her legs, and her head hung low. She was silently crying to herself as she felt Jake's hand rub her back for comfort.
"Are you okay, baby?" Jake asked softly, earning a small shake of the head from Clare, "Do you want to talk about it?" He asked her. She slowly raised her head and turned to face him,
"Eli...he... he kissed me." Clare choked out, her eyes looking everywhere but at Jake.
"He kissed you? Why the hell would he do that?" Jake asked, his voice rising by the second.
"I-I don't know Jake! Imogen said she needed help, and she brought me to this sweat lodge she was building for class, and he was in there. He said I still loved him, and when I declined it, he kissed me. He grabbed me and kissed me." Clare showed Jake her wrists, a light shade of purple slowly covering them.
"He did this to you?" Jake said, anger releasing into his eyes. Clare nervously nodded and closed her eyes, hearing Jake hit his fists onto the dashboard. "I'm going to kill him." He whispered harshly, his jaw clenching and his fits gripping the steering wheel tighter, his knuckles getting white.
"Jake, no," Clare choked up through her sobs, "It will only make things worse. This is all a part of his plan. He's trying to hurt Me." she said calmly, placing her hand on his, feeling him relax into her touch. They sat in silence for a moment before Jake moved his hand away, starting his car and driving off.
"Where are we going? We're going to miss last period." She said, looking over at him.
"We need to talk..." He said lowly, his eyes glancing around in front of him, trying not to catch any eye contact with her.
"Why? What about?" she asked, a small amount of panic entering her voice as she spoke. Jake came to a complete stop on the side of the road, stopping at the end of her drive way. "Jake, you're scaring me." She told him, getting that familiar feeling crawling up her throat, like she was about to cry.
"I... I'm sorry." He told her, "I just- I can't do this anymore. You still love him Clare-" He said, but Clare cut him off.
"I don't love him, Jake. I don't."
"You do, Clare. The reason why you're crying after he kissed you is because you're scared that you're going to gather those feelings again for him. I know you, Clare. He kissed you, and you kissed him, don't deny it, Clare. You are still in love with Eli."
"I'm not!" She mumbled and looked down, twirling her purity ring on her finger. She knew Jake was right, she still loved Eli. As much as she wanted to deny it and make Jake stop, she knew that the feeling she had for Eli were never going to go away, no matter what Jake does to keep Clare from feeling that way.
"I'm not stupid Clare; you're blocking your feelings towards him. I saw the look on your face when you told me he kissed you, other than the fact that he caused that," He pointed to the bruise on her arm, "Your face lit up, it was like you were happy when you told me. Clare, I'm not that stupid." Jake looked over at her, a tint of hurt entering his eyes.
"I love you, Clare, I always will, but... you need time away from me. Just for a little bit, to realize who you really love." He glanced over at Clare and started his truck back up, unlocking the door for Clare. She slowly nodded, not wanting to get into another stupid argument. She got out of the car and shut the door, standing in the same place as she watched Jake drive away.
She bit her lip and walked inside her house, dragging herself to her room. She threw on a pair of pajama pants and lay down on her bed, hugging her pillow tightly. For the first time in a while, she actually cried. Her world was slowly breaking apart, and she had no one there to pull it back together, not even Jake. She let him slip right through her fingers, and didn't do anything to stop it, as much as she loved and cared about Jake, Clare will never erase the memories and feelings she shared with Eli.
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"Why didn't it work, Imogen?" Eli yelled, making Imogen step backward against the wall.
"I-I don't know..." She whispered, "I thought it would."
"You thought?" He chuckled sarcastically under his breath and looked over at her, "You know, I'm beginning to think that your stupid plan is to make Clare hate me even more. She even admitted that she hated me, Imogen. She hates me and it's all because of you. You said that Clare would love me again, but she doesn't. This is your entire fault."He snapped coldly, grabbing his coat from her dress and putting it on.
"No, Eli don't leave, I love you." She said, but immediately clamped her mouth shut, wishing that she didn't say that.
"You love me?" He asked, "Well..." he chuckled again, "I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but you are to me what I am to Clare, and I am nothing to her." He spat and walked over to the door leading out of her bedroom.
"Eli, you don't mean that." She said, trying to hold back her cried.
"Oh, but I do." He said, "All you did was hurt me, you lied to me. I'm done with you, I'll figure out a way to make Clare love me again, and I'm as sure as hell you won't be a part of it." He said and walked out of her room, slamming her door behind him. He rubbed his hands together, and smirked darkly.
Walking to Morty and shutting the door, he looked up and saw Imogen standing in the same exact place as she was before, her back facing him. He bit his lip, knowing that he was a little harsh towards her, but he didn't care at the moment. He was more than pissed at her, all he wanted was Clare back, but with Imogen in the way, it wouldn't happen, so he needed to push her out of the way.
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Eli sat by his desk, griping the pencil in his hand tightly as thought of the words to say to Clare.
"Tell her you're sorry." Bullfrog said to him, taking a sip of his beer.
"But dad, she hates me." He mumbled, giving his dad a cold glare.
"Clare doesn't hate you," he stated, "If Clare really hated you, she wouldn't of came to the hospital, she would've said something to you when you kissed her." He said, nodded his head lightly, turning his attention back towards the TV.
"Fine, whatever." Eli scoffed and walked back up to his room, sitting back down at his desk. Hours had already past, and before Eli knew it, his alarm clock was blasting throughout his room. He groaned and opened his eyes, looking down at the paper with nothing on it besides Dear Clare written at the top. He growled and balled the paper up, tossing it into the trashcan.
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A/N- 8 REVIEWS= CHAPTER 4
Clare stood at her locker, trying her best to hide all her emotions she was receiving. From the Eli incident, and from Jake breaking up with her, she didn't know what to do. As she was grabbing her things to head home for the day but a soft grip on her arm made her jump and turn around. Her eyes locked with those soft, beautiful green ones. She gasped and pulled away from his grip, taking a small step back.
"What do you want?" She asked softly, but with a harsh tone to her voice. She glared at the floor and watched as he inched closer to her.
"I – I'm sorry." He told her, making her head shoot up in confusion. "I'm sorry, for everything, for giving you that note at the movie theatre, for posting that video online for the world to see. Everything." She glared and him and bit her lip,
"And...?" she whispered, moving her tongue around on the inside of her cheeks; a technique her mom had told her to control to anger.
"I'm just sorry. I've been a complete ass to you, and I feel terrible about it. Honestly, I've been off my medication, and when Imogen came along, I felt like everything she told me was true. I wasn't myself when I was with her; I was a complete different person than I am. That's why I was being so awful to you, because of her. Like I said, I'm sorry for hurting you like I did, and I was hoping that you would consider becoming friends again with me. If you want to, meet me at the Dot tonight at 8'oclock. I'll understand if you don't want to come." He gave her a quick smile and walked away from her.
"Wait, Eli!" She called out, but he was already out of the school. She sighed and leaned against her locker, slowly sliding down and hitting the floor. She closed her eyes tightly and heard a familiar voice coming down the hallway, followed by a laugh. Clare turned her head and saw Jake, pushing a girl against the lockers, towering over her.
"Jake we're going to get caught." The girl said, placing her hand lightly on his neck, giving him a seductive look.
Clare stood there staring at them, her mouth hung open as she saw the scene in front of her. How could Jake move on this fast? They just broke up yesterday, there's no way that Jake could already have another girlfriend.
Clare stood up, walking towards them slightly, wondering why they haven't noticed her yet. Her heart shattered as she saw Jake lean down, kissing the mystery girls lips, her smiling giving and him a small laugh. Jake pressed his lips on the girl's neck, making her sigh and lean against the lockers. She turned her head to the side, her eyes widening as she saw Clare, standing there.
"J-Jake, stop." She whispered, pushing Jake off of her. He gave her a questioning look as she looked down, her face flushed with embarrassment. Jake turned his head, his mouth hanging slightly open as he saw Clare, standing there, tears now rimming her eyes as she processed everything that was happening.
"Clare... it's—it's not what you think."
"No—save it, Jake." She choked up, walking backwards towards the doors of the school.
"Clare, wait please let me explain."
"No, it's not like it hurts me," she told him, "We're over, we're done." She lied, turning around quickly and walking out of the doors of Degrassi, not even noticing the tear as it escaped her eye.
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Clare hesitantly opened the door to the Dot, walking inside slowly and taking a seat in a booth towards the back. She knew that this was probably a mistake to come here and talk to Eli, but since she had nothing better to do, she thought she would come anyways. Either way, if he tried to hurt her again, there would be people around to witness it, right?
An hour before Clare came; she quickly put on a pair of dark skinny jeans with a long sleeved shirt to hide her now healing wrists from the other day.
"Clare...?" A deep, shaky voice asked, pulling Clare back to reality. She glanced up and saw Eli standing there giving her a nervous smile.
"Hey... Eli." She sighed and gestured for him to sit down. He smiled lightly and sat down in front of her and looked down at his hands, lightly tapping his fingers on the table. He pursed his lips and glanced over at her, glancing away quickly as their eyes locked together.
Clare cleared her throat and looked at him, "So... why did you want to meet me here?" She asked him, lacing her fingers together and leaning back into the car.
"I wanted to show you something." He said simply, a light smirk tugged at his lips as he looked at her.
"Like what?" She asked him, her eyebrows pinning together as she leaned forward again.
"Something," He whispered, "To show you how sorry I am." He bit his tongue lightly, getting that nervous feeling in his stomach as he waited for her response.
"I-I guess." She mumbled after a few moment of silence. She looked over at him and saw the smile appear on his face. She quickly looked as that same feeling in her stomach appeared again, the one you get when you see that one person and that's all you see. Like a crush, someone you really like. Clare snapped back to reality and cleared her throat as she stood up and followed him.
"Where are you taking me?" She asked, but stopped when he walked in front of her, putting his hand out to make her stop walking. He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a blindfold. Clare's heart raced as he lightly tied it around her face, covering her eyes. Her breathing hitched and she closed her eyes tightly, scared that he was going to hurt her again. He slowly dropped his hands and walked over beside her, putting his arm on her waist to guide her.
She swallowed and stiffened up against his touch as he led the way. After a few minutes of walking and complete silence, Eli stopped and removed his hand from her waist, walking behind her and slowly removing the blindfold. Clare slowly opened up her eyes and bit her lip as she saw the scene in front of her.
Clare turned around and couldn't help but give him a small smile, "You brought me here? This is where we had our first date." She walked over to him and turned around briefly, overlooking the view of the abandoned church. "Why?" she asked him softly.
Eli bit his lip, sitting down and looking up at her, "Clare, you have no idea how sorry I am for the way I treat you. After I got back on my medication, everything came rushing back to me. I hurt you," He told her, grabbing her arm lightly and lifting up her sleeve, gasping as he saw the healing bruise. "I hurt you, and I hate myself for it- for everything. I'm sorry for freaking out that one night at the dance and putting you in that bad situation. A girl as amazing and beautiful as you should never be treated like that. I'm sorry." He bowed his head down and watched as her feet got closer. He heard her sigh and she kneeled down, taking her hand and lifting his chin to look at her,
"It's okay, Eli. You didn't mean to hurt me." She told him, "You had someone making you do all that stuff, right? He nodded at her, "I know I'm crazy for saying this but I forgive you." She gave him a small smile. He smiled back at her and lightly cupped her cheek. She smiled and closed her eyes, opening them back up to see a tear rolling down his cheek. "Oh, Eli, why are you crying?" She pulled him up and used her thumb to wipe away the tear.
He looked at her and put his arms around her, pulling her into a hug. Her breathing shortened as his arms wrapped around her tightly. Clare bit her lip, but slowly leaned into his touch, putting his arms around his waist. "I'm so sorry..." He whispered multiple times in her ear as he pulled her closer to him.
Clare was about to say something else, but a hard force pulled her back away from Eli as she slowly fell to the ground. She cried out in pain and looked up to see Jake punching Eli repeatedly in the face.
"Jake! Get off of him!" She yelled, grabbing onto Jake's shoulders and shoving him off of Eli. Eli groaned and stood up, walking away from them. Clare stood up and looked up at Jake, giving him a dark glare. "I didn't want him near you." He told her, but backed away as her hand came into contact with his face.
"Don't even say it, Jake. Don't act like nothing happened today. I saw you with her, I'm not stupid." She spat and looked behind her, seeing Eli slowly walking away from them. She turned her attention back to Jake. "I can't believe you did that." She told him, and walked away from him, trying to catch up to Eli, leaving a speechless Jake behind her.
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"I'm sorry he did this." Clare said, getting a wash cloth, wiping off the blood that was still on Eli's bottom lip. He winced but slowly shook his head, "No, don't be sorry. I deserved it."
"No, you didn't." She protested, "No one deserves to be beat up like this, especially you."
He smirked lightly as he watched her get a band-aid from the cabinet in her bathroom. She walked back over to him, sitting down in front of him as she slowly placed the bandage above his eyebrow. She smiled and removed her hand. "There. Perfect." She grinned lightly at him and looked at his brusied face. She took her hand and ghosted her fingers over the bruise under his eye. Eli winced in pain as she touched it, but she leaned over and pressed a light kiss on his cheek. She pulled back and showed him a small smile before standing up, putting her hand out to help him up.
"Thanks for helping me out." He whispered, making her turn around. She nodded and pulled him into another comforting hug,
"Anytime you need me." she whispered.
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A/N- 8 REVIEWS= CHAPTER 4
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Well... So, Eli and Clare are NOT back together... yet. I might switch the characters to Eli/Clare since this is slowly starting to become a EClare story. So yeah... I hope you all enjoyed this chapter.
Review please... reviews would be nice(: