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Chapter six- Love or loneliness
It had been five days since he had found out that Stevie was pregnant, he still hadnt spoken to her, it wasnt that he didnt want to and she had tried many times, but he just couldnt face her. He felt awfull avoiding her but he just couldnt see any other option. Stevie walked into the canteen slightly behind Mickey, she glanced around and her attention fixing on Smithy,
he hadnt noticed her yet, he was laughing with callum and Rodger. She smiled to herself, pleased to see him looking happy and relaxed. Mickey lent into Stevies ear "Still no luck with him?" he asked. Stevie shook her head "No, he wont talk to me" She turned to Mickey "He wont even look at me" She took her drink from Mickeys hand, and turned to a free table behind them. He grabbed her arm "No lets sit with them" Mickey smiled. Stevie protested as mickey dragged her towards Smithys table. When they stopped in front of the table Smithy gazed at Stevie and smiled weakly before diverting his gaze to his coffee. Stevie sat down oppisite Smithy, next to Callum, Mickey just hovered around the end of the table. "How is CID?" Callum asked. Stevie and Mickey smiled at each other "You know" she winked. Callum just laughed. Mickeys mobile began to ring and he headed for the door as he answered it, Stevie made a mental note to herself to kill him later. Rodger Stood up and walked past the end the table, "Back to work I go" he smiled as he passed her. Callum looked at Stevie noticing her gaze fixed on Smithy, he smiled, Smithy needed to snap out of this, he needed to open up, "so hows the pregnancy?" Callum asked his eyes fixed on Smithy now. Stevie smiled as Smithys eyes met her, he pushed his chair back and stood up, as he walked past the end of the table Stevie called "Smithy please..." her eyes begging him to cuddle her and tell her it was all going to be ok he turned back to her "I cant Stevie... Im sorry, I cant handle this!" he walked through the canteen and out of the door. Callum slipped his arm round Stevies shoulder "He will come round" he smiled. "No he wont, he is stubborn, and he has decided he cant do it, thats it its over" she sighed. Callum felt the defeat in Stevies words, he stood up and looked down at her "We will have to make him realise what he is losing then" he grinned before moving towards the door. Stevie ran her hand over her belly and smiled, why couldnt Smithy realise how perfect things could be.
"For some strange woman that woman adores you!" The words rang around Smithys office as he continued with his paperwork "What do you want Callum?" Smithy replied. "To be honest, I wouldnt say no to what you got mate... A woman who loves and adores you and I know you love her too" Smithy looked up at Callum "and to top it off you have got a baby on the way!" callum shut the door and sat in the seat oppisite the inspector. "And you are gunna throw it all away because Max bloody Carter knew she was pregnant before you, your acting like a spoilt brat!" Callum raged. "I'll remind you who you are talking to Sergeant" Smithy began. Callum shook his head "Dont pull rank Smithy, why are you giving up?" Smithy looked down back to his paperwork refusing to answer. "You have a chance to be happy" Callum started before Smithy inturupted "Define happy... my dad knocking my mum around while I just left him to it, knowing that when I got back she would be black and blue, is that happy? Or when I lost Louise and Kerry the only two women I ever cared about, watching them both murdered." callum looked at Smithy stunned "And now I have Stevie who truely is the one, I cant risk things going wrong again, I cant lose Stevie, no one would ever come close to her, no one could compare." Smithy sighed "I love her more than I ever imagined possible, I cant be with her, I want to but im..." Smithy stopped himself. Callum stood up banging his hands on the desk "Your scared Smithy" he declared "Well guess what she is bloody petrified and alone and to top that off she has a baby growing in her." Smithy shook his head "Its Stevie, she'll land on her feet she always does" Callum smirked "Your an idiot" Smithy stood up about to argue when callum inturupted "What happens when she meets someone? and that person will bring your kid up! and what if they end up like your parents, some stranger knocking Stevie about infront of you kid!" Callum looked at Smithy "You love her and she loves you. You have a chance here Smithy, you need to grab it!" Smithy sat back down "I have treated her so badly, I dont no what I can do" Callum smiled "Talk to her Smithy... explain how you feel.. beg her if you have to, christ, just do something" Smithys eyes met Callums and he sighed "Anything else Sergeant Stone?" Callum shook his head and walked to the door and opened it, he turned back to Smithy "Your gunna lose eveything, Gov and its all your own doing" Callum continued out the door and shut it behind himself. Smithy sat alone with his thoughts, he smiled at the idea of next christmas he could be sitting around the tree with a beautiful baby and Stevie, the woman who had rescued him this christmas and had given him a year to look foward to, infact a life to look foward to, it was only January and he was already mucking it up. As much as he hated to admit it Callum was right he had one chance.
Smithy pushed the doors to CID open, he had been avoiding going upstairs but now he had to do it, for Stevie, the first person Smithys gaze fell apon was Max, he went to pass him but Max approached him "Havent seen you in a while, was starting to think I had offended you!" he smirked "Or is it a certain lad you have been avoiding, if you can call her a lady" Max laughed, everyone knew Smithy had a temper and max certanly knew how to push his buttons. Smithy felt a hand on his back "You alright gov? anything I can help with?" Smithy turned to Mickey with a smile, he walked to his desk with him, he glared back to Max and then to Stevies empty desk. "Mickey, where is Stevie?" he asked. "She has gone home" Mickey replied. Smithy glanced down to his watch 18.15, still 45 minutes of shift left, he looked up to Mickey "Is she ok?" Smithys worried look touched Mickey and he sighed "She has asked Manson for a transfer, she has gone home to make a final desision, she has to let the DI know in the morning!" Smithy looked horrified "She is leaving... because of me, I have to talk to her, she cant." he walked towards the door to hear Max's voice drag him back "Going to find her, I hear she has a list of potential fathers as long as your arm, you could start with that" Smithy stopped he noticed Callum and Jo come through the doors as he turned to Max, everyones eyes on him. "Smithy dont!" Neils voice sounded around the room. Smithy walked over and lent accross Maxs desk, "You know what I dont care what you have to say, what have you got Max? nothing, not one person in this room would class you as a friend, no partner, no friends, nothing, youre alone!" he smirked "Me on the other hand, I have great friends who have knocked some sense into me and made me realise I have a beautiful girlfriend I love, who loves me and now we have a baby on the way. So I hope your happy with your sarcism because that wont keep you warm at night" he smiled around the room and turned to Neil "She dont want a transfer!" he didnt wait for a reply before moving to the door, he shook Callums hand as he passed between him and Jo. "Thank you mate!" he smiled as he ran out the door. Neil turned to CID "She was tranferring?"
he asked. Mickey grinned "A little white lie Gov"
Knocking on the door with the big bunch of flowers in his hands, his nerves kicked in what if she just threw them at him, he would deserve it. As the door opened, he smiled and passed Stevie the flowers. She looked beautiful, she had on silky white pyjamas, her hair was a mess but she still looked perfect. "Did I wake you?" he asked as she looked to the ground, "No, I just dont feel great" she smiled at him "Come in Smithy" he walked passed her and towards the sitting room, he sat down on the end of the sofa and watched as he perched on the coffee table in front of him, placing the flowers next to herself. "The last few days have been hell, I couldnt handle not seeing you everyday, please dont transfer!" he pleaded, she shook her head "Im going no where I love Sunhill" He looked up to her eyes, "But Mickey said..." he began, as Stevie laughed, he grinned "He tricked me" Stevie looked to the ground "Is that why you came?" She asked. Smithy lifted her chin So her eyes were level with his and smiled "No, I was coming anyway" he ran his thumb over her lips "I love you Stevie Moss and I want our baby if you'll still have me?" he paused "Stone told me to come and beg you for another chance" and with that he sunk down on to his knees "get up Smithy!" She protested a smile on her face. "No.. not until you forgive me?" he begged. Stevie smiled "I already had" Smithy ran his hands along her thighs before stopping on her hips, he glanced up at her and going onto one knee "Marry me... I dont have a ring... but marry me?" staying on one knee he waited for an answer. he didnt like how long she was taking. He froze as she opened her mouth...