Please beware of the rating. Heavy T because there are a lot of things alluding to molestation.
I'm going to attempt to update more often, sorry! :)
-Livia
Once upon a time there was a little princess who was sent to a faraway kingdom a long ways away from her home. She didn't want to go, at first.
She cried for days, and wouldn't eat. Wore a pout and snapped at this other princess who just wanted to be friends with her. It got better, though.
She started enjoying the things she was learning at the pretty kingdom. Decided painting and reading was fun and that she didn't really need her Mommy.
The Mommy who had sent her here and hadn't said goodbye.
The princess became best friends with the other princess, too. Her name was Caroline, and she had long hair that was the color of the sun, and blue eyes too.
Princess Caroline smelled like berries, and had a funny laugh. She gave the princess a paint set for her birthday. Mommy hadn't been there.
Then, one day, she had to go home, all of a sudden. The princess didn't want to.
But Caroline had said that it was only for a little while, and they would see each other soon. Then, the princess got on a big plane and left the pretty kingdom she'd come to like.
The end.
Car tires screech as vehicles quickly pull away from the curb at the loading area. Trunks slam noisily as children's bags are thrown into the back hastily and with little care.
Lillian Shepard sits with her big pink tote, just outside the automatic doors.
A smelly man and a cute puppy sit a little ways down the sidewalk.
She thinks he looks a little funny since he won't stop talking to himself, or to people he obviously doesn't know. Mommy said never to talk to strangers.
A few moments later, a woman with big dark sunglasses and red hair (kind of like Mommy's) walks up and says her name brightly, white teeth gleaming in the afternoon heat.
She pulls Lilly into her arms and makes some guy in a funny suit take her bag.
It makes Lilly disgruntled, being tugged and hearing all this noise at the same time, so quickly. She gets into the air conditioned back seat with the woman, biting her little pink lip.
The woman who sits next to her is supposed to be her Mommy, although everything inside the six year old screams this isn't true.
This woman smelled like rubbing alcohol and flowers, and wore too much make-up. She wore a fancy suit and pursed her lips a lot. This woman looked mean; which was not her mother.
Lilly could not, for the life of her, remember this car. It was sleek and black and mommy never liked black cars.
Everything inside the little girl rejected this woman. She was not her mother.
But this woman hugged like her mother, and that made it all okay.
Then, once they were finally situated it the car, the woman fell silent. Everything was silent. The air conditioning buzzed as the car bumped along on the uneven streets, and nobody said a word. Her Mommy got on her phone.
Lilly didn't know why, but she kind of wanted to cry.
Without looking up, her Mommy says, "I have somebody I want you to meet."
Jenny Shepard doesn't notice that the six year old is shaking her head back and forth and her lower lip is trembling.
There's another car in the driveway of the home she hasn't seen in four months.
And it's not Nanny's.
The man takes her bag and her Mommy grabs her hand and she's pulled along like a rag doll again. Lilly doesn't really like dolls much.
Then, they're inside, and it's all familiar again. Lilly misses the oak floors, the comfortable lighting. She can even smell the food Noemi has cooked the evening prior. She wants to run up to her room, tries to, in fact, but Mommy has her arm and won't let go.
Lilly bites her lip again. It's almost raw now.
They walk into the kitchen. Mommy has been saying things, but sometimes Lilly can't hear people when they talk, and she's in thought. It happens a lot, actually.
Seated at the bar, there is a man.
He has really dark eyes. They narrow upon her, and make her want to run even more than she did to begin with. He makes her uncomfortable.
Mommy says his name is Bob.
After Mommy makes Lilly say 'hi' and all that, she lets her go upstairs to her room.
The walls have been painted white, and her tummy feels funny. Again.
A part of her wants to go ask her mother about it, but the other part hears her mother and Bob laughing really loudly downstairs, and doesn't want to.
Nanny didn't make dinner. Mommy says Nanny has gone away for a few days. Lilly really misses the woman.
Mommy keeps asking her questions about school. So many questions, her head spins. She tries to answer one, but then her mother asks another one, and she's off track again. Bob is still there, though he rarely says anything.
Mommy must like his presence, though, Lilly thinks, because she has no problem holding his hand. She tries to not think about how he won't stop watching her.
How she does not like it at all.
Red hair tickles her cheek as her mother kisses her forehead and tucks her in.
She tries not to think about how Bob still hasn't gone home.
Lilly does, however, think it really funny that he and Mommy sleep in the same bed.
The clock strikes midnight, and her door creaks open. Lilly is still awake, because she can never sleep when she's thinking so much.
Her first thought is to ask who it is, but suddenly there's a big, warm hand over her mouth. Every muscle freezes. Lilly's eyes widen in an unhealthy way.
It's Bob. He's whispering in her ear, and telling her not to say anything.
He wants to show her something really special. Something they can only do if she's really quiet.
When it's over, and her cheeks are red and flushed and her small fists clenched tight around the pink bed sheets, she won't let herself think anymore.
Bob keeps saying that Mommy will be really mad at her if she says a word.
He says it's 'their little secret'.
Lilly Shepard tries as she might not to think about how Mommy said secrets are bad.
Because Mommy says a lot of things. She promises a lot, too.
She never says anything about Bob again, and on her next visit home he's just not there.
An itty bitty part of her kind of misses him. One night, in her room at boarding school, she bites her lip so hard it starts to bleed.
Once upon a time there was a little princess who grew up.
She started smiling at the little princes in her class. A princess she played with, Caroline, said she was acting funny.
She started ignoring Caroline a little bit.
Then, all of a sudden, the princess found out you could paint anything you wanted to.
She also found out that when an older man touched you, you had to tell someone immediately. The teacher who said it acted so serious and unhappy when she was telling all the little princesses about it.
The little princess decided she didn't wanna make anyone sad or unhappy.
The end.
Lillian Shepard lost a sense of her innocence.
And no one noticed.
A/N- Sometimes, when I write, things come out that don't usually come out. But, before I get any PM's about it, yes, something similar happened to me, and yes. I am seeing a counselor.
Many would believe that because Jenny did not notice she is a bad mom. That is not the case, nor do I think she is. Everyone has their own flaws, and Jenny's is being a little full of herself. Driven.
And in life, bad things can happen to good people.
As I originally said, this was not meant to be a happy go lucky story. :)