Title: Ownership
Theme 4: Our Distance and That Person
Rating: T
Genre: Angst
(This one is AU)
I always thought I had you under my thumb. You were the untameable, teasing, flirting, going around, but never demeaning yourself. You did it for fun. Then it was my turn. I had truly thought you were finally returning my feelings. You let me hold you, something you never let others do. You let down walls around me. And then she came around. She was an awkward and pitiable thing, silent as hell in school. Smart as hell too. That's what you said to me when you took her under your wing, to make her resilient. I dismissed the twinkle in your eyes when you looked at her, the gentle smile you only seemed to wear when she was around.
But then you began breaking away from me, you would less and less time with me, more time with her. You would make excuses when you showed up late at the apartment we shared. You would always be flushed, a grin on your face, I used to dismiss it as a mere good day. But the day you came to me, hands balled into fists, nervous as hell... I thought someone hurt you. I was fierce and asked who it was. But then you said the words that broke me.
"I'm leaving you Kisuke... I never meant to get in so deep with you... I didn't want to hurt you."
You walked right past me, I was numb, I couldn't believe what you had said to me. You came walking back with a bag bulging to the seam with random things. I stared at the door and finally saw her, she was standing there. Her face was blank as she returned my stare. She wasn't remorseful or sorry. When you grabbed her hand desperately she kissed your cheek and you walked away with her. By the time you were out of sight, I had finally regained my thought process.
And all I could think of was how much I hated her for stealing you. I hated you for leaving me.
But then it hit me like a frozen slush ball. It was a cold striking thought.
'I never had her, and Soifon was the one that always did.'