I sat all alone in my room. It was a Sunday night and there was no where to go. I felt myself sinking past the depression stage, now it was more like I'm going crazy and I don't give a fuck stage. I had more than enough dreams involving Ms. Stewart, no not those kinds of dreams. Just the normal ones when I see her, or I'm trying to find her. But those always kill me, it's horrible I'm constantly thinking about her. But now when I sleep, I dream of her. Hell it's not like I'm doing anything "bad" with her. It's like my life, I can see her and talk to her, but can never have her.

I already tried the lets not talk to her or look at her stage. But that clearly wasn't working. The school year was ending, and I wouldn't see her for a whole summer. Oh how that would kill me. I was hoping to forget about her, but these dreams constantly kept her in my mind. I didn't want to fall in love with her, it wasn't like that. At first I was like great a hot teacher who I could stare at during math class. I always hated math, and I thought she'd make it a little more interesting. But oh, did she make it a lot more interesting. Before I knew it, I fell in love with her. Why did she have to be so perfect? I don't even think she knows how perfect she is. I'm surprised guys aren't lining up to be with her.

Now the next thing that screwed me over was kissing her. Sure I kissed a fair amount of guys, but it never felt amazing. I just always thought oh this is how a kiss should feel. But then Kim kissed me, and I never felt anything more amazing. Well until Ms. Stewart kissed me, well she didn't know. I was dressed as a guy. But I still did kiss her, and now I knew how it felt. I just wanted more. And you know what really sucks? I have absolutely no chance with her, none. Number one, she's defiantly straight, I mean she told me about all the boys she dated. Number two, she's my math teacher who is 23, and I'm 17. That's a six year age difference, well actually five because she just turned 23, and I'll soon be turning 18. And number three, let's say she "loves" me. It's not like she'd tell me. One that would ruin her life if anyone found out and it's hard to keep a secret relationship. Or she'd be too afraid to tell me because she wouldn't know if I'd feel the same way back. Well anyways that made me feel so much better. I looked over at the clock, it was 12:00. I turned off the lights, and decided to get some sleep.

I dragged my feet as I went to my next period class. Today was another boring day. I wish I was graduating this year, sadly I had to be here for a whole other year. At least it was the last day of school. As I made my way to my locker everything seemed normal until I heard yelling. The yelling sounded like Amber. I quickly made my way to the noise. There Amber was screaming at Oliver. Oliver was on his knees. There also appeared to be banana smoothie all over his head. With one last yell Amber slapped Oliver across the face.

"Come on Lilly." Amber yelled dragging me to math.

"Amber calm down." I yelled as she pulled me into math. I pulled my arm away from her finally. I was losing the circulation because she was gripping it so tight.

"Calm down! How the fuck can I calm down when that slut fucked my boyfriend." Amber yelled.

"Wow watch the language." Ms. Stewart said entering the classroom. Amber completely ignored Ms. Stewart and went back to complaining to me.

"…so then he wouldn't answer his cell phone, IM me back, email me back, text me back, or answer his house phone. So I went over to his house, I even knocked and no he wouldn't answer! And you know why?" Amber asked angrily still not lowering her voice. I noticed Ms. Stewart was listening to this convocation, she was trying not to laugh.

"Oh why Amber?" I asked trying to care.

"Because he was too busy fucking that slut Ashley!" Amber yelled throwing her hands in the air.

"Language." Ms. Stewart mumbled as she brought her attention back to the papers she was grading.

"There she is." Amber whispered angrily as she pointed to Ashley, who was now flirting with Oliver.

"Oh well I'm sure you can talk to her after class…"I said going to my seat.

"I don't think so come on." Amber said pulling me by my shirt. Ms. Stewart didn't see us leave.

"Bitch get the fuck over here." Amber yelled.

"Are you talking to me?" Ashley asked bringing her attention to Amber.

"Look Amber leave Ashley alone. There's enough room on the Ollie Trolley for everyone." Oliver said winking.

"No Ollie, you're mine. "Ashley said giving him a kiss on the lips.

"What's going on?" Jake asked walking towards me.

"There fighting over Oliver." I said rolling my eyes. "Why is like everyone in the hallway?"

"I don't know, my teacher isn't doing anything so I just left." He said looking at Amber who was now screaming at Ashley.

Before I knew it I saw Amber fling herself on Ashley. She was on Ashley's back tugging at her hair. By now a huge group of kids had formed around them. I saw Amber fly off her back and Ashley came down right on top of her. Ashley began slapping Amber, but that soon ended when Amber punched Ashley in the eye, then soon the nose. A crack was heard, and blood went everywhere. Ashley's nose had to be broken. I quickly ran to the scene were Amber continued to hit Ashley. I grabbed Amber, it wasn't easy holding her back.

"Lilly, let me lose now! "Amber screamed.

"Amber you're gunna kill her if you keep it up." I said still holding Amber back from Ashley.

By now the principle had came over. He quickly called the nurse when he saw Ashley lying on the ground.

"Who did this?" He yelled, his face turning red.

"Amber did sir." Oliver said pointing at Amber.

"You, office now." He said angrily. "Way to ruin the last day."

I quickly let go of Amber as she followed him to his office. Me and the rest of the students went back to our classes. The bell shortly rung. I began to pack up my stuff.

"So what went on out there?"Ms. Stewart asked walking towards me. I explained the huge fight between Amber and Ashley.

"It's my fault, I should have been watching Amber after she had that fit." Ms. Stewart sighed.

"Nah I should have stopped her, she did drag me out there." I pointed out. "So what do you think is going to happen to Amber?"

"She'll probably have community service over the summer." Ms. Stewart said.

"Oh man she's going to hate that." I said already feeling the annoyance of listening to her complain to me all summer.

"So how's what's his name?" Ms. Stewart asked, her face turning a little red.

"Huh, oh you mean Matt?" I asked.

"Yeah him…" She said softly.

"I broke up with him after prom." I said.

"Oh why?" She asked smiling a bit.

"He tried to…you know." I said hoping she would catch on.

"That pig." She said after thinking about it for a few seconds.

"Yeah, well I haven't talked to him since." I said smiling.

"Isn't he in your band?" She asked.

"Yeah, well I see him but we don't talk." I said.

We stood there for a bit.

"Well I'm going to miss you." She said frowning.

"I know, but there's always next year." I said trying to perk up.

"Right." She said trying to smile.

"Well, see you in two months…"I said. Before she answered she pulled me into a hug.

Right then I knew this summer was going to be the worst summer ever.

Once again thanks for all the reviews. Sorry for not updating sooner. I'm going to skip past the summer, and go into her senior year. Well anyways reviews are great.:)