So you don't get confused:
This is normal talk, this is Ritsu thinking. ( it can also be a flashback or thought)
Hope you enjoy the chapter :)
Since it was the weekend and everyone else was busy, and since Mio was with Kyousuke again... I couldn't hold my urge to step outside. Of course it wasn't easy with all the stares I received from the people as if looking at an alien.
Come on people, never saw someone with a paralyzed arm?
I walked through a park and several buildings, but a certain bridge captured my eyes the most. It felt agonizing. A nostalgic feeling streamed through my body and I knew I had to check it out. But my feet were glued to the pavement. I stared at it nervously until I noticed many cars driving- with incredible speed- under it.
Ahh! I noticed it wasn't the bridge, it was the cars that frightened me.
But out of all the places with cars why is it that it is this place that captures me the most. And feels so nostalgic?
"Was it here that I...?"
" Ah it's you! That girl!" It was a small man with torn off clothes standing beside the garbage bags, he yelled out to me looking stunned. " The girl with the red arm who got hit by a car." His index finger was pointing towards me as I looked at the direction of it in shock.
" Is that so..."
I knew the reason for my accident, but never had it occurred to me that finding out about it in more detail - the place it happened in- would... make me feel so scared.
" The girl with the black aura... which painted the white swung turn into a black swung," he mumbled.
" What?" I looked up.
" They say you had been pushed by a passer-by - the girl who's wings were torn off."
I stared at him with a confused look. " What the fuck?"
Suddenly he kept decreasing the distance in between us. " Why? Why would you do that? Why would you want to loose your wings? Isn't that a part of you! You knew it was going to make you feel miserable... and now look at you, black swung, you are." He kept swinging his arms in every direction. He was insane, uncontrollable, taking a few steps back I ran towards home, in complete shock.
" Wait! Your k-!" I heard his voice faintly reach my ears from afar, but soon cut off by noises from the traffic.
I fell down face flat on my bed while giving out a big sigh. " It was..." I shook my head in confusion.
" I was hit with a car real bad, wasn't I?" words escaped my lips, " Wonder how I survived that."
Silence filled the room and as realisation came to me that I was in a daze I continued, "What did the old man mean? My knife? Red arm? Why would I... want to loose my wings? But why me? It wasn't my fault...right?" The questions kept piling up inside my head and the confusion kept my head hurting more and more. I knew only one thing and no matter how freaked out it made me I knew that I had to return and talk to him, once more.
I wouldn't go there. My head swished in every direction looking for the source of the voice.
" Who? " I continued in the same motion.
It's me, well I mean it's you, ughh, I'm Ritsu.
" But I'm me?" I whispered in complete shock, more shocked at the fact that I might not be myself.
I know you are, I'm just part of you... you know whatever, just listen. Don't go there, it's no good. Got it.
" Man... am I becoming insane now... it's one thing after another isn't it," I moaned.
You're not. Just ... don't go, got it?'
" Why am I contracting myself?" I asked in complete confusing.
You're not, I'm inside your subconscious, and you don't want to go. So that's it, stay home and play video games.
" Hahaha funny... I'm going," I said in an annoyed tone.
As I took a step forward I became enwrapped in darkness and I began to see several flashbacks running in front of me like on an old projector. I saw flashbacks that made me sad, angry, happy. And when I reopened my eyes, I was lying on my bed with a small ray of sun penetrating through the window onto my face. It was morning. And I realized that everything that happened after I came home was merely a dream. The other me, the flashbacks...but what were those flashbacks about? Hmm...
" Mio..." I whispered her name softly which could be resounded through the noisy chirping of the birds outside.
Was this dream showing reality? Did I truly not want to go to that old man? Was Mio involved in this?'
I didn't know, but for a curious person such as myself, I was sure pumped up to find out.
First things first, let's give Mio a visit, I told myself with an impish look in my eyes.
I stood and waited for myself to make a move. The sun was stinging my eyes and the cold wind made my bones chill. This was the worst weather since the start of April.
" I hate this..." I mumbled through my scarf.
Taking one more step forward and reaching for the doorbell, I was soon engulfed by the sweet-scented and warm breeze coming from the inside of the house. The door creaked open until there could be seen a thin silhouette with black silky hair and pale white skin as snow. Her jet black eyes gazed at me with perseverance.
Was she... always this beautiful? I thought to myself in awe.
" Ah, Ritsu." Mio looked at me, a little startled.
" Ah, yea, hey." I walked towards her, making her move back from the door and letting me in. " What's up?" I said as I took off my shoes and coat.
" Nothing really." She began to walk towards the living room, and I soon followed.
" I'm glad the security let's me in without your approval now," I told her not awaiting for an answer.
Soon after I gave off a sigh, "I'm jealous," I told her as my head looked around the large spaced hallway.
Mio stayed silent, as she was too embarrassed to talk about her large mansion.
" So what is it that you want?" She asked me as I took a seat on the fashionable couch.
" Awww, Mio... you don't have to be so mean," I pouted, " I just came cause I wanted to see ya." I winked at her while giving her a large grin.
" Pffft, I'm sure you..." She was interrupted before she could continue by a young girl standing beside her in white and black clothes.
"I beg your pardon, Mio-sama, but is there anything you and your guest want?"
She looked up at the girl. " Green Tea for me please," pausing, she stared at me.
I sighed and looked at her with worried eyes, " Anything with alcohol, Mai-san..."
The girl looked at me with surprise but I only received glares from Mio, knowing my joke failed I laughed, " Hahaha, I'm joking, sad how the Akiyama residence can't take anything for a joke..."
" We do too, it's just that your jokes aren't funny," Mio explained.
Ignoring her I continued with my order, " I'll have a coke."
As she turned her back towards the kitchen I spoke up, " Aren't skirts nice...but I can see your panties, Mai-san!" I screamed out for full effect. More than teasing Mai-san, I loved the expressions Mio gave me because of it.
" Eeeek," I could hear Mai-san scream which was in sync with Mio's yell, "Ritsu!" she began to turn red, " Don't talk to her like that!" And as if expecting it I received a thwack on the head. Before I could re-open my eyes, Mai-san was gone to the kitchen.
" Oh come on, I was merely playing," I gave a weak cry.
" You should learn manners, Ritsu! "
" Pffft," I gave a small chuckle, " you know you love it. I bet even now you wish it was you in her place."
" Please... you're so immature." She traced her fingers on her forehead.
" Yea, I bet Kyousuke isn't as immature as me," I sulked while staring at the window beside us.
She immediately put her hand down and gave me 'the look'. " When did Kyousuke come into this conversation?" One of her eyebrows rose.
" Just now," I said while continuing to sulk.
Mio stared at me, but I could feel her smile. " Oh well, if it's like that, than yes, he is more mature than you."
I turned towards her- hurt with the words -to see her wearing a smile. Before I could complain she began talking, " But, you're you, you may be immature, a goof ball, an idiot, unreliable - " I interrupted her with my shallow voice, " Hey, now... that's a bit -" But soon before I could finish it was her turn to interrupt me, " But, you're the best person I have ever met, and you will always be the most important person to me, Ritsu, I truly..." she swallowed deeply and I could hear the silence around us, instead of the clock, only my loud heart beats could be heard as I waited for her to finish. " I truly, love you."
I didn't expect that...or did I?
I didn't care in what way she meant it all I knew was that everything around us stayed quiet, and we both didn't dare to speak. I honestly felt nervous and embarrassed, the two emotions that are rarely stern in me. I was - I felt my cheeks burn and besides the drastic thumping of my heart I felt a large enlightenment in myself, I was so happy.
It was her alluring voice, it was from her lips. Her words... felt so nostalgic. I can still hear them resounding deep inside me. Oh, where have I felt this before?
But I couldn't think over it for too long as I was disturbed by a sudden headache following my thoughts, and I swear I heard myself saying, don't remember, it's hopeless. It sure didn't help the situation when I grabbed my head with my one firm hand and groaned in pain.
No, not right now! I don't want Mio to worry, I don't want to break the moment.
I looked up at Mio, ignoring my headache, my eyes becoming hollow from the pain, I became to pant but I kept my smile. The sweat dripped down my temples and Mio's confused look hurt me.
Not now. Why at this moment?
My vision became a blur and I could hear loud clattering noises coming towards me.
Ah what beautiful music. It captures me inside.
" Yes, that's right!" a person, the same height as me, same hairstyle as me, and the same face as me yelled out loud. " You show 'em!"
" Shut up."
" Awww why? I'm just giving you some encouragement, since your playing is amazing today!"
" But were alone... you don't need to give unnecessary comments," she said annoyed.
" You know you love it. " The girl winked making the other girl blush.
" You're so immature," she mumbled while looking away.
" But that's why you love me, nee, Mio?"
" ..."
Not saying anything, the other girl came from behind and wrapped her arms around Mio's shoulders. As she put her mouth close to Mio's ear, she quietly whispered, exhaling warm breathe, " But, you know, I love you so much, it hurts." It made Mio jump and her pink cheeks turned as red as a rose. But, soon afterwards, calming down she put her hands on where the girl's were, and talked in a alluring voice, " Ritsu, you may be an idiot, unreliable, stupid, lazy, but you're the most important person in my heart, and you will always be the person I love most, I truly love you."
As I regained conscience I couldn't think but question if the dream was real.
It was me, wasn't it? With Mio and those same words...was it a memory of the past? Mio, knows something about me, now I'm sure.
As I glanced around the room I could see Mio looking down at me with a tired face. " If I knew my words were going to make you faint, I wouldn't have said them..." she sighed.
" No!" I straightened up. " That wasn't your fault, I was just thinking too much!"
" What do you mean?"
" Nothing really, I just felt like I've heard you say that -what you said- to me before, and trying to remember made my head hurt." I rubbed the top of my head gently.
" Before..." My eyes wandered towards her, she looked bewildered. " Ritsu could it be that! " She abruptly smacked her lips shut.
" Mio?" I confusingly stared at her.
" It's nothing." She held a hand at her lips, ready to stop her if she spoke involuntarily.
" Mio, tell me." I looked at her seriously.
" What do you mean?" Her hand gently going back to its original place.
" I want you to finish your sentence."
" But, Ritsu, I told you it was nothing. I just got a little exited that's all." Her eyes averted towards another direction.
" Exited about what?"
Okay let's play your little game.
" About... you waking up," she stuttered.
I gave her a dumb look, " Yeah... and I get exited from looking at paper."
" Ritsu!"
" What? You know I didn't say anything wrong."
" Okay, you didn't. So how do you feel?" She hurried to switch the subjects.
" Mio. Don't switch topics."
" Ritsu it's..." I could feel her turning more serious so I tried to catch her eyes which quickly looked away, and I felt Mio's serious tone escaping me.
" It's nothing important really. All I wanted to say was that it would have been nice if you started getting your memories back."
" Why?" I asked her without hesitation, as bluntly as I could.
" Wouldn't you want your memories back?"
" Yea, if I knew that they were good memories," I paused given myself time to think and continued, " actually, you know what, ever since I 'woke' up no one dared to tell me about my memories. Please do tell me, Mio." I gave her a little sneer.
I saw Mio flinch beside me and finally making eye contact, looking relaxed. "Only good memories Ritsu, only good ones."
And she said with such positivity that it made me wonder for a second. Before I could return from my trans, Mio had started to speak again, " Ritsu, you insist on finding your past memories, but right now I feel like making memories in the present. Let's go cherry blossom viewing right now."
I looked at her dumbfounded, she was right. I was concentrating so much on what happened that I forgot about my life in the present. I saw her grabbing my hand and pulling me out of her room ( we were in her bedroom when I woke up). She muttered something too quickly for me to hear and slammed the door in front of me.
" Hey, Mio, what's that for?"
" I told you I need to change."
" But you look beautiful in what you're in right now."
" ... Ritsu, no matter what you say I am not going out in my pyjamas."
I stared at the door in surprise, " You were wearing your pyjamas?"
" Well I sure wasn't naked..." I heard her say as she ruffled through her closet for something to wear.
" Yeah, I know but I thought that was some dress you know...and you never wear your pyjamas when I come by so... "
" Yea, but you came at the moment I woke up so I didn't have time to change."
As if ignoring her last sentence, I gave a small chuckle and continued talking," but you know you could have changed in front of me, I mean were both girls, besides you always changed in high school for gym."
" Any other girl yes, but not you," she sighed, " you'll just begin to stare and make fun of me."
" Hey, I wouldn't do that! It's me were talking abou-"
" Exactly," she cut me off.
I guess my argument was a fail. I thought to myself as I laughed.
I leaned on the door, not scared of her hitting me with it. " Mioooooo, it's taking you ages, I mean I understand your going with me so you have to look your best, but - "
" Sh..u..t u..p!" I heard her voice straining and huffing.
" Yo, Mio what's up with your voice it's sounds as if your having a baby," I asked trying not to laugh. I noticed the door beside me wasn't locked, so I turned the door knob and slightly opened the door, beginning to stare through the little crack. Mio had her back turned to me - thank goodness -, I could see her in a red shirt, and she was in the process of putting on her skirt on - or at least trying to because it definitely wasn't shifting any further from her hips. I bursted out in laughter. " Hahahaha, Mio's getting fat. "
I could see her head turning towards me, slowly like the hand of the clock ticking. Tick, tick, tick and their I saw her face, an aura around her ready to kill. She clenched her fists around her skirt and gave me something which seemed like a smile. " Ritsu, I hope you wrote your Will." She started approaching me, with her skirt hanging on her hips.
Hehehe I can see her underwea... wait why am I thinking about this... I'm not going to stick around here now!
" Ugh... wait! Mio! Don't! " I pleaded as her smile was turning into a large smirk. " I'll wait for you downstairs!" I quickly made out as she was reaching her hands toward my neck. And than I stormed out.
Moments later I saw her descending the stairs as I waited near the end of the hallway. I flinched as I saw her, but later was fascinated by her presence. She was descending so gracefully, careful to not to make a mistake. Her back was straight and her white skirt danced with the light coming from the sun.
She was an ojou-sama alright. I smiled as the thought crossed my mind.
Not thinking of what I was doing, I slowly came towards the stairs, stretching my hand towards Mio. " Shall we go?" I gave her a warm smile.
She looked at me with surprise and slightly blushed, " You don't need to do these kind of embarrassing things." Not awaiting for an answer she put her palm on mine. I gently wrapped my hand against hers, as if trying not to break her fragile fingers, and led her outside.
Well this chapter was longer than the other ones and this is when there is actually finally some Mitsu, hahaha well let's see what will happen next :D