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Kanda let out a sigh. "I'll forgive you once you receive you punishment."

Lost (chapter 8) Yullen

Allen looked at Kanda nervously. "O-Ok," he answered unsurely.

Kanda pulled away from Allen's hug and looked at him in the eyes. "Do as I say, Moyashi," he said.

Allen just nodded as an answer.

"Stand up," Kanda commanded.

Allen stood up uneasily, not knowing what his punishment would be.

"Go a little farther."

Allen went a little farther.

"Strip," Kanda paused to think of the right word, "slowly."

Allen looked at Kanda wide-eyed. "Ehhh? Why the hell would I do that?" He shouted at Kanda angrily.

Kanda looked back at him intensely. "If you don't want to do it, get out," he said strongly.

Allen took a step back as a response. Kanda is serious. "H-Hai," he agreed.

Allen slowly took off his coat and gloves. Then, he removed his ribbon and unbuttoned his vest, taking it off SLOWLY. Shaking, he unbuttoned his shirt also and SLOWLY removed it. He took off his boots then his pants SLOWLY, revealing his blue boxers. He looked at Kanda with uncertainties. He didn't want to go any further anymore.

Kanda never looked away from Allen. He waited for Allen to remove his boxers 'til he got tired of it. The bean sprout isn't moving at all. "Get on with it, Moyashi," Kanda said.

"But," Allen refused. "Kanda…" he called Kanda pitifully.

"Hurry up," Kanda said ignoring Allen's entreaty.

Allen's heart ached so badly at Kanda's words. He never dreamed of doing something like this. He closed his eyes tightly as he removed his boxers.

Seeing Allen fully naked, Kanda smirked in satisfaction. But the punishment never ends here, he still wants more. "Now, masturbate," he commanded.

Allen opened his eyes wide, not wanting to believe what he was hearing. "What?" he asked loudly that it sounded like a shout.

"Masturbate," Kanda repeated strongly.

"Huh?" Allen really didn't want to believe what Kanda wants him to do. He couldn't help but ask over and over.

Kanda's smirk vanished and an angry frown was formed on his face. "Don't make me repeat my words anymore, Moyashi, or this will be harder for you," Kanda warned Allen.

"But Kanda, I'm not a slut. Why do you want me to do that?" Allen asked, not really wanting to do it.

"Kneel and masturbate, NOW," Kanda said intensely bringing shivers to Allen.

Allen took a step back again, fearing Kanda. "A-Are you sure with what you're saying?" he asked nervously.

Kanda was starting to lose all his patience and he looked at Allen more intensely if it was even possible. "Use your dick and hole," Kanda said strongly, true to his words in making this punishment harder for the bean sprout.

Allen's heart hurt at the statement, he took a step back again showing Kanda how scared he is now. He really wants to be forgiven but if Kanda wants him to do that…—

Allen looked at Kanda angrily. He picked up his coat and wore it completely. Then, he also picked up his garments and walked near to Kanda. He slapped the Japanese man really hard then looked at Kanda furiously. "I'M NOT A SLUT, BAKANDA, THAT'S TOO MUCH!" Allen shouted angrily.

Kanda looked back at Allen fiercely. He stood up and slammed Allen to the wall strongly; earning a short groan from the bean sprout (Allen dropped his garments). "You don't have the right to slap me, baka Moyashi," he said gripping the bean sprout's shoulders tightly.

Allen bowed his head, not wanting Kanda to see the painful look he has on his face. Tears formed in his eyes, unknown to him. "I hate you," Allen whispered as he felt pain in his heart. He moved his hands lightly to Kanda's chest. "I really do," he said pushing Kanda away from him as tears fell down his eyes, knowing that Kanda is still mad at him yet he annoyed the Japanese man more. I really won't be forgiven. He ran out of the room quickly leaving all his garments behind (except his coat, of course).

Kanda watched as the door of his room closed. He was stunned at the said words of his bean sprout. Once he moved on with it, he threw himself to his bed and closed his eyes. "Damn my sadistic side," Kanda cursed silently to himself. "When did I become such a pervert?"

Allen ran quickly in the corridors and looked for his room. Well, as we all know, he got lost again. He wiped his tears away and stopped running when he reached a dead end.

Dead end? So I ran the opposite way again… Kanda… I want you here beside me…

Allen turned around and ran to his room fast. He passed Kanda's room, then the stairs. He counted six doors and opened the seventh door quickly. He walked inside the room, locked the door behind him and looked for Tim. Unfortunately for him, Tim wasn't around so he just sat on his bed, leaned his back to the wall, got his pillow and hugged it tightly.

That punishment is just too much for my sin… But Kanda, I really want you to forgive me… I don't hate you… I just hate what you want me to do… I love you… forgive me soon Kanda… please… I need you…

Komui looked at Lavi. "Lavi, it seems that Kanda doesn't like Nathan… well, because of Allen of course, since it has come to this, I want you to take care of Nathan," he said seriously.

Lavi was surprised at the statement. "Me?" he asked loudly. "I don't like babysitting," he refused.

"You just have to familiarize him here, then, you can stop taking care of him," Komui said.

Lavi thought of words he could say. He, then, smiled. "I think Lenalee will do better at that job than me," he said cheerfully.

Hearing those words, Komui looked at Lavi fiercely. "I can't have my Lenalee-chan hanging around with boys," he said deeply and strongly.

Nathan looked at Komui. "Komui-san, I can take care of myself," he said surely.

Komui looked at the boy. "You can't take care of yourself, you're always scared. You're still in a trauma because of General Cross," he said.

"No, I'm—," Nathan was about to talk back but Komui frowned at him intensely so he just shut his mouth.

"Then you can take care of him," Lavi said to Komui.

Komui never looked away at Nathan. He signaled the boy to encourage Lavi by looking at him evilly, scaring the poor boy.

Seeing this, Nathan tugged Lavi's sleeve again drawing the man's attention to him. "Lavi-san… I-I won't be a burden so please take care of me," he said with pleading eyes (he didn't intend to look at Lavi with those eyes; it's just the effect of what Komui did to him).

"But I'm not good in bab—," Lavi paused when he felt Nathan's grip on his sleeve tightened. "Fine," he finally agreed.

Nathan sighed in relief.

Komui smiled in satisfaction. "Then, it's settled," he said. "I'll just go see my Lenalee-chan! Bye~," Komui said as he run out of the room quickly.

So he really just wants to lessen his job by giving it to me.

"Thank you, Lavi-san," Nathan thanked Lavi with a smile.

Lavi smiled back at the boy. "I'll just have to see Bookman, you go eat your dinner first, then go to the library when you're done, you'll find me there," he instructed. "Do you know where it is?" he asked.

"Yes," Nathan answered.

"Then, see you later~" Lavi sang as he walked out but was stopped by Nathan. He looked at the boy who was currently tugging his coat. "What?" he asked.

Nathan bowed his head, hiding the light shade of pink he has on his cheeks. "Just so you know, Lavi-san, I'm not a baby," he pouted cutely making Lavi smile.

Cute.

Allen blushed darkly when he remembered that Kanda just saw him fully naked.

I was fully naked in front of him. That's… embarrassing.

Did… did he find me cute?

No… I'm not sexy like him… I'm thin and I don't have sexy abs like his. Oh! And he saw my… my thing. What if he didn't like it? What if he didn't find me sexy or cute at all?

Allen frowned sadly. He brought his knees up and hugged himself tightly.

He'll never say sorry to me… he'll never approach me again… because he found me disgusting…

Allen sobbed silently.

BaKanda…

Allen heard knocks on his door. "Moyashi," the voice called. Knowing that that voice is Kanda's, Allen chose to ignore it.

Why are you here? You want to laugh at me?

"Moyashi, open the door," Kanda said, knocking impatiently on the door.

Allen frowned angrily though tears were still in his eyes. "Go away, baKanda!" Allen shouted.

"Baka Moyashi, I said open it," Kanda said furiously.

"I said go away!" Allen shouted throwing the pillow he was hugging on the door.

Silence filled his room for a moment.

Damn Kanda. Do you want to break up with me already?

The silence was deafening for the bean sprout 'til he heard knocks on his door again. Getting pissed, Allen got up from bed and walked angrily to the door. He opened it quickly and shouted, "How many times do I have to tell—," Allen was surprised when he didn't see a taller man in front of him instead, a shorter man rather, you can call him a kid, was there,. Well, obviously, Nathan was there. He had his hands on his head, eyes closed tightly because of Allen shouting so loudly at him. (If you're gonna ask me, Nathan's height is just below Allen's ear). "Nathan…" he whispered.

Hearing the man's voice, Nathan opened his right eye to see who just shouted at him. When he saw Allen, he opened his other eye and put down his hands. He looked at Allen with confusion. "Onii-san, did you cry?" he asked.

Allen didn't know he still has tears on his face. He wiped it quickly and smiled at the boy. "What brings you here?" he asked Nathan with a smile.

"Uh," Nathan turned around and reached for something, then, he looked back at Allen to show Tim using both hands. "Is this yours, Onii-san? I don't know but it seems like he wants me to follow him… and we end up here…" Nathan explained.

"Oh, he's mine, thank you," Allen took Tim from Nathan's hand. "Come inside, Nathan," Allen said opening the door for the little boy.

Nathan looked up at Allen, surprised at what he heard. "I-I can?" he asked, blushing lightly.

Allen smiled at Nathan and held his hand. "Yes, I have to talk to you," Allen said, dragging Nathan inside.

Allen closed his door and told Nathan to sit on his bed— which Nathan did. He looked at the boy who was fidgeting at the moment. Allen can't help but smile at this. "Nathan, calm," he said patting the boy's head softly.

"Y-Yes," Nathan said bowing his head lightly to hide the light shade of pink that formed on his cheeks.

Tim rested on Allen's head while Allen sat beside Nathan. He looked at the kid seriously. "Nathan, you shouldn't come near me," he told the boy.

Nathan looked at Allen, surprised. "W-Why?" he asked painfully, hurt at what Allen said.

Seeing the painful look on the boy's face, Allen cupped Nathan's face with both hands. "I love Kanda…eh? No, I mean, it's just that Kanda's feeling jealous when you are near me so…" Allen removed the strands of hair that covered Nathan's face. "Please, Kanda is already mad at me," Allen said.

"But you are so kind to me…" Nathan said, tears forming in his eyes.

"Nathan," Allen whispered, not wanting to see the little boy cry.

"Onii-san…" Nathan said, clutching Allen's coat tightly.

"It… It won't last forever… Just… Just until we settle this, ok?" Allen assured the boy just so he won't cry.

Nathan's eyes sparkled at the said word. "Really?" he asked.

Allen rubbed the boy's head gently and smiled. "Yes," he answered.

Nathan stood up and faced Allen. "Thank you, Onii-san," he said as he bowed his head. He looked at Allen again then smiled happily. "I'll go now, Onii-san," he said, jumping joyfully to the door.

Allen bid his goodbye and watched as the boy left.

I just can't say no to him.

Nathan walked inside the dining room. He ordered roast beef and searched for a seat. His eyes wandered around the room 'til he saw the Japanese man sitting alone. He walked near to Kanda even if he has doubts in doing so. "K-Kanda-san, can… can I talk to you?" he asked bravely though he was feeling really nervous at the moment.

Kanda looked at him first before signaling the boy to sit.

Nathan sat in front of the Japanese man. "Uhn," he thought of how to start the conversation. "I-I'm sorry, please don't be mad at Onii-san," he apologized.

"That's none of your business, kid," Kanda said irritated.

With the said words, Nathan bowed his head and started to fidget. "I…" he couldn't think of anything. "I… I won't hug Onii-san again so… I… please," Nathan pleaded.

Kanda looked at the boy, surprised at what he said. "How did you know?" he asked keeping his cool.

The little boy looked up at Kanda nervously, not sure if he would tell what he did, afraid that Kanda would hurt him again like the first time he saw him. "I… I went to his room, but please, don't be mad at him. He talked to me already. He told me not to go near him 'til you two settle this," he whispered the truth sadly.

Kanda looked away from the boy. He's blaming himself… he's just a kid… Damn my possessiveness. "No, it's fine," Kanda said unsurely.

"Eh?" Nathan looked at Kanda with confusion, not believing what he just heard.

Kanda blushed lightly. "Just… you'll have to ask my permission before you hug Allen," he said.

"R-Really? I can go near him?" Nathan asked cutely.

"Yes," Kanda said sighing.

"Thank you, Kanda-san," Nathan thanked him happily.

Nathan opened the door of the library slowly. He peeked to see if Lavi was there. His eyes wandered for a moment 'til he saw a red-haired guy. He smiled knowing that that guy is Lavi. He walked inside and approached Lavi quietly. Lavi is reading books seriously so Nathan didn't utter any word before sitting beside Lavi. He put a lollipop on the table wanting Lavi to eat it when he gets bored.

The Bookman Jr. averted his eyes from the book to the lollipop, then to Nathan. Nathan had his eyes on his hands which were currently resting on his lap. Cute. "Nathan," Lavi called the boy.

Nathan looked up at Lavi as a response. "Good evening, Lavi-san," he said shyly.

Lavi patted Nathan's head, smiling and Nathan closed his eyes tightly. Once Lavi was done, he looked again at the red-haired guy. "Tell me when you feel sleepy," he told Nathan.

"Ok," Nathan replied.

Lavi looked back on the book and continued reading.

Nathan looked down on his hands again and blushed lightly. It's his first time having someone concerned about him. It's the first time someone wanted to know if he's already feeling sleepy.

FF

Lavi read continuously, never stopping 'til he felt a head rested on his shoulder. Knowing what happened, he wrapped his right arm on the boy's back for support so he would not fall. He, then, looked at the boy. Expectedly, Nathan is already sleeping soundly. He lifted the boy and placed him on his lap (bridal style). Then he looked at Nathan's face and inspected the boy once more. He looked at Nathan's closed eyes, nose, ears, hair, and parted lips.

So your hair just looks like white, but when I look closely at it, it's actually color silver. Also, your hair is a 'lil curly at the ends. And those cute, small lips…

Lavi bit his lips for self-control but…

Lavi's lips met Nathan's…

Me: Lavi… that's child abuse!