In the previous chapter

Hearing Kanda's voice, Allen opened his eyes and saw Kanda sitting beside him. He quickly sat up and hugged the Japanese man tightly, straddling the older exorcist's lap. "Kanda…" he whispered as he cried, burying his face on Kanda's shoulder. "I'm scared…"

Lost (chapter 13) Yullen

Hearing the bean sprout's words, Kanda hugged Allen back. He felt his bean sprout sobbed silently on his shoulder. "Shhh… don't cry," he comforted Allen as he rubbed the back of the Moyashi's head gently.

Allen clutched Kanda's sleeves and let himself be calmed from the man's touch. "Kanda…" he whispered, closing his eyes. He stopped crying when he felt Kanda's presence fully. He pulled away from the hug and wiped his tears away cutely with both hands.

The Japanese man stared at his lover and smirked at the boy's cute action. He smiled in his mind with satisfaction, seeing his bean sprout back into life again. "Are you still scared?" he asked, moving his hand under Allen's chin, making the boy look up at him.

Allen stared and observed the Japanese man's face. He smiled seeing the eyes of his lover looking at him directly; he feels safe and comfortable when Kanda is beside him. "No," he answered honestly.

Kanda moved his face near Allen's ear before whispering, "Why were you scared?" he asked, sending shivers to the bean sprout.

Allen bowed his head and his breath became uneven due to Kanda's closeness to him. "M-Mana left me in my dream," he said, blushing darkly when he felt Kanda's lips touched his cheeks.

Kanda licked Allen's ear before sucking the bean sprout's neck lightly. "Then?" he asked, wanting to hear Allen's story, still teasing him. (Kanda, did you forget Allen is still injured?)

"K-Kanda…" Allen moaned when Kanda bit the most sensitive part of his neck. He grasped Kanda's shoulder tightly, wanting his lover to stop teasing him. "Mana wanted me to forget him—haah… Kanda…" Allen gripped Kanda's hair softly. He hadn't noticed that Kanda had already unbuttoned his shirt 'til the Japanese man licked his nipple lightly.

"Continue," Kanda demanded, not stopping from teasing Allen.

"B-Bakanda… stop," Allen said. "K-Kanda… I still love Mana that's why I can't forget him," he said, panting heavily because of the pleasure the Japanese man is giving him. "He told me to move forward even though I love him so much," he stated, tears forming in his eyes.

Hearing the said words, Kanda suddenly stopped teasing Allen. He straightened his upper body and looked at the white-haired exorcist who was sobbing silently and his head was bowed so he could hide his tears. The Japanese man frowned with pain, hurt at what his bean sprout said, realizing that his Allen still hasn't completely loved him at all. He hugged Allen soothingly to comfort the boy. Kanda wanted to monopolize his Moyashi so much but he can't… not when Allen still hasn't moved on from his already deceased foster father… not when Allen still doesn't give all his love to Kanda. "Then?" he asked even though he doesn't want to hear painful words anymore from the bean sprout.

Allen rested his head on the Kanda's shoulder and clutched the Japanese man's sleeves. "I also asked him if he loved me… but all he said is that the answer is in my heart. He said that my heart should have felt it," he said. "But my heart only feels pain whenever I remember him… does that mean he truly didn't love me?" he asked, still hugging the Japanese man. "Did he adopt me because Neah's memories were implanted in me? Did he just use me?" he asked his lover even though he knows that Kanda knows nothing about his father's feeling.

"Why do you always think of the worst, Moyashi?" Kanda asked back. He pulled away and looked at Allen directly in the eyes. Allen did the same and he waited for what the older man has to say. When will you move on, Moyashi? "Don't think about having the memories of that Noah. Think only of what your father did for you," Kanda told the bean sprout seriously.

Allen frowned at Kanda before looking away. "BaKanda, that's impossible… Mana planned it from the start," he whispered with shaking voice. "There's no way Mana loved me. No one wanted my existence in the very first place. Even my parents abandoned me so aren't I being presumptuous if I assumed that Mana loved me?" he closed his eyes tightly making the tears in his eyes fall. He clutched the Japanese man's coat and sobbed silently. "No one truly loves me," he whispered with pain.

"Baka Moyashi," Kanda said as he combed Allen's hair with his hand. "I won't forgive you if you say things like that again. Have you forgotten me already?" he asked his bean sprout. "Your father loved you, that's all you have to believe," he informed Allen seriously. He laid Allen gently on the bed and positioned himself on top of the bean sprout. "Let's stop your drama. You're just hungry," he said as he wiped Allen's tears away. "I'll get some food," Kanda said as he stood up but was stopped by Allen. He stared at Allen with confusion.

"I'm hungry but you promised me you will never leave me so stay with me," Allen said continuously, blushing lightly. He stared at the Japanese man who was silenced and stilled at the moment because of what he said. His blushed darkened so he looked away from Kanda. "P-Please," he pleaded shyly.

Kanda smirked first before sitting on Allen's bed with his arms crossed against his chest. "Tch, you're like a kid afraid of monsters," he commented as he turned his face to look at his lover.

Allen looked at Kanda seriously. "You hate kids, don't you? Do you hate me now?" he asked pouting.

Kanda can't help but smile in his mind. Allen looked so cute for him. He moved his face closer to Allen's before whispering the boy's pet name. "Moyashi," he said then kissed the bean sprout passionately on the lips. He inserted his tongue inside the bean sprout's mouth and tasted every part of it hungrily. Once done, he traveled his lips down to Allen's jaw, then to the Moyashi's neck and sucked on it gently and carefully. "I missed you, Moyashi," he breathed against his lover's neck.

"Kanda…" Allen moaned, feeling Kanda's lips on his neck. He gripped the Japanese man's shoulders because of the pleasure he is feeling. "I'm… I'm still injured Kanda…" he reminded his beloved.

Kanda moved his head closer to the bean sprout's ear. "We still have an agreement, Moyashi," he whispered sexily bringing shivers to the boy.

Allen couldn't think properly due to the pleasure Kanda's is giving him. He had to process every word Kanda would say before he could understand it. "A-Agreement? Ah!" Allen asked but moaned when Kanda bit his ear. "K-Kanda…" he called his lover, tears forming in his eyes. Kanda stared at him with confusion. He looked back at the Japanese man with pleading and teary eyes. "I-I can't take it, please stop teasing me. My… my heartbeat won't slow down… please," Allen pleaded pitifully, feeling like he would die because of too much pleasure.

Kanda stared at his lover first, surprised at what he heard, before smiling sexily. "I missed you, Moyashi," Kanda said again as he removed the strands of hair that covered Allen's face. He was about to kiss his beautiful Moyashi again when someone opened the door forcefully.

"WHERE THE FUCK IS MY IDIOT PUPIL?" The General shouted loudly as he walked inside the room (though he was being stopped by the scary nurse).

Allen and Kanda stared at the door, or rather at the general with surprise. "Shisho…" Allen whispered subconsciously.

When Cross found the two, young exorcists together, he glared at them angrily, seeing the scenery. Kanda was on top of his idiot pupil—whose face was flushed at the moment. Kanda's tied hair was a little messy (due to Allen's too much clinging to it). Allen shirt was unbuttoned and his eyes had tears. Also, the bean sprout is sweaty and his lips are red and wet (due to Kanda's kiss). It was very obvious for the red-haired general that these two, young exorcists were doing something perverted.

The nurse also looked at the two, wide-eyed. She was ready to lecture them when she realized that the general would do it so she chose to walk out of the room and do the things she needed to do.

(Back to Cross)

The General's brows were twitching with anger because of the unwanted scene. "You two…" he whispered angrily. "And I thought my idiot pupil was sleeping soundly because of his injury," he said, trying to stop himself from shooting the two exorcists with his innocence.

Allen tugged Kanda's sleeves nervously, drawing the Japanese man's attention back to him. "Kanda, help me sit, please," he said in a whisper.

Kanda sat on the bed first before helping his bean sprout sit also. The two lovers sat beside each other and waited for the general's lecture; they were actually like kids who were gonna be scolded because they just did something wrong.

General Cross sat on the sofa that was placed near the door. He never looked away from the two. "I appreciate you, samurai, not leaving my idiot pupil's side since last night," the general started his lecture. He was ready to say another word when his idiot pupil suddenly shouted.

"You never left me? You were beside me all this time?" Allen asked loudly, looking at the Japanese man with his big eyes, unintentionally interrupting his Master's lecture.

Kanda looked at his bean sprout's eyes, not knowing what he would say. He looked away, blushing lightly, not even bothering to give his bean sprout a word. Baka Moyashi. Why would I leave?

The red-haired general glared at the bean sprout, angered by Allen's unwanted interruption. "Idiot pupil!" he shouted deafeningly, throwing an apple directly at his idiot pupil's forehead— causing the bean sprout to fall on his back.

"Oww…" Allen hissed rubbing his forehead gently. He lied comfortably on the bed.

Kanda stared at Allen with blank eyes. He was pitying his Moyashi so much in his mind. Allen was still injured yet his master did that. His attention was drawn again to the General when he felt Cross staring at him.

"He just woke up and you're doing it already. How many times have you two done it?" Cross asked the samurai straightforwardly.

Kanda stared at the general expressionlessly. "We haven't done it," he answered in a monotone.

Cross also stared at the samurai expressionlessly. "Never?" he asked.

"Never," the Japanese man answered without any emotion.

Allen sat up on bed again, curious at what the two older men are talking about. He heard every word they said but he couldn't guess what 'it' represents. He looked at his lover, then, at his master, both of them are looking at each other with blank eyes.

"Pity you," The general told the Japanese man. It's really obvious for the general why the two hadn't had sex at all. It has the same reason why Allen is still virgin up to now. Allen's innocence (not his arm, his purity) saves him every time someone tries to make him pay with his body. He always thinks that paying with his body means manual labor (not that he wanted Allen to be raped by old men. But come on! Allen has boyfriend now. He should learn things). Same as now, it's because of Allen's innocence that's why they still haven't made love even once. Allen doesn't know why Kanda kisses almost every part of his body. The Moyashi doesn't know how hard it is for the Japanese man to hold back the sexual desire he's feeling every time Allen's innocence arises… every time Allen would stop him.

"What are you two talking about?" Allen asked his lover and his master.

General Cross looked at his pupil, annoyed. "We're talking about something— which someone as innocent as you wouldn't understand," he answered truthfully.

Allen frowned at the General, knowing that he wouldn't get any real answer from him (me: but that's the truth Allen!). He looked at Kanda and asked, "What are you two talking about?"

Cross stood up and walked near Allen, interrupting him. "Idiot pupil," he called the boy making Allen look at him again. "At least try to learn new things. You never know when this samurai will get tired of understanding you every time," he said as he patted Allen's head.

Allen stared at his master with confusion. "What do you mean, Shisho?" he asked, not understanding his master's words.

"Sex," the general answered bluntly. "I'll leave now. I just took a look if you're ok," he said as he walked out of the room. Beautiful nurses are waiting for me outside 3

Allen blushed darkly because of the General's bluntness though he still didn't understand what his Master told him. He looked at Kanda to ask if the Japanese man understood what his Master just said but Kanda kissed him unexpectedly on the lips.

Kanda pushed Allen down on the bed. He licked Allen's nipple again. "We have an agreement, Moyashi," he told the bean sprout again. He sucked the bean sprout's neck hungrily before moving his head near Allen's ear. "I told you I'll do it in one condition," he whispered against Allen's ear.

Allen moaned feeling Kanda's hot breath against his ear. He tried to remember what agreement Kanda is talking about.

Flashback (in Allen's mind)

Allen blushed. "No! I'm serious, baKanda; we should do what Leverier wants. I don't want to be under suspicion forever," he told Kanda seriously.

Kanda frowned at Allen. "No," he replied.

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to," the Japanese man answered.

"Because you don't care if I die," Allen said fast, correcting what the Japanese man said.

"What the fuck are you saying?" Kanda retorted.

"You told Leverier to kill me if he wants to. You told him you don't care," Allen said painfully.

Hearing Allen's words, Kanda sat up on bed and so did Allen. He hugged Allen who was currently straddling him. "You actually believe that, Moyashi," he whispered to the bean sprout as he rested his chin on Allen's head.

Allen hugged Kanda back. "Because you said it," he told Kanda, sobbing silently on the man's chest.

Kanda stroked the back of Allen's head gently, comforting him. "I just don't…" Kanda paused, not wanting to say the next words for it will sound corny but he had to, "want to hurt you," he finished, sighing in relief at the end.

"You won't hurt me, you'll help me," Allen told Kanda.

Kanda frowned, not really wanting to do what Leverier wants him to but if Allen's the one who ordered him, then there's no objection, but there'll be a condition. "Fine, in one condition, you'll do what I want," he said.

"O-Ok, but not now, I'm sleepy, good night, Kanda," Allen smiled before drifting off to sleep.

End of Flashback

"Oh…" Allen said when he finally remembered what Kanda is talking about. "W-What's your condition? Nnn…" he asked, trying his best to stop his moan when Kanda teased his nipple using his hand.

"Sex," Kanda answered frankly as he stopped teasing Allen, looking at his bean sprout directly in the eyes. "But I'll wait 'til you're fully healed," he said.

Allen blushed darkly at Kanda's words. "I'll be ready," he answered with a smile though he still doesn't know what he would do when that time comes.

"Can I leave you now, Moyashi?" Kanda asked Allen suddenly.

The bean sprout looked at Kanda, surprised at what the older man said. "No," he answered truthfully. "You promised me you will never leave me," he said, fear was visible in his eyes.

Kanda was taken aback at Allen's action. He smirked when he realized why the bean sprout was so afraid. He cupped Allen's cheek, seeing that his bean sprout is about to cry. "I'll just sleep, baka Moyashi," he said honestly.

Hearing his beloved's words, Allen pushed Kanda on the bed. They lied beside each other. "Then sleep with me, baKanda… you know you scare me sometimes," Allen told his lover. He hugged Kanda tightly. "You didn't sleep last night, did you?" he asked.

"I didn't," Kanda managed to answer before falling asleep.

Allen felt Kanda fell asleep. He smiled happily knowing that Kanda truly cares for him. He looked at Kanda. He untied his lover's hair and quickly kissed him on the lips. "Good night, Yuu," he said as he closed his eyes and slept. (Allen, you forgot to eat!)

FF Morning

Allen woke up without Kanda beside him. Now, he's walking in the halls of the order, looking for his lover. Well, unfortunately for him, he got lost again. He's now in the part of the HQ where few people come.

Oh great! I'm lost again. It's your fault, baKanda. Why did you leave me?

Allen continued walking 'til he heard voices.

"I'm jealous, Kanda, I really am," the bean sprout heard a girl's voice. Jealous?

Allen went near the room where he heard the voice. He silently opened the door a little to peek who is inside. He saw Lenalee and Kanda together. Lenalee had her hands clutching the Japanese man's sleeves tightly and tears were resting in her eyes. They were looking at each other directly.

"Then let's see who's better," Kanda said, frowning a little.

Hearing the said words, Allen took steps backwards before running away (noiselessly so the two wouldn't know he was eavesdropping). Kanda wants to know who is better: me or Lenalee. Tears unintentionally rolled down his face.

I'm sorry it took me long to update, I was busy in school, I'm really sorry