In the previous chapter
Kanda smirked as he saw his bean sprout's face. It looks like Allen really missed him. "Moyashi," he whispered as he touched Allen's cheek, feeling the smoothness of the bean sprout's skin.
Allen blushed darkly because of Kanda's action. "I told you before, it's Allen," he pouted cutely at Kanda.
Kanda smirked again. Allen's cuteness never fails to amaze him. "Allen," he whispered before kissing Allen intensely on the lips.
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Allen panted heavily after the intense kiss. He clutched Kanda's coat as he looked at the older man with anger. "I'm going to kill you, baKanda," he warned the Japanese man angrily, though a light blush which looked very cute on his face was still visible.
Kanda frowned at Allen with confusion. The bean sprout was so sweet to him a moment ago but now, Allen is blabbering words about killing him. "What the fuck, Moyashi?" he asked the white-haired exorcist angrily. He was planning on eating his bean sprout the whole night but Allen just ruined his mood.
"I pleaded you to come with me earlier but you refused. You don't know how hard it is to explain alone to Lenalee," Allen said continuously. He was really, really nervous this morning because in the very first place, explaining personally to Lenalee never crossed his mind. It was Kanda's plan, not his. He was actually thinking of writing a sorry letter for Lenalee.
"Tch," Kanda responded as he pulled away from the hug. His brows wouldn't stop twitching with anger as he looked at the Moyashi. Surely, he loves this white-haired exorcist in front of him so much but sometimes, he just doesn't get what is going on in Allen's mind. "Fuck, I'm going to sleep," he cursed and told the bean sprout as he walked away, leaving the boy behind.
Allen watched as Kanda walked away. He couldn't move from the spot he is standing. It seems that he just pissed the hell out of Kanda. "BaKanda, wait!" he shouted at his beloved.
But Kanda didn't stop. He continued walking, not even bothering to take a glance at his bean sprout.
Allen frowned but ran quickly after Kanda. He didn't want to be alone in this dark place again. "BaKanda," he called as he grabbed Kanda's hand, making the Japanese man turn to look at him.
Kanda stared at the bean sprout angrily as he waited for what Allen had to say.
Seeing Kanda's angry expression, Allen frowned sadly at the Japanese man. "Why are you leaving me?" he asked in a whisper. "I don't know the direction to our rooms. I don't know how to go back there. And you're completely aware of that. But how come you are still able to leave me behind? So mean… Kanda," Allen pouted cutely but sadly at the taller man.
Hearing Allen's words, Kanda gave his beloved a small laugh. Then, he looked away from his bean sprout without giving a word. Allen is really cute, especially when the boy's small mouth pouts at him. He couldn't possibly be angry anymore.
Allen stared at the Japanese exorcist with big eyes. He was shocked when he heard Kanda laughed even though it was just for a moment. But it was his first time hearing Kanda's laugh. Why did Kanda laugh, really?
….
Eh?
…
"Wahhh! You're making fun of me! BaKanda! I hate you!" Allen shouted as he looked at his Japanese lover angrily. He was really scared to be alone in that dark place but Kanda still made fun of him. Tears rested cutely in Allen's eyes and he was ready to cry any moment now.
Kanda stared at Allen again. The bean sprout is surely cute. "I'm not making fun of you," he informed the boy as he cupped Allen's cheeks with both hands. "Don't cry. I don't like it," the Japanese exorcist said honestly, squeezing Allen's face like a kid. Allen looks cute when he cries but Kanda doesn't like it.
Allen held Kanda's hands and removed it from his cheeks. "Don't squeeze my face. You're making me look like a fish," he pouted at his lover. "You promised me you will never leave me, Kanda," he reminded as he hugged the taller man.
Kanda hugged the boy back then smirked. "I can feel you crying, Moyashi," he informed the bean sprout, rubbing the back of Allen's head gently. It seems that he really scared Allen when he walked away. Kanda smirked, knowing that he discovered something new about his bean sprout. Allen is scared of the dark and afraid to be alone.
"I'm not crying, idiot Kanda," Allen said against Kanda's chest.
Kanda smirked hearing those words. Allen really likes to lie even though he is so bad at it. "Let's sleep," Kanda said.
"No!" Allen refused as he pulled away from the hug. He wiped his tears away cutely with both hands before looking at Kanda.
Kanda stared at Allen, not knowing whether he would laugh or tell the bean sprout how idiot he is. Allen lied to him about not crying earlier but now, the boy just wiped his tears away. Allen is really a bad liar. "And you're telling me you're not crying," Kanda said, looking at the bean sprout with arrogance.
Allen frowned at Kanda as he processed in his mind what the Japanese exorcist said. "Eh?" the bean sprout blushed darkly at Kanda. He is really bad at lying. "I… I did not lie, really. There was dirt in my eye that's why…" Allen whispered, looking away from his lover.
"Tch," Kanda responded at Allen's lie. You really sucked at lying, idiot bean sprout. Allen didn't have to lie to him, really. It's not like he'll be in trouble if he lied to the Japanese man.
"Anyway, Kanda, Komui told me that Lavi and Nathan are coming back tonight so let's wait for them," Allen said as he dragged the Japanese man forcefully. "Let's welcome them back," he said with a smile.
"Tch," Kanda didn't want to and it was very obvious in his response.
"Please?" Allen pleaded, still dragging the taller exorcist.
Kanda sighed, knowing that Allen will never stop pleading until the boy gets want he wants. "Fine," Kanda agreed. "But you're dragging me in the wrong way, baka Moyashi," he informed the boy with a smirk, making Allen stop walking and blush darkly again.
FF
"BaKanda, my hand is already sweating," Allen informed the Japanese man. Ever since they got here (at the entrance door of the Black Order), Kanda held his hand and never let it go. Well, just so you know guys, they have been waiting for more than thirty minutes which means Kanda has been holding his hand for more than thirty minutes also. "BaKanda!" Allen shouted when Kanda didn't even bother to respond.
"Tch," Kanda hissed as he gripped Allen's hand tighter.
"Why?" Allen asked as he looked at the Japanese man with big eyes. It seems to him that Kanda doesn't want to let him go.
Kanda looked back and smirked at the bean sprout. "I can hold it no matter how long I want, you said that, baka Moyashi," he reminded his bean sprout.
Allen completely forgot what he told the Japanese man. Well, it's his fault why Kanda is holding his hand— non-stop, so he doesn't have any right to complain. He smiled contentedly in his mind as he remembered that time, when Kanda got jealous because of Lenalee. He also gripped Kanda's hand that was holding his gently as he rested his head on Kanda's shoulder. "Why do you love me, Kanda?" Allen unexpectedly asked. He suddenly wanted to know why Kanda loves him. Well, they have to have something that could kill their boredom in waiting for the two so Allen thought it is okay to ask.
Kanda stared at Allen though he could only see the top of the boy's head. He thought of what he would answer but nothing came in his mind. "Tch," he said, looking away.
Allen moved in front of the Japanese man (who was still holding Allen's hand). "I want to know, Kanda, tell me," Allen said excitedly, looking up at Kanda with big eyes. He really wants to know why Kanda loves him.
Kanda looked at Allen again (this time, he can clearly see Allen's face and how excited the bean sprout is in knowing his reason why he loves this little exorcist). But how can he answer a question he, himself, doesn't know?
"Please?" Allen pleaded with such dazzling eyes.
Well, Kanda couldn't possibly refuse such a cute boy in front of him, could he? He embraced Allen gently with his one hand (the other was still not letting go of Allen's hand) and sighed heavily in his mind.
Allen, on the other hand, blushed darkly at the man's sudden action as he felt shivers went down his spine. He suddenly felt anxious, knowing that Kanda is about to say the words why the man loves him.
"I don't know why the hell I fell for you, Moyashi. I hate naïve people and cursed ones like you. I hate people who couldn't keep their mouths shut— like you. I hate people who put their life for others— like you. In short, Moyashi, I hate people like you but…" Kanda thought of a word to say. "You're an exception. Moyashi, you're the one who made me feel this way so you should know the answer."
"Me?" Allen responded as he pulled away from the warm embrace. "But I didn't do anything," he said honestly.
The two were silent for a moment because Allen is thinking deeply while Kanda just stares at him. They were interrupted when the entrance door opened. Allen's and Kanda's attention were drawn by this and the two stared at the door as it revealed four persons.
Lavi was carrying Nathan who was sleeping and resting his head on the Rabbit's shoulder. Timothy was walking cheerfully even though it was already too late in the evening and Emilia never averted her eyes from the little thief.
"Welcome home," Allen greeted with a smile.
"Tadaima," Lavi said.
Nathan woke up when he heard Allen's voice. He opened his eyes and turned his head to face his Onii-san. "I'm home," he said as he got down from Lavi and stood up.
"Yuu!" Lavi shouted as he went near the Japanese exorcist. "I missed you!" he said as he hugged Kanda forcefully.
Kanda's brows twitched again with anger. "Baka Usagi. Get off me," he said as he held his Mugen, ready to cut the Rabbit.
Lavi get off from Kanda as a sweat dropped on the side of his cheek.
"Handsome," Emilia whispered and her heart-shaped eyes were looking at Kanda, hearts floating behind her.
Hearing Emilia's word, Timothy looked at his tutor, and then at the man she was looking at. He saw and walked in front of the Japanese man. He looked up at Kanda (Kanda is too tall for a short kid like him). "Yuu!" he shouted at the long-haired exorcist. (He knows Kanda's name because Lavi called Kanda that.)
Kanda looked angrily at the little kid who dared to call him by his name. His frown vanished quickly when he saw Timothy's face. "Alma?" he said subconsciously. The boy looks like Alma (for me, haha).
Lavi was surprised when he heard Alma's name (well, Lavi knows Kanda's past, they're best friends). "Yuu, he is not Alma, he is Timothy," Lavi corrected Kanda.
Kanda blinked and realized that this kid is very impossible to be Alma. He killed Alma after all. "Fuck, Moyashi, let's sleep," he said. He got in a bad mood, remembering his past. He looked at the bean sprout when his lover didn't even bother responding to him. He frowned angrily again when he saw Allen holding Nathan's both hands (well, Kanda subconsciously let go of Allen's hand earlier when he saw Timothy) and smiling at the boy with gratitude (Nathan gave Allen the gift). "MO-YA-SHI," Kanda called, putting stress in every syllable of Allen's pet name. Dark aura spread quickly and widely around them.
Feeling Kanda's dark aura, Allen looked at his lover and suddenly felt nervous when he realized what he was doing. He quickly let go of Nathan's hand and looked back at the boy. "We will sleep now, you too, Nathan-kun, goodnight, take care, sleep and rest well, ok?" he said fast.
"Ok, Onii-san," Nathan answered with a smile.
After hearing Nathan's answer, Allen quickly ran to Kanda and held the Japanese man's hand. "We're going Lavi, you two, I'll introduce myself tomorrow, sorry, goodnight," Allen said then dragged Kanda away.
The four just stared at them as they left.
When Allen and Kanda were far from those four, Allen stopped walking and turned to face Kanda, letting the Japanese exorcist see the light blush on his face. "I-I forgot the way," he said shyly.
"Don't show me that face, Moyashi, I'm mad," Kanda said when he saw Allen's cute face.
"Huh?" Allen couldn't believe what he heard. Did Kanda just say he didn't want to see Allen's face? (Well, Allen thinks that way because he always shows the Japanese man his usual face) "I'm sorry, Kanda, Nathan gave me a homecoming gift, that's why I was holding his hands. I'm really sorry, Kanda," he apologized sincerely.
But Kanda didn't give any response to the boy. He got mad because he just remembered Alma. Then, he saw Allen holding Nathan's hands… Fuck. He looked away from the bean sprout.
Seeing this, Allen frowned sadly. "Please don't say you don't want to see my face," he said, clutching Kanda's coat tightly.
Kanda couldn't help but smile because of his beloved's innocence. "Baka Moyashi," he whispered as he hugged Allen gently. "That's not what I mean," he said. He didn't really mean that he doesn't want to see Allen's face. It's just that when he sees the boy's face, his angriness vanishes quickly.
"But you said it," Allen said, looking at Kanda.
"Moyashi, you're really innocent," Kanda said as he cupped Allen's cheek, making the boy blush lightly. "And beautiful," he added then kissed the bean sprout's lips hungrily.
"Kanda…" Allen whispered surprised at Kanda's action. "What are—,"
"Shh…" Kanda shut Allen's mouth by capturing the boy's lips again. He pushed Allen to the wall first before roaming his tongue inside the boy's mouth.
Allen's clung to Kanda's sleeves tightly with both hands as he felt the Japanese man's tongue slowly but intensely tasting every part of his mouth. He blushed darkly and he couldn't breathe. Kanda is such a good kisser. He sighed contentedly in his mind when Kanda sucked his lower lip which means that Kanda is about to end the kiss. It's not that he doesn't like it. It just feels like he's going to die if the kiss continues longer.
Kanda stared at the flushed face of Allen. The boy also looked back at him with half-lidded eyes and he smirk with arrogance.
"BaKanda, you really like doing this to me," Allen said as he hugged Kanda. He rested his head on the taller man's shoulder as he tried to calm his breathing.
Lavi was sitting on Nathan's bed. "Goodnight, kid," Lavi said as he removed the strands of hair that covered Nathan's face who was lying on the bed comfortably.
"You're not going to sleep with me, Lavi-san?" Nathan asked the Bookman Jr.
Lavi got surprised at the boy's question. "N-No," he answered with a smile. Bookman will surely scold me if I attach myself to you too much. "Goodnight," he said again, giving Nathan a quick kiss on the forehead then on the lips.
"Goodnight, Lavi-san," Nathan told Lavi.
Lavi stood and held the door knob. But before he could twist it, he turned his head to look at Nathan again. Leave or stay with this kid a little longer? Surely, Bookman will not allow Lavi to stick with Nathan anymore because Nathan will definitely be used to the life of an exorcist here in the Order in the next few days. "Kid," he called Nathan as he sat on the bed again. He pulled Nathan up and made the boy straddle his lap.
"Why, Lavi-san?" Nathan asked as he rested his head on Lavi's shoulder. He's already tired because of the long trip and he really wanted to sleep now.
Kiss for one last time? Lavi lifted Nathan's face, making the boy look at him directly in the eyes.
Nathan stared at Lavi with confusion. Lavi suddenly became so passionate to him. "Lavi-san?" he whispered, blushing lightly as he saw the older exorcist's eyes looking only at him.
"I like you," Lavi said before kissing Nathan passionately on the lips. He could hear Nathan's cute moans as he dominated the boy's mouth. Lavi couldn't get enough of this so he moved his right hand at the back of Nathan's head to deepen the kiss more while his other hand hugged Nathan tightly so he could feel more of the younger exorcist's body heat.
"Ngh!" Nathan whimpered when Lavi bit his lip hardly, causing a little amount of blood to flow down his chin. Tears fell down his eyes as he felt the pain. He clutched Lavi's sleeves tightly with both hands and tried to push Lavi away from him. Lavi is kissing him so roughly that it hurts him. He wanted Lavi to stop kissing him now.
The kiss lasted longer than what Lavi intended. He pulled away from the kiss and looked at panting kid. He was surprised when he saw Nathan crying, with a little amount of blood just below the boy's chin. Crap! I was rough.
"No more, Lavi-san…" Nathan whispered, looking at the older exorcist with teary eyes.
Lavi closed his eyes. He sighed deeply first before looking at Nathan again. "I'm sorry," he apologized as he wiped Nathan's tears (also the blood) away with his thumb.
"What's wrong, Lavi-san?" Nathan asked, cupping Lavi's cheeks with his small hands so he could see the older man's face clearly. Lavi is acting strange.
"What if I leave you, kid?" Lavi asked out of the blue.
"Huh? No…" Nathan said, surprised at Lavi's sudden question. "You're not going to leave me, right? You said you like me… I like you too, Lavi-san. You won't leave me… you won't…" Nathan answered, scared if Lavi will truly leave him.
Lavi smiled at how Nathan answered. It was very obvious that the boy didn't want him to leave. "I was just asking," he said before burying his face on Nathan's neck. "I like you," he breathed against Nathan's neck, sending shivers to the kid. He kissed the young exorcist's neck before sucking on it lightly.
"Haah…" Nathan moaned cutely. He gripped Lavi's hair tightly but carefully (so he wouldn't hurt Lavi) with both hands. "L-Lavi-san… nnn… A-Are you a…v-vampire?"
Hearing Nathan's question, Lavi smiled as he tried to leave a mark on Nathan's pale skin. Once done, he looked at Nathan again. He smirked when he saw the boy's flushed face. Then, he looked at the mark he just left and touched it lightly, making Nathan shiver. Mine. The Bookman Jr. hugged Nathan gently. "Sleep," he commanded.
Nathan smiled and rested his head on Lavi's shoulder then, he closed his eyes. "Goodnight, Lavi-san," he managed to say before drifting off to sleep.
"Goodnight."
Lavi stayed there for a while before laying Nathan carefully on the bed. Then he went out of Nathan's room.
…
"Aren't you getting a little too close to that kid?" Bookman suddenly appeared out of nowhere, making Lavi still for a moment.
Lavi was just a few meters away from Nathan's room when Bookman appeared— which means the Old Panda was watching him. "I'm just playing around, Old Panda" he told the Bookman.
This is what he was trying to avoid— to be caught by the Bookman. Good thing, his playboy personality can be used as an excuse.
"That'd better be true, Lavi," Bookman told the red-haired exorcist.
FF
Lavi went to his room and quickly threw himself on the bed. He faced the ceiling and thought deeply.
"Kanda, wake up!" Allen shouted. He was sitting on Kanda's stomach and trying to pull his lover up. Komui wants to see them in the office but this Japanese man here wouldn't wake up. "Kanda!" he shouted again as he pinched his beloved's nose.
Kanda opened his eyes angrily and held the hand that was pinching his nose, preventing him from breathing. He glared at his bean sprout who was very loud this morning. He, then, rolled over and pushed the Moyashi down on the bed. (Now, he was on top) Kanda's left hand was still holding Allen's while his other hand was on the pillow, just beside Allen's face for support. He stared at the bean sprout with his intense eyes.
Allen blushed as he felt his heart skipped a beat (Kanda's face is too close to his). He stared at Kanda with his big eyes and waited for what the older man has to say. He bit his lip when he felt the strands of Kanda's hair touched his neck and face.
"When will you heal, Moyashi?" Kanda whispered before sucking Allen's neck.
"Ah!" Allen moaned, surprised at Kanda's sudden action. "B-BaKanda… you… pervert… ah…" he breathed, knowing what Kanda means. (Me: Allen, you're improving!)
Kanda just ignored Allen's words. He unbuttoned the boy's shirt impatiently.
"Kanda… K-Komui-san's waiting…" Allen informed the Japanese exorcist.
"Who is more important, Moyashi?" Kanda asked against the bean sprout's neck, sending shivers to Allen.
"B-BaKanda, don't… haaah…" Allen moaned when he felt Kanda's hands wandering from his chest down his to his stomach. "Kanda, Komui-san's going to scold us— ah! No… don't play with my ni- ah! Kanda… please…"
Kanda just stared at Allen as his hands played with the bean sprout's nipples. He was enjoying every response Allen would make every time he teases the boy.
"Stop now, Kanda…" Allen said while he held Kanda's wrists with both hands, trying to stop Kanda's hands from teasing him. "Please…" he pleaded, looking at Kanda directly in the eyes.
"Just a little more, Allen," Kanda said as he kissed the side of Allen's eye. Allen was about to cry but he really didn't want to stop now.
"Just… Just a little more, Kanda… just little, ok?" Allen agreed, closing his eyes to feel more of the pleasure Kanda was giving him.
FF
"Moyashi," Kanda called his lover. They were sitting on the sofa in Komui's office. Komui just scolded both of them.
"Hmp!" Allen looked at Nathan (who was sitting beside him, Komui said it) to avoid meeting his lover's eyes. He got mad at his lover because Kanda's 'just a little more' took so long. Exactly what does little mean to Kanda?
All the other exorcists and some scientists were also called here. Even Cross is here. Bookman and Lavi were standing near the wall.
"You're all here because there's information you all need to know," Komui started. "It may not be important for others but still, you should know about it."
"Hmmm… What could it be, Kanda?" Allen whispered to his lover as he looked at Kanda.
Kanda looked back at him with annoyed eyes. Allen just forgot that he is mad at Kanda.
Allen stared at Kanda with confusion. Why was Kanda looking at him like that? "Eh? Waah! I'm mad at you!" he shouted as he pushed Kanda.
"Idiot pupil!" Cross shouted as he looked at Allen angrily. "Be serious here, it's about you," he told the boy.
Me? Allen bowed his head and thought deeply. Did I do something wrong? Or is it me— having the memories of the Noah? He suddenly felt anxious, not knowing what that information is.
Knowing what is going on in Allen's mind, Kanda held his beloved's hand to comfort the boy. Allen just gripped Kanda's hand as a response.
"Listen," Cross said seriously, catching all the attention. He looked at Allen seriously then to Nathan. He sighed first before opening his mouth to talk. "Allen, Nathan is your younger brother."