P.S I Love You

Chapter Five: Key to My Heart

It had been about three weeks, the funeral itching at the back of Kurt's mind still as he sat alone in his room for days at a time. Never once did he come out for dinner or when his friends would stop by to see how he was. Carole would send Finn up with his lunch everyday before her son and husband would leave for work, then she would check in on him with dinner after the boys returned home. Not wanting to damage the vase, Kurt had set aside a spot for Blaine on the nightstand next to a picture of Blaine and a old photo of his mother and his six year old face. He felt as if their smiles were mocking him in some way. He felt weak, like all the light from his life was suddenly sucked away leaving darkness behind. He never wanted to leave his room ever again.

"Kurt, honey?" Their was a light knocking on his door before a smiling Carole Hummel-Hudson peeked her head into the dark room. Kurt brushed the tears away from his tired eyes before sitting up on his freshly made bed.

"Um... is downstairs, she wanted to know if she could talk to you for a second." Carole gave a week smile as the frail child in front of her reluctantly got himself out of bed, fixing his hair before following her down the stairs to the living room. stood in the middle of his living room with a light smile tugging at her ruby red lips as she looked over the pictures on the mantel.

"Mrs. Anderson?" Kurt said in a tiny gruff voice grabbing the attention of the woman in front of him as Carole returned to the laundry room. Cassandra quickly turned around to engulf Kurt in a tight hug.

"Kurt dear, how are you?" Cassandra didn't look the same, she had dark bags under her eyes much like Kurt's and her shoulders were more slumped then normal. She probably looked worse if she had not caked on the make up. But Kurt would never say anything, he actually looked a lot worse.

"Fine." That was all he said as he let go of the short woman and took a seat on the couch next to her.

"I guess your wondering why I came?" Cassandra smiled as Kurt nodded in question.

"I've came to give you this." Cassandra quickly pulled a small white envelope from her purse and handed it to a confused Kurt. The envelope was heavy in his hands as something moved back and forth inside of it.

"What is it?"

"It's the key to your apartment in New York, and the plane ticket."

"Wha-" Kurt was in shock. When had he suddenly have an apartment? In New York for that matter.

"But...I don't understand." Kurt stared wide eyed at Cassandra as if she had grown a second head.

"Kurt...honey, Blaine bought the apartment months ago. It was just after the both of you received your college acceptances. He had everything planed out for your first months of college, the apartment is paid for up until December of next year. Even most of Blaine's things are there. I was hoping that you were still wishing to attend NYU. Blaine wanted you to go, thats why he asked me to give you this." Kurt was still, tears sprang up in his eyes as he opened the envelope and let the key and ticket fall into his lap.

"Do...Do I have to decide right now?" Kurt asked as tears started to fall no matter how much he wished they wouldn't.

"Of course not dear, but Blaine would have wanted you to go. He would talk about how much he wanted you to become a fashion designer like you wanted. That boy was borderline obsessed with the idea of going to New York with you." Mrs. Anderson let out a light laugh as she handed Kurt a tissue. Kurt sniffled and wiped his eyes before giving Cassandra a big hug.

"Im so sorry." Cassandra squeezed him tightly before making sure he understood that none of this was his fault.

"Alright dear, give me a call when you've made up you mind. But no rush okay." Cassandra gave Kurt a quick kiss on the cheek, then she was on her way out the door. When the door finally shut Kurt silently slumped in his seat on the couch, key and ticket still in his hands. What do I do now? Kurt thought as his tears finally stopped for a moment so he could take a deep breath. It was true what Cassandra had said. Blaine did want him to go, but that was when they were going together, they were going to live together. But now what was Kurt to do? Got to New York by himself? Just as that thought came to mind his phone started blaring 'Barbra Streisand' by Duck Sauce.

"Yeah, Rach?"

"Hi Kurt, how are you?"

"Good, you?" Kurt asked flatly.

"Um...fine I just called because first I wanted to see how you were and If you knew where Finn was at the moment? His cellphone is off." Kurt let the usually hyper girl finnish before responding.

"Well, Im good like I said...and Finn is at the shop with my dad." Kurt said with a small chuckle to humor the small girl.

"Oh yes thank you Kurt, I need him to load some boxes into the van for me before I leave for New York." Kurt stayed silent, of corse she would still be going. Rachel had gotten into Julliard on partial scholarship, she had wanted to go to Tisch like Blaine but he had beat her out for the last spot.

"You sill going to Julliard?" Kurt asked in a small voice as he heard her squeal on the other line.

"No...Kurt didn't Finn tell you I was going to Tisch?"

"Wha...what but...?"

"Well because of well Blaine passing away and all, I was the runner up for the scholarship, so when they got the news of his passing they gave it to me! Isn't that wonderful?" To say the least Kurt was in a shock. They do that?

"Im happy for you Rachel." Kurt sounded sad but he tried his best at hiding it, but nothing gets past Rachel Berry.

"Oh...Kurt I'm sorry...I dint mean-"

Kurt cut her off. "Its okay Rach...have fun in New York."

"Your not going?" Rachel asked quietly as if someone had killed her puppy or something.

"Um...wait." Kurt had to pause for a moment, Blaine had to have had a plan, he knew he didn't have much time. So why would he pay for the apartment until December? Why would he instruct his mother to give Kurt and key and a single air line ticket? Something was going on and Kurt knew in that moment what he had to do, no more staying in bed for days and wallowing to himself covered in tears. Blaine would have yelled at him for that and he knew why Blaine was doing this to him. Blaine wanted him to pursue his dreams, Blaine wanted him to go so what was stopping him, Blaine would just have to go with him just like the plan in the first place.

"Rachel do you have an apartment yet in New York?"

"No I was just going to dorm like the norma-"

"Well forget that your gonna room with me in my new apartment." Kurt said letting a smile spread across his face instead of tear filled eyes.

"But Kurt-"

"Rachel don't ask anymore questions okay, just say yes."

"Alright, but I think you have gone crazy." Kurt could practically hear her rolling her eyes on the other end of the line.

"Just pray that New York City is ready for Kurt Hummel and Rachel Berry and you wont have to worry about a thing." Blaine Anderson too Kurt wanted to add, because he was never going to leave without him. They said their goodbyes and Kurt hung up the phone before looking out the window at the sunny summer day in Lima, Ohio.

"I hope your happy now, Blaine." Kurt said with a light sniffle and a weak smile before getting up to find Carole.

Ok a little short but I promise the next chapter is them moving to New York so thats when the story will start to pick up in a major way! I just started school again SENIOR YEAR BABY WOOO! lol anyway the updates may be a little slow so bare with me :) Ok so please R&R and tell me what you think or what you would like me to keep from the movie or take out I need some ideas please! :) Love, Hklover12