JPOV
I had practically ruined Edward's life. He was my favourite brother and had made his life miserable. I didn't approve of Bella, but this was too much. I covered my face with my hands, surrounded by the now constant emotions of anger, misery and terror. They were better off without me.
"You won't really leave me, will you?" a voice I could recognise anywhere said.
I looked up wearily and saw Alice looking miserable. I opened my arms and she curled into my lap. She rested her head in the crook of my neck.
"Will you?" she repeated.
"Alice… you deserve better than me. I've brought this family nothing more than misery." I sighed.
"We've been together so long. How can you still not know how much I love you?" she whimpered.
"I love you too, Alice. But how could you love a monster like me?"
"Please, you're all I want. If you leave, then I leave. And we're not leaving so it's pretty much a moot point. So you changed a annoying twerp into a vampire? Big deal! Things will work out." She said.
"You know that for sure?" I asked.
"Gimme a sec."
I felt her turn rigid with concentration.
"Mike will leave us soon, I think. Edward loves you still, Jazz. We all do. Things will be back to normal soon."
She felt scared, though.
EPOV
I was trying to not show or feel my nervous and excited emotions around Jasper. I would see Bella in a few short hours for school. I was possibly going to be exposed in a few short hours.
I was restless. Every time I saw Newton coming, I dodged into the other room.
"Edward!" He would call.
You're acting like bitch. He would think.
Poor Edward. Alice would think.
"You leave him alone!" Alice had said when she heard Mike calling to me for the seventh time that night.
I walked to the piano and sat down, letting my fingers flow across the smooth ivory. I composed different melodies and tried to smooth them together. I didn't bother to write the music down, I had memory for that. Bella's face invaded my mind and I found myself influencing the music around her. This was Bella's song.
My face lit up. Bella was asleep right now. She would be for another five hours or so. I changed quickly and ran to her house.
I slid the window open silently and climbed in. She was snoring very lightly. Her hair was fanning out across her pillow. The moonlight slid over her face and her eyelashes cast shadows across her cheek.
I sat in the rocking chair and stared at every detail of her flawless features. I hardly noticed the overwhelming scent invading my throat. I was too absorbed with her right now to notice something as trivial as her scent. I had hunted within the last few days. I was safe around her.
Inspiration hit me. I started humming the song I had composed for her very quietly. She smiled in her sleep. I kept at it and her arms relaxed ever more while her smile widened.
The breeze from the open window carried through her room and the scent hit me. It was intoxicating, though I tried not to notice. I held my breath at first, and then inhaled slowly. It was getting easier to resist my burning throat.
I knew that this was risky. Bella was asleep and oh so vulnerable. I couldn't resist the temptation for a simple test. It would be more difficult if she were awake, so it was better to be sure now. I had no doubt in my mind. I could never hurt Bella. This would be safe for her.
I got up slowly and quietly. I walked towards her beautiful, sleeping form and bent down. Her breath hit my face and the fire scorched but I resisted. I leant even closer still and pressed my lips to her lips with the smallest of pressure.
The scent was nearly unbearable but manageable. I pulled away and staggered backwards, not wanting to tempt the fates. This was wrong.
I loved her so much. She didn't love me. She couldn't. Who could love a monster like me? Cold as I was and so… strange. I had been cruel to her when she first arrived. I had made her first experience here hell. Being rude and not explaining things… I must have been a nightmare.
"Edward… I love you." Bella murmured in her sleep.
My heart dropped into my stomach and the world began to spin. She loved me. Bella Swan loved me too. Maybe even a fractional piece of how I felt for her but she still loved me. That was enough.
This was wrong.
Bella deserved someone good and pure… someone human with a soul and beating heart. She deserved the world and not some vampire with the constant urge to kill her. But I was a selfish monster. A selfish monster that was hopelessly in love and had given up on staying away from the best part of his life.
"I won't leave you." I murmured softly. "I love you."
I looked back on her smiling face once more and jumped out the window. I had better go back and check on Newton. Reality had a way of interrupting heaven.