BPOV

I woke up again in Edwards bed but this time I didn't stay long. I grabbed one of his jackets and ran out the front door. I had to see Jacob, I had to know the truth.

When I arrived he was already outside…

"You ever thinking about running away?

"What are you talking about Bells?"

"I just need to get away from here! I need to go where I can clear my mind. Monsters in stories are turning into real things. I don't know how much longer I can take all this information."

Silence

"Please Jacob, I need to know some answers." My eyes were pleading.

He looked at me with this hurt and pain, I saw a tear trickle down his face.

"Why are you crying Jake?"

"I'm NOT!"

"How do you explain this then?" I walked over and removed the tear with my thumb. Our faces were close together. I could feel his breath on my lips. He grabbed my hand and started walking on our regular path down to the beach.

"I have to know Jacob?"

"What do you want to know?"

"Do you love me?"

"I love you very much. You are my Best friend and when we are apart I'm not myself. I have to be near you to feel whole. But the thing is you never loved me Bella. You were always his. I've tried to not hold onto all these emotions that I feel but nothing helps. I was just hoping that one day you could love me. That one day maybe we could be together. It just makes more since for me and you to be together. I cant help but want to…."

My lips were on his. I didn't care anymore. I love Jacob Black. But I also loved Edward. Jake was right, it seemed easier with him. Everything flowed easier. His kiss was very much alive. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. But then it hit me…I saw his face very clear in my mind. Edward. His topaz eyes. His strong jaw and thin lips. I pulled away from Jacob panting.

"Oh no, I'm so sorry. I can- cant do this Jake. I know I started to kiss you but this just isn't right."

"After what you just did you cant deny that you don't love me. Didn't you feel it? Didn't you feel the connection Bells?"

I didn't know what to do so I just looked at him and said "I'm sorry" and then I was running away again.

He called after me. Begging me to come back but I just kept running.

I got to my truck faster then imaginable. What am I doing? I am in Love with two completely different people. How am I going to get through this? I jumped inside my truck and turned the music up. I had to drown out my thoughts.

3 Doors Down came blaring down on me from the speakers.

How do you know where you're goingWhen you don't know where you've beenYou hide the shame that you're not showingAnd you won't let anyone inA crowded street can be a quiet placeWhen you're walking aloneAnd now you think that you're the onlyOne who doesn'tHave to tryAnd you won't have to failIf you're afraid to fightThen i guess you never will

I started singing at the top of my lungs and then the tears started flowing down my face.

You hide behind your wallsOf maybe neversForgetting that there's something moreThan just knowing betterYour mistakes do not define you nowThey tell you who you're notYou've got to live this life you're givenLike it's the only one you've gotMemories have left you brokenAnd the scars have never healedThe emptiness in you is growingBut so little left to fillYou're scared to look back on the days beforeYou're too tired to move onAnd now you think that you're the only one who doesn't

Oh how these lyrics spoke to me. This is what I'm feeling. This is my life. By this time I was pulled along the highway crying hysterically into my tainted hands. Then I felt someone pick me up and place me into their cold arms. Edward had me against his chest comforting me.

"Shh Bella its okay, your going to be okay."

"Nooo immm not ookay."

"Yes you will be, your strong."

"I love both of you Edward. I don't know what to do. I'm a horrible person." Edward grabbed my face with both of his hands gently.

"No your not horrible Bella, your only human. I left you and that wer-Jake was here to hold you back together."

"Edward?"

"Can you please take me far away from Forks?"

"Where do you want to go?"

"I just want to be somewhere far away and as long as we are together right now alone I don't care where it is. I just need you."

"Are you sure you can leave Jacob?Was I sure I could leave him? I had to know if I still Loved Edward Cullen with all my heart. I had to know what I needed and wanted to most. And the only way to do that was be with him and only him.

"Yes I'm sure."

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