Okay this chapter was born when I read the chapter in Eclipse when Rosalie tells Bella… "My record is almost as clean as Carlisle's."

ALMOST being the key word here…. :] :] :]

Rosalie's Point of View

I took a deep breath and the scent of a human hit my nose. Ugh! She was here…. I brushed through my hair nervously. It was my only chance. Edward was always around her. Never leaving her alone for one second. I needed to seize this opportunity… I did need to apologize to her and try to talk some sense into her about the choice of becoming a vampire…. I needed to tell her the truth… Everything… I wound one of my gorgeous golden curls around my fingers nervously then I stood from my chair in front of my vanity. I walked slowly and quietly down the hall to Edward's room where she was sleeping. I opened the door very cautiously. She was curled up on his sofa when there was a perfectly good bed right there…. I sighed silently. Ungrateful human. I shook my thoughts of hatred, anger, jealousy… Yes… Jealousy… Rosalie Hale was jealous of a stupid human.

"Bella…" I started quietly. She sat up and looked very startled and slightly frightened. "I'm sorry… I didn't mean to wake you." I apologized and turned to leave. Coward…. I whirled around and planted my feet, I had to seize this once in a existence opportunity. Bella was alone.

"No… It's all right." Bella whispered meekly.

"I need to talk to you Bella. I know I've been terribly horrid to you, but I want to tell you the truth… The reason I voted no on you becoming a vampire." I told her. I sat down on the floor in front of her crossing my legs under me. I took a deep breath.

"How much did Edward tell you about my human life?" I asked softly.

"He told me it was something like what had happened to me in Port Angeles, except, there wasn't anyone to save you…" Bella whispered.

"He's better than I give him credit for." I sighed exhaling. "I want to tell you my story Bella…" I told her clenching my fists. The only other person I'd ever voiced my entire story to was Emmett… That was one of the hardest things I'd ever done. I thought he would think I was just some broken porcelain doll, or a wilted flower that just too much work to restore again. I thought he would have given up on me… I was what people call and introvert. I never told anyone how I felt, or what I thought. I always kept it inside… The rest of my family didn't even know my entire story. I gave Edward permission to tell them only a vague outline, never first hand details. But, I needed to tell Bella. I kinda even wanted to tell her… Bella nodded her expression intent and focused. She was willing to listen to whatever I had to say.

"But I'll have to warn you. It doesn't have a happy ending. If any of our stories had happy endings, we'd all be under gravestones." I said bluntly. Bella flinched at this. I told her about who I had been when I was a human, vain, shallow, and self centered. I told her about what I'd wanted more than anything in the entire world Royce and what he and his friends had done to me that terrible night my body feeling cold and hollow when I spoke of this… But it did feel good to have her know. It felt better to talk… Bella's expression was horrified when I reached the end... My beginning as a vampire.

"I murdered five humans though Bella. If you could call them that. I tracked down Royce's friends killing them first, but never drinking their blood, I didn't want any part of them inside me…" I said. "I saved Royce for last. So he would know what was coming for him. It was childish really I was over theatrical. I wore a wedding dress for the occasion. He screamed when he saw me. He did a lot of screaming that night. I made sure not to spill his blood, so I destroyed him from the inside out. It was the most inhumane way I'd killed. His other friends I'd settled on just snapping their spines in half or breaking their necks." Bella gulped when she heard that. "I broke every bone in Royce's body Bella, and it felt good. I crushed him. And I was proud. I was proud that I didn't drink their blood too." I smiled. "You know I've never drunk a human's blood." I said triumphantly. It wasn't a lie. "My record is even better than Esme's, and a thousand times better than Edward's. My record is almost as clean as Carlisle's." I said.

"Almost?" She pondered aloud. I snapped my mouth shut.

"Yes. I did taste human blood before. Emmett's." I admitted quickly.

"Emmett's?! But…" . She was confused.

"Edward told you I saved Emmett from a bear didn't he?" I asked twisting the subject.

"Yes, he said you ran back to Carlisle one hundred miles… Edward said it must have been very hard for you." Bella murmured. "You drank some of Emmett's blood?...."

"Do you remember what it is called when one human's blood smells better than any other?" I asked seriously changing the subject.

"Ummm…. The English word is something like singer right?" Bella asked.

"Yes, la tua cantante." I breathed. "You know how Edward says that your blood smells so much more wonderful to him than any other's? Well… that's how Emmett was to me." I admitted.

"So when he was bleeding in your arms?..." Bella trailed off.

"Oh it was like inhaling flames... I didn't know what I'd done to deserve this torture. I was about to give in and kill him… but I just couldn't. Emmett reminded me of Vera's little Henry with his tousled dark hair and dimples that showed even when he was grimacing in pain… His blood smelled sweeter to me than anything in the entire world, but I saw something in him that kept me running. I knew it was impossible and I knew I wouldn't make it." I said

"But you did." She half smiled.

"Yes, I did. But the torture didn't stop when Carlisle bit him… When we were in a confined space the air was filled with his scent. I didn't breathe, in fear I would slip up and drink his blood. I was drenched Bella. Completely drenched in Emmett's blood. I had his blood streaming down my arms and hands. My dress was completely soaked." I wrinkled my nose remembering. And Emmett just seemed to be begging for me to kill him. Pleading for me to drink his highly desirable blood. While he was… changing… it was all I could do to stand beside him without killing him, but he kept pushing his luck. He stroked my face with blood on his hands! My cheek had his blood on it now. I couldn't bare it anymore. It's really embarrassing now…." I chuckled. "Emmett doesn't even know I did this, but… I… umm… I was so desperate I licked his blood off of my arms and hands. I still wasn't satisfied though. I spotted some of his blood on the floor so I couldn't waste it either. Then… when I still wasn't satisfied, I turned to him planning on drinking every drop of blood left in his body, but as I took his hand bringing his wrist to my lips he whispered something to me almost smiling. I couldn't kill him now… I knew I loved him too much to kill him." I smiled. Bella grinned back. "Edward feels the same about you." I sighed the corners of my mouth twitching into a smile. "He thinks that if the stupid dumb blonde Rosalie Hale could resist a la tua cantante. He can too." I said.

"I believe in him…" Bella smiled.