Dear Journal,
Oh man...a day after and Koizumi's already just about ready to tell the world with that big mouth of hers all about...uh...this and that...
But she's acting like a total airhead because of 'this and that' and seems so happy...and it's all kind of hard to process, but...when she looks that happy and smiles like that...for once, I think it's kind of...cute...? Is that the word to describe it? I usually wouldn't describe her as cute, but it works in this situation, I think.
As much as I try to hide it...I'm as happy as she is, though I don't express it like she does by skipping around town and flailing my arms around like an idiot.
But anyway...I had a long conversation with Koizumi about what happened last night and how she shouldn't tell anyone about it...and that was very awkward to talk about, because I got that feeling like my face was on fire, but of course I wouldn't tell anyone that outside of this journal.
But the embarrassing part is...
All Koizumi's friends and the guys heard the whole thing. They were apparently eavesdropping from upstairs.
Urgh...
Gaaaahh! I'm gonna end it here, my sister's spacing out and throwing my favorite shirt into the washing machine! It's handwash only! I'll go more into detail later. THAT SHIRT IS FROM MY GRANDMAAAA~!
- Atsushi Otani
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Dear Journal,
I'm kinda annoyed.
Koizumi and I went to eat again today and I gave her a ticket to the world championships. (well actually, more like I let her know I had it and we were going together, because I had suspicions that she'd probably lose it or something like that due to her forgetfulness so I kept it for her). But anyway, then she ran into someone she apparently hadn't seen in a while.
So then he asked if we were together, and she was pretty quick to say "Ah, no, we're just friends!"
And then her friend said "Of course, I remember, you did always say you wouldn't want a guy who's shorter than you as your boyfriend."
That wasn't exactly the part that annoyed me, even if it did kind of sting.
How can we be 'just friends' as she puts it, even after...'this and that'?
She asked me if I was angry, and...I lied, 'Not really'.
She then brought up that she said the stuff about not wanting a boyfriend shorter than her a while ago, then, I was really close to saying "You...! I'm more to you than a friend, right?!" but I ended up not finishing my sentence, I just got up and left. I'm kind of wondering if I should have actually said that...agghh! I'm confused!
Ugh...'night.
- Atsushi Otani
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Dear Journal,
Today, Koizumi and I went on our first date.
I have a feeling this will be a long entry, heheh.
So at first, Koizumi was really late, but that's okay, because it gave me a lot of time to think things over. I was thinking things like...
'Since Koizumi likes me back...wouldn't it only make sense for her to be my girlfriend? I don't care what others say about how strange we look together...I like her and that's all that matters. So today...I'll figure out some way to surprise her with the fact that I want her to be my girlfriend when I get the opportunity...somehow.'
So then she finally came. Then she made a big deal over how she forgot her handbag, so it's sure a good thing I held onto her ticket.
Anyway, so then when we got there, it was all amazing! But Koizumi didn't seem to enjoy it very much. She wasn't really paying much attention, and she kept on sighing over and over...so I pulled her off to the side to talk to her.
Then she started crying all of the sudden, and just over how she forgot her handbag. I dunno, I don't understand girls very much.
So then, I don't know how I got the idea to tell her, but I decided to tell her about last time at the resturant about what made me angry.
I didn't say it as calmly as I would have liked, but...I told her straight-forwardly, "I wouldn't kiss a girl who I considered 'just a friend'!"
Then, I thought that this could maybe link to how I wanted to tell her that I wanted her as my girlfriend...but I could never get around to that because I was kind of beating around the bush. I guess I was kind of nervous...even though I don't know why. I'm sure she likes me, so I'm not sure why that was so nerve-wrecking for me.
So then...she starts crying again...and then she suddenly repeats out of the blue, "I like you!" and she continued to say the same thing over and over. "I really like you, Otani! I love you! I'm in love with you!" and I was honestly kind of shocked about her timing...and oh man, I must have looked like a loser. I thought I was going to die. My face was practically burning off. I tried to stop her on reflex, by yelling "I get it!" but she persisted as always, and I'm kind of glad she did, honestly...then, she repeated, "I love you!" and I said "I know". Then she asked me this one question: "And you love me too...right, Otani?!" I don't know why I took so long to answer, because I was sure of what I was going to say...but I was trying to process it all, so I got kind of flustered...and I finally replied with "Yes" but it came out as "Mm". I was hoping that wasn't too much of a nonchalant answer, because I did mean it, but...aaagh, whatever, blame it on my dialect...but she was satisfied, so it's all good, I think.
Then, we realized...
We were being watched on the display screen the whole time by everyone in the stadium! We got filmed!
I acted like I was really embarrassed about it...but actually, I didn't mind that much. I was actually kind of...happy about what had just happened, so I wasn't thinking about being filmed. Not like anyone I know was there, except for Mimi and Kanzaki, but I don't care if they saw.
Anyway, so then she told me "You've stolen my heart, Otani. It's not fair. I want to steal yours too." and this just slipped out of my mouth, "Idiot, mine's not easy to steal." I thought that over, and I was thinking, 'Who am I kidding? She's already stolen it...just a little bit...' so I basically...kinda...lied because I was flustered.
Anyway, so then I told her to get me some juice if she wanted to 'steal my heart', so she went. I found myself staring after her, and wondered why I've been denying that I've fallen for her all this time.
Then, I saw Kanzaki. She apparently came with the giant since they got back together.
Then I turned around because Kanzaki pointed out that there was 'someone there'.
So there was Koizumi, and she was all groveled on the floor for what I thought was 'for whatever reason', but it turns out that she blistered her foot because she wore shoes and clothes that she wasn't used to.
So then I told Kanzaki that I would handle it, and she asked what Koizumi's name was again because she forgot.
So then I figured...'That's my opportunity right there.' and said, "Koizumi Risa...she's my girlfriend." the time was also right, because I could tell that Koizumi was probably confused since I was talking to Kanzaki again, because she was obviously on the brink of tears at the moment.
Then I cleared up to her that Kanzaki's back with the giant.
She asked if I was okay with having a girlfriend like her...then I started to understand her a little more. Maybe that's why she was crying because she lost her handbag...
So then I told her, "This happened because you got carried away and wore clothes you aren't used to." then she said just a few words that just so happened to 'steal my heart' a little more. "This is our first date though. I wanted to look a little cuter for you...just a little!"
So then afterwards, Koizumi cried the entire time, through the entire championships. Honestly, she cries over the smallest things. But oh well, that's okay, I don't mind. I'll admit I can be overdramatic too, so I can't really talk.
But now, I'm glad that she's finally back to how she normally is.
If she's happier...I'm a lot happier too.
- Atsushi Otani
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(Author's note: Ahh~ only a few more chapters to go and I'll have written Otani entries for the whole series! I feel so accomplished o Lol. I may be going a bit over-the-top with the whole thing of Otani falling for Koizumi, but I'm going for making him a little easier to understand. XD I'm also considering doing entries for an assumption of what happens after the series to draw it out a little more, because whenever I finish a fanfic, I start to miss it. ;-; But I love being in Otani character, because it's something new. XD It's a little bit hard to make him actually sound like a guy since I'm a girl and all, but it's still really fun to do it from his point of view lol. So yeah~ hope you guys like it so far! Please keep the feedback coming, I really appreciate it.
- Superchibi)