Wow. Just...I have never shared anything I have written, and I finally got up the nerve to post this one. And, I have to say, I am astounded that anyone even wants to read more of it. I am working on a small series of stories that are all inspired by different songs, and one of them made me want to write about Kurt and Blaine having a baby. Well, after I wrote that one, I all the sudden wanted to write the backstory for that one. I won't be posting the original inspiration for this until the entire story is done, and I only have about half of it completed now, but soon. Thank you all for favoriting/subscribing/reviewing. You have no idea how happy you have made me.
Oops, I forgot this in chapter 1. If you recognize it, I don't own it. I own the laptop this was typed on, however. :)
The next morning Casey woke up with a pounding headache. She hadn't slept well after they had all separated into their respective bedrooms, her mind too full. She was having some thoughts that she needed to discuss with someone, but she wasn't sure who. As she heard Blaine and Kurt heading out for the day, most likely going to Lima to visit Kurt's parents, she decided she should probably get out of bed.
Just as she stood up, a knock sounded at the door. "Casey?" she heard her mom call. "Are you awake sweetheart?"
Casey walked over to the door, pulling a robe on over the cotton sleep pants and tee shirt she was wearing. "Good morning Mom. Come on in."
Janet entered the room with a breakfast tray in her hands. A quick look showed Casey that her mom would be joining her for at least a cup of coffee. She headed over to the love seat in the corner of the bedroom, placing the tray on the small table in front of it. "What's wrong sweetheart? You never sleep this late, even though we were up until almost 2 am decorating the tree."
Casey stifled a yawn, clutching her head as a particularly vicious throb started behind her left eye. "Sorry Mom. I didn't sleep well and I have a pounding headache." She watched as her mother silently stood up and went to the bathroom to get pain meds out of the medicine cabinet. "Thanks Mom," she said, throwing the pills in her mouth and washing them down with the glass of water she was handed.
"So, let's eat a light breakfast and then, if you are feeling up to it, I would like to go shopping with my baby girl." Janet said, brushing a dark curl out of her daughter's face. She knew for Casey to have a bad night she had something on her mind, but she also knew that her children were both stubborn and wouldn't speak up until she was ready.
Casey smiled, laying her head on her mom's shoulder, knowing that when she was ready to talk, all she had to say was "Mom", and they would be talking. "Sure Mom. I have some shopping I need to finish myself."
They sat in Casey's room for about a half hour, Janet drinking her second cup of coffee of the morning, and Casey eating toast and an orange, knowing anything else would be too heavy for her with her headache, just discussing nonsensical topics ranging from Casey's roommate's dating drama to the side dishes they were preparing for Christmas dinner. "OK Mom, I'm going to get a shower and get dressed so we can head out." Casey said, standing and stretching, working the kinks out of her back.
Janet gathered the tray and placed a quick kiss on Casey's cheek. "OK Sweetie, I'll see you downstairs."
Within the hour the two women were in the parking lot of the mall, trying to find a parking spot in the insanity that is a shopping mall on December 19th. "Hey! Over there!" Casey called, pointing to the area she saw some people getting into a car. Janet quickly pulled up behind them and put her turn signal on in order to snag the spot. As soon as they were parked, they headed into the mall, bracing themselves for the crowds sure to be found.
"I need to get a couple more things for Blaine, and I need something for Carole. How about you sweetheart?" Janet asked her daughter, who was pulling a list out of her purse.
"Um, well, I have nothing for Kurt yet, because he's so difficult to buy for, and I need something else for Dad and I want to get one little thing for Blaine." Casey decided, reading her shopping list.
The two women headed into the mall, hitting up a shop where the woman made custom handbags. While her mom was looking for a present for Carole, Casey happened to find the most funky laptop bag she had ever seen, and she knew it was perfect for Kurt. That along with some money would make her feel less guilty than if she had gotten him just gift cards, like she usually did.
Janet and Casey roamed the mall, completing all of their shopping in just a few hours. Casey knew she would be going out one more time to get little bits and bobbles for stockings, but that could be done any time in the next few days. "Hey, how's your head sweetheart?" Janet asked her daughter.
"Good. I think the night just got to me, and I just needed to be up and moving for it to go away," Casey answered, shifting her shopping bags to her other hand so she could pull her purse back up on her shoulder.
"Are you ready to head home, or would you like to stop for a light lunch?" Janet inquired
"Lunch sounds great. I have something I think I need to talk to you about." Casey answered, knowing she needed some time alone with her mom, and nothing was guaranteed after they got home.
"Sure sweetie. Let's head over to Sheba's for sandwiches and we can talk there"
The two women loaded their shopping bags into the car trunk and headed over to the little hole in the wall sandwich place that was a favorite amongst their family. As soon as the waitress had taken their orders Casey looked over and met her mother's gaze head on. "Mom, I have been thinking about something Kurt and Blaine said last night and I'm confused."
Janet tried to remember what the boys had discussed the previous night that could have confused her daughter, and nothing came to mind. Of course there was the adoption lawyer news, but Janet knew Casey was very accepting of her brother and his relationship and wouldn't have any problems with them having a family. "What's wrong baby?" she finally asked.
"Well, it's about them wanting to start a family. I know they said they aren't sure of their course of action, and I think that they would much rather have a surrogate, but they don't have one as an option, so they are going to settle for adoption. I feel like that isn't right." She took a deep breath before continuing. "I want them to be able to have a child who is genetically related to them."
Janet looked at her daughter, confused, not sure if she was understanding her. "Casey, what are you thinking?"
"Mom, I think I want to offer to be their surrogate. Kurt could be the father and then it would be genetically related to both of them. And, Blaine and I look so much alike, it would be just the same as if they had a child of their own, just the two of them." She looked at her mother, feeling very unsure of how this was going to be received.
Janet smiled, reaching across the table to hold her daughter's hand, tears filling her eyes. "Casey, something tells me they would be thrilled to have you offer this, but, before you get their hopes up, you have to think about this."
Casey squeezed her mother's hand. "I know, and I'm not going to make any grand announcement right away, but, as you are the person most qualified, in my mind, to talk to me about the emotions of a pregnancy, will you be my sounding board?"
"That's what Mom's are for sweetie." Janet answered, knowing her daughter's heart was in the right place, but concerned for her emotional well being if this happened. "Just keep in mind, pregnancy is a very emotional time, and part of that is you are bonding with the child. You feel it moving in you for 6 months. You have pains, and pee all the time and it's not comfortable, but, at the same time, you have never felt more feminine and more beautiful. And the power you feel, knowing you have created life." Janet stopped as the waitress brought them their sandwiches. As soon as they were alone, she picked up where she had left off. "But, that is all worth it when you hold that precious child in your arms and know you have created this beautiful, perfect shining example of love. And, if you do this, you won't have that. Yes, you will have a precious niece or nephew, but you will have to remember that, even though you carried it for 9 months, you have no claim to the baby, and you never will."
Casey swallowed a bite of her lunch. "I know, and that is what I want to talk to you about. Do you think the knowledge that I am giving my brother his heart's desire will be enough for me? And knowing I will still see the child at least on holidays?"
Janet smiled at her baby, amazed at how wonderful of a person she had grown up to be. "Hon, that is a question only you can answer. I am so proud of you, sweetheart, for even considering this. But, at the end of the day, only you can make the decision if you think this is something you can do."
Casey smiled. "Thanks Mom. I have a lot of thinking to do, don't I?"
"Yes you do sweetie. And don't hesitate to come ask me any questions you may have."
Final note. I am going out of town for the weekend and I don't know if I will get another chapter posted before I leave. If I have internet access while I am gone, I will post, but I can't make any promises.