Dear Journal,
Guess what?
Koizumi started the 'Maity Club' now! Which is completely pointless. I hate watching Koizumi stray to the 'dark side' like this...ugh.
I've gotta stop her somehow...but I can't, really. Short entry, sorry. But I'm gonna leave it at that. 'Night.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
Today, I lost against Maitake again. This is really frustrating.
But then...I said something that really wasn't nessecary.
Maitake kept bugging me about how Koizumi likes me...I know that. He didn't need to remind me.
So then he told me 'Do something or I'll take her for myself' and then that made me really angry. I don't know why I said this...but I did.
"Do what you want! It's not like I like Koizumi or anything!"
Which isn't true...as I've stated before, I actually think I do like her...
But...I just wanted to get him off my back...
Then I realized one detail.
Koizumi was standing right there.
I said that right to her face, and it's not even true.
I'm really depressed right now...I'm going to end it here.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
I didn't write in a few days because I didn't see the point.
Anyway, today, I guess I really screwed up. I tripped over the basketball in practice today and injured my foot...even though it's only a minor injury, I must look pretty stupid limping around and dragging my foot. Koizumi apparently took notice of this, so later, she offered to take me home on a double-seated bike. At first, I thought it looked childish and said I could walk on my own...even though it would have tired me out. Then that disgusting Maitake wanted to take me home, so naturally I refused. Then he offered to take Koizumi home. Then I couldn't stand it. I grabbed Koizumi's arm and yelled "Listen here, I'm the one she likes! She'd never fall for someone like you!" Then, I told Koizumi to take me home. She didn't understand, but took me anyway. You know, I don't understand why I did that either. I guess because I can't stand him...but it kind of just slipped out. I guess things tend to 'slip out' of my mouth a lot.
I was really angry at him though...
Then Koizumi cleared up that I'm apparently not the one she likes anymore.
I know that...and I'll admit that it stings a bit to hear it from Koizumi herself...just a bit.
But then, we got busted by the police for riding tandem. Not any fun at all.
'Night.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
I haven't been this angry in a while!
And I don't even know why I'm angry!
Okay, maybe I do and just don't want to talk about it...
You know why, I'm sure.
MAITAKE!
He drives me insane!
He's like a father to Koizumi but she likes him, and it's disgusting.
It drives me mad...
I dunno. I'm just having serious mood swings right now. I'm so sick of hearing 'It's all part of being a teenager' from everyone I talk to! They don't understand! That may be true, I guess, but not what I want to hear.
Everyone's driving me insane...
Maitake, Haruka, and just...everyone!
I'm going to bed...
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
Today, Koizumi took me on the double-seated bike again. I decided to go along with it this time...but I pedalled instead.
So then, things started to get a bit less tense...and I was really happy. It was the first time I had actually laughed in a while...then I started considering if I really did like Koizumi a little more than I thought...but then she said these exact words. "I know I've said a lot that's troubled you up until now...but I won't say any more. Seriously, for real this time, I'm really going to stop liking you."
I didn't know how to react...so I didn't say anything. I just acted like she hadn't said anything...
If that's what she wants...then I'll go along with it. I've done so much to her that's troubled her as well...so she deserves to be happy.
I do want to see her be happy again.
So...I can't complain.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
I'm up and running again since my foot's fine now!
And I won against Maitake, finally. I'm victorious at last.
Since the basketball comp is this weekend, I'm really looking forward to it. Bring it on, whoever's challenging us!
Koizumi decided to make me lemons in honey to cheer me on. But I'm scared of what it'll taste like. So I'm looking forward to the game hoping that Koizumi's lemons in...well, whatever kind of liquid she decides to subsitute for honey, knowing her...anyway, I'm hoping that whatever they're in, they won't make me sick, ha! But oh well, I'll eat them anyway because I know that she tries hard.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
This isn't good. Not good at all.
Our challengers...are last year's champions!
So there's no way that we'll make it to the finals like I hoped...
I can't believe this.
Now it doesn't matter if I eat Koizumi's mystery lemons.
We're gonna lose anyway.
- Atsushi Otani
Dear Journal,
The match went somewhat well today, I'm content with it.
When I met the challengers, they were really huge.
I lost all spirit. But thanks to Koizumi, I regained my confidence. She came to cheer for me, and worked on her 'Otani club' headwear and sign all night, according to what she said. That was kind of embarrassing, but I appreciated it anyway because she worked so hard on it.
I played a good game, I must say. Even though we lost.
But oh well.
It's thanks to Koizumi for still cheering for me, though my team had no hope of winning, she did it anyway.
So then me and Koizumi sat on a bench in the park and I daringly ate the lemons. It turns out I was right, she apparently didn't have any honey and subsituted rice wine for it.
It was disgusting.
But disgustingly delicious. I can't describe it.
I guess...uh...it had that 'homemade' touch. It's the thought that counts, heheh.
So anyway, moving on...
She told me that she's fallen for me again...and I feel somewhat relieved for some reason.
So then, I told her not to give up on me...and I also said this.
"I guess I'm just no good without you, Koizumi."
I couldn't really believe I had just said that, but I didn't take it back...because it's the truth.
Then I look, and she's not even listening. She fell asleep.
It couldn't be helped...oh well. She did stay up all night after all.
Then, she leaned a little to the left...and ended up leaning on my shoulder. I couldn't help but smile. It was then that it hit me.
No uncertainty anymore...
I really do like Koizumi.
- Atsushi Otani
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*Author's note...
Thanks for reading up until now. I'm about at the halfway point of the story.
I do notice that I skipped a few parts of the series, like the honmei chocolate episode, but oh well...XD It was just now that I started watching it over and writing events as I watch it. That works a little better.
It's really fun to be in Otani character, I love it!
Also, if people like it from here on, when I finish writing his view on events in the series, I could write journal entries from things that I assume would happen after the series. Tell me if I should.
Thanks!
-Superchibi
P.S --
Koizumi: FALCON PAAAWNCH!
I just had to. XDD
Oh yeah, to those of you who took the part about the lemons wrong...no intended refrence to, um, THAT kind of lemon. XDD Actual lemons, I mean. I know it sounds a little wrong if you think of it that way, lol...*